With Love and Gratitude - I must go... Bunny ~

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes I thought I was dreaming - yet never had someone who appeared in my dream confirm he was there in a letter following the 'dream.' Plus, continue the visits nightly. Still communicates although he passed in 2103.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes Three months prior to my letter to him asking for clarification on a term - I was struck by a city bus running a red light breaking my neck. You could say I was still in recovery - in addition, I will never get better.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I thought I was dreaming. It took six years of weekly letters and his passing before I had an opportunity to reread all 450 of our letters and realize - I too had lapsed into spirit - in order to meet with him. When spirits original state of direct communication is reached, neither the body nor the miracle serves any purpose. It never occurred to me I could lapse into spirit.

Was the experience dream like in any way? It was ethereal and abstract, full of brilliant colors and perfect peace. I never saw his face, it was either a profile or abstract-

Yet, I knew it was him, especially since he confirmed my suspicions in his following letter. Once confirmed, it was natural to accept and enjoy the love, grace, and peace he left behind.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? At first, I thought I was dreaming and dreams can be just as vivid. My dreams are seldom, if ever, peaceful and full of the sense of love. In fact, in most of my dreams I am running from someone, or trying to untangled my situation, looking for my car, etc. Once it was confirmed we were really communicating - it was fabulous! Also, playful, loving, and joyful!

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No sounds. However, when I know he is coming - usually at night when I am in bed, in the dark - I can tell by the images that appear with my eyes closed that he is arriving. Also, he floods me in my favorite color - so I always know when he is arriving in my mind. I call it - in the room!). Like today, when I asked if I should respond to this website - I hear him distinctly. Sometimes I hear, 'don't use that!' or comments to some unasked question.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? Yes Not always, yet one night we seemed to be in a garden with beautiful colors, not necessarily flowers, just groups of colors. The old song, In the Garden came to mind and I could not remember the words - so I jumped out of bed and pulled up the lyrics. I come to the garden alone, while the dew is still on the roses...Going back to bed, I heard - you will never be alone.

Did you see a light? Yes. Vibrant light and beautiful colors - always moving and sensual/loving.

Did you meet or see any other beings? No

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes

Yes. While 'dreaming' I saw two blue vases in a window with the sun shining through them - very pretty. That afternoon I walked into an antique store and saw the same two blue vases in a glass case with the sun shining through them. He explained these experiences are his way of showing me he is watching over me. Once, I was driving up a windy canyon road when I saw a red car coming around the corner in my lane speeding. I slowed for the next corner, and saw nothing. The following corner was a left turn with a great vista of the canyon and river below - no car. However, the following right turn a red car was passing another car on the curve and came speeding around the corner in my lane! Had I not slowed down the red car would have struck me. These things happen all the time. I try to keep track of them -

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes Yes. What I hear is encouragement for a specific activity or event - Not so much about the precise event, just things like, you can do this! Or, mostly, reminding me we are all One in spirit which reminds me to forgive myself for forgetting we are the same. Meaning, how I see others is how I see myself.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes Yes, I was never aware my 5 senses were working - I was always aware of how peaceful I became and the pure love he surrounded me with, even after ha faded out. Having been a foster child I had never experienced love - until this experience.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes Yes, If you call knowing he is coming - and knowing when he fades out. During the event time does not seem to exist.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Yes, I experience knowing what others are going to say before they say it. I have always been like this - yet, now it seems more profound. Things pop into my mind and turn out to be true - or appear. I have a sense of allowing things to turn out the way they are meant to be - which results in having a peaceful mind.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events? Yes Yes, Only in the abstract. Allowing myself to understand a peaceful mind can change events, as we perceive them. There is no past, nor future - just the moment. Remember to focus on the moment and not try to orchestrate the future or the past!

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Yes Yes, if you can call thinking I was dreaming (for the first six years) it is like waking up - only in a happy mood, always. Before he passed he left the room full of peace. Now, When I needed encouragement I awoke to red roses covering both black chests in my bedroom. I closed my eyes, and they were still there - open my eyes - still there. His way of saying - all will turn out okay!

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes Yes, I always thought I knew things - and now I know things. Like my daughters - I know what they are not telling me - and would deny. Eventually, turns out I was right. It is more acute than before - or perhaps I have had a change in my way of perceiving situations and things.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes Yes, of course! I am not as likely to blame others for mishaps, instead more aware of how I may have set it up? Meaning, I now know when I am in my ego and can correct myself and move on.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? While he was alive I was homeless for nearly four of the six years. Now, I have the privacy missing as a homeless person - yet I moved to an area where I do not know anyone and have been working on expanding my horizons in this area. I recognize how I sabotaged

myself, in the past - and now I am willing to let it be the way it is meant to be. I have let toxic relationships go: Enjoy my daily life: Not religious - but spiritual, as we all are: and written a book - my new career.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Yes. I am at peace with my loveless upbringing. I still know the stories but, that was then, this is Now! Those who do not understand will leave - and those who do understand will eventually appear...

Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Yes. While he was alive I mentioned our communications to no one. Than realized no one of his stature writes 450 letters not realizing at some point they could become a book. Besides, his letters demonstrate a playful side not demonstrated during his lectures. The few people I knew who were close to him and had known him for years were anxious to read our story - now no longer communicate with me. Friends who have read my book have avoided me. Daughters - pretty much the same, they do not mention the book, except to say - they are proud of me.

What emotions did you experience following your experience? Every day, I realize how blessed I am for having this experience. He is my - Go-to person/spirit when I need someone to understand. I believe this is the beginning, not the end of the story. Plus, He never let's me down!

What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was when he confirmed he was the one meeting with me in spirit and continued until he passed. (Although he never went into detail on how it works). The worst part - He tolerated and responded to my goofy letters - which no one should write to an erudite professional - and only asked for one thing - that I visit the Foundation. I did not go because I had lost teeth, hair, etc. from the accident and was embarrassed - while he was deathly ill and I never had a chance to say - Good-Bye! (Or get a hug. or meet him in person).

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I highly recommend it!

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Yes. I am answering - Yes - because it is important to me that you know I have serious residuals from a broken neck - Yet, I have never smoked, do not drink, not on meds and never tried drugs.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Yes. Again: I believe I have given you a truthful accounting of my experience. Have I included everything that took place during our six years of letters? Probably not - yet enough for you to understand there is more to life than we know. I also realize there are those who will not believe a word of it - and this is okay, too. In addition, this experience is on going...

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. My usual way of responding to this kind of question - is after I submit I will remember - I should have mentioned this/that! You know where to find me if you have questions. PS: I have long been aware of Out of Body and Near Death experiences - I have never heard of anyone who had an ongoing connection with spirit communication - have you?