I held my precious son in my arms as he took his last breath. I felt the life go out of his body. I felt numb. Over the next days, I stayed busy making sure his funeral was like he would want, clearing out his apartment and packing his things.

When things quieted, I sat in my back yard with my husband. A hummingbird flew up to my face and just floated there a bit. My husband and I were sure it was a sign. Before this, I didn't know how I'd live with my grief.

Within 2 weeks, I started slowly back to work. When I arrived at work, a huge white moth was waiting for me next to the front door lock of the store. This was only the start....white butterflies followed me all summer , especially when I was crying. 

Months after his physical death, I received a life insurance check which covered an old debt of mine that weighed heavy on my shoulders.  At age 23, my son took out a life insurance policy, having no idea he'd be diagnosed with cancer at 24.

Also, after D.J. left for Heaven, as soon as I went back to work at my store, my sales quadrupled and have never gone down. I am in a tiny town and have supernatural income.

I have had radio stations change, lights go out, XBOXes come on, certain music play at certain times, pennies, small objects moved....

I've had a spiritual visitor in my store that gifted me with a huge diamond ring, my size, then disappear.  I wear this ring always.

There is a secret story about how DJ and I met my husband at an expo. He borrowed a cable tie. When I woke on my birthday, a cable tie was under me by my pillow! Two other times when I was sad or with anxiety, an identical cable tie has appeared in my path.

I can feel his presence beside me when I'm driving.  I hold his hand.

Last week, his phone rang, even with the power off. I also found at the backdoor of my store, the cross with verse I bought for him...placed in my path. Then today, I was stressing and cried out...felt my new watch phone go off and it said DJ was calling me!!!! His phone is not active and not connected with my new watch. I ran down the hall to show my employees. They couldn't believe their eyes!

I could go on and on...so many comforts from Heaven. I thank the Lord and ask him on occasion to let DJ be near me. He never fails me. He has been faithful to His promise to be near to those who mourn.  I give Jesus the glory and thanksgiving ...for the REAL hope of Heaven and our glorious reunion of loved ones.

Faith , Hope and Love last forever.  But Love is the greatest.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?       Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           No

Did you see the deceased?        No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

How long did the experience last?       Usually only short moments

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        Sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Love

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Not directly, but he helps watch over me. He even designed a jacket from Heaven with his name on it.  It's sold worldwide now. I own several now.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         It's not just one or two random experiences. I get consistent real signs. I am beyond positive my experiences are real and have multiple witnesses.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          Almost every experience has been soon after I was sad or grieving and concentrating on our mother /son love. A connection that physical death cannot separate.  I am 100% convinced of this. If I am sad and feel far from DJ, I ask Jesus to let him send a sign and He lets DJ send a sign. I'm thankful.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          Yes

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     The worst is that I miss my son everyday. The good amazing beautiful part is that he is alive and well with the Lord and that I'll see him again.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Yes                 Describe:            I love more, give more, hug more, praise the Lord more

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes     More certain in my faith. God is real!

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Yes     I've had so many irrefutable signs that I'm convinced Heaven and God are 100% real. It changed my life.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact? Yes

With my Mom. I promises to send her items in pink, or signs in pink

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?    No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Thankfulness, happy, peaceful

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

An angel was sent to deliver a beautiful diamond ring to me, then she disappeared. I have a witness and still wear the ring. He's played sings for me on my Birthday.  I recorded and sent to my Mom. I have a hundred experienceS to share. Today he called my phone watch. I ran to show my employees!

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes

I definitely feel more connected to others and sometimes we think the same thoughts at the same time

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?           Yes

The angel that visited. And I feel Jesus has been near when I am on my knees in quiet.

Did you see a light?          No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Most people love to hear my experiences. Some cry. I get a feeling when I am supposed to share my story, then I do. One person I shared my son's story with and the Hope of Heaven, came back months later and told me hours after I shared my experiences and faith, her son died. She came back to thank me for sharing Hope.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      Only to reiterate. God is real. Heaven is real. There is definitely an afterlife and we should all live accordingly.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.   I just hope I could get my feeling of excitement and belief across with short stories....Life after death exists!