Okay how should I start....

Then I was sitting in the room with family everyone was crying we are still at the hospital as I was experiencing all this I was praying for everyone to stay strong and for us to know he is in good hands and my Grandmother couldn't stop crying all of a sudden I felt that strong force again I felt him there in the room with us and all of a sudden everyone stopped crying and everyone was calm its like they knew he was there too. when we were leaving the hospital I still wanted a sign from God that he was in his hands. As soon as I stepped foot outside the hospital I saw a white dove and it flew in the air right in front of me but know one else saw it. I was the only one. Then when I get in the car and we start driving off there was a woman standing right next to the hospital holding a sign that said "Let every ending be a new beginning" I felt like that was my sign that I was supposed to read that sign I don't feel like it was a coincidence that sign was there. I felt  at peace after all of this. when I got home and was trying to go to sleep I felt very sad and hurt again that he was gone and I fell asleep and in my dream I felt like I saw him standing at my bed side and I woke up at peace again. This was a good experience for me.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

I felt his arms around me hugging me

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   He never really hugged me like that in my life when he was still here. I think he was telling me in his own way that he is going to be alright and that he loved me

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  no

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  I guess its possible, but doubtful.

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        off and on about 3 hours

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

I sensed that he was happy he passed non suffering and he knew his time was coming he felt happy to be in a better place now

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I had never felt a force so strong, the white dove know one else saw I think it was for me, he was telling me he is with God, or it was possibly when his soul left earth. I feel like the sign I saw was not just a coincidence

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I felt very sad. He was young only 64 or 65. I knew his time was coming but it came as a shock to us all. It was very hard to see but I knew somehow he would be in a better place

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I didn't feel as sad anymore...I felt at peace. I was still sad but felt more at peace

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      worst part was watching him die. Best part was knowing he was in a better place and knowing he was with me

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  No           

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            After the experience I felt at peace and almost like he was watching us.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Uncertain

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

after that experience. I was in a grave site a couple of times and its almost like I can feel spirits around me sometimes. I was at one beautiful grave site and I was looking at this lady's grave. something was holding me right there, I couldn't move. I stood there looking at her grave for like 10 min. its like she wanted me there at that moment. sometimes I feel like I can still feel my grandpa next to me literally

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I felt something strange in my body but im not sure what it was

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?          No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            Yes

I felt the same strong force at the funeral

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Some didn't believe me, others thought it was an awesome experience

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       no

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes