Celeste P's ADC
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Experience description:

1-9-09

            Yesterday I had to work on my taxes.  Of course, I saw all of the bills associated with Chris death from 2008.  Afterwards, I felt so sad and tired, I began to cry.  I went into his library and touched some of his things, and a picture of him with Rollo.  I cried and sobbed for about 15 minutes, until I felt more tired, and even relaxed.  I allowed myself to stare into the mirror.  I just sat there in front of the mirror and stared, even closed my eyes from time to time.  After a little while I saw a dim face looking out at me.  It was Chris, and he was actually looking at me, this was not like a home movie or a photograph like the previous mirror experience.  His face moved closer, and then receded, always looking at me and smiling, as if to say, Its okay, Celeste, everything will be okay.  Im here for you, I have not really left.  The image of his face moved back and forth several times, and then faded.  I felt comforted afterwards.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

This is how he appeared when he was healthy and alive.  His expression was exactly the one he had when he was trying to reassure me of something.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            dim, sort of transparent.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       chest upward

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       he appeared to be about 40.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            healthy, before he ever got cancer.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        10-20 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         the beginning was more gradual, the way the light seemed to change in the mirror, dark clouds and then flashes of light.  then his face appeared.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

calm, reassuring

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  he was just trying to reassure me that he was with me and that he would always be so.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was probably real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           maybe it was my imagination playing tricks on me with the light and mirror.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Uncertain

I was in a relaxed state, although fully awake.  

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was very happy to see this image of Chris, that looked so alive in his expressions

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

For a time I felt better, and cumulatively, I felt reassured, but the immediate calm after such an experience does not last for more than a day or two.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      only that it had to end, otherwise, it was all wonderful.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain                  Describe:            cumulatively, these ADC have strengthened my beliefs, and actually widened the picture I have of what may lie ahead when we pass on.           

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I felt reassured that Chris' soul was waiting for me.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     Chris keeps showing me again and again that he is here with me, even if not in flesh.  His soul is alive and will always love me and wait for me.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

A few weeks before Chris died I asked him to come back and tell me that he was okay where he was.  He agreed, and on a different day  he said, "I'll find you someday."

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt lucky to have had this experience.  I felt much more peaceful than I had earlier.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Chris soul was somewhere in another dimension.

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           N0 comment

Just some small flashing lights in the mirror.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     some were fascinated

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       I think that this was really Chris looking out at me from another plane.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

several ADCs and many telepathies with  my husband while he was alive.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    1.You need to ask how long the experience enabled joyous, or other feelings.  I feel better after these experiences for awhile, but then grief overcomes me in a few days. 

2.  You should be asking if any other events took place which seem to have a direct connection with the ADC, such as synchronicity.

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

12-27-08

            Chris appeared to me just as I was about to wake up.  His apparition may have been what woke me.  He was standing at the foot of my bed, where I often feel him, but this time I saw him.  He was standing in a background of cloud or mist, and I could see him from the knees up.  He was wearing a blue denim shirt and jeans.  His hair was as he had  worn it just before he got sick again, long enough on the top to comb over to the side.  He was healthy and smiling, and he was not speaking with his lips, but his eyes were saying, Its okay.  Im here for you and I love you.

I opened my eyes and his image was gone, but I knew he had been there, just as sure as I felt Quincys warm little body against me in bed.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

He was standing in a background of cloud or mist, and I could see him from the knees up.  He was wearing a blue denim shirt and jeans.  His hair was as he had  worn it just before he got sick again, long enough on the top to comb over to the side.  He was healthy and smiling.

He was standing with his head slightly to the side, as he smiled.  he often had this mannerism when he was trying to reassure me of something.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            very clear, not transparent, but not quite solid.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       from the knees up

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       No.  He appeared to be slightly younger than when he had first gotten ill with cancer, maybe about 55.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            he was very healthy.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        5-10 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         no, he just appeared in my mind, just before I opened my eyes (but was already awake), and then faded away.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Cheerful, positive, wanting to promote those feelings in me.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  He was telling me again that not only was he okay, but that everything was okay, including me.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was probably real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I felt Chris' presence very intensely, but because I had just awakened, but had not yet opened my eyes, it made me wonder if this vision was not just an illusion.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes

dreamlike, in that he was standing in a kind of mist, and that I was just waking up.  but, prior to this, I do not recall having any dreams of Chris that night.  this was just his image staring at me, and communicating my telepathy.  Chris and I had much telepathy during our marriage together. 

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was happy to see him, and feel his message to me.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I felt much better for having had this vision of Chris.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part was that I got to visit with Chris, and see him as he was whenever he wanted to comfort me.  It was exactly his expression whenever he wanted to reassure me of anything. And that he was healthy, and not the terrible wasting specter I so often think of when I recount the days of his last illness.  The worst part was that it was over.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain                  Describe:            it continues to change the more ADCs I experience.  

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     the more ADC I have with Chris, the more reassured I am that we will be reunited someday.  His demeanor gave me the feeling that it might seem like a long time to me , but that it really was not so long at all.

 Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     He was not only at peace with where he was, but his spirit was alive, and he was still Chris.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

 Before Chris died, I asked him to come back and tell me that he was okay.  Another day, he also said to me, as he was crying, "I'll find you someday."

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt comforted for much of the day because of the experience.  the whole Christmas period had been very depressing and lonely for me in general.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain

 time may have seemed to stand still, as if Chris were going to be here at the foot of my bed for a long time.

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain

 Chris may have been communicating that there was a place for his death in the universe, and also a place where someday we would be reunited, and that he was completely certain of this.

 Did you become aware of future events?       No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

 Did you see a light?           Uncertain

 All I can remember is that he was standing in a mist from the knees down.  I don't think he was illuminated in any way, but I am not sure.

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

 Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Most people were fascinated, and admitted that a friend or parent may have had similar experiences with a deceased loved one.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

  Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       no

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

at least 8 ADC, which I am in the process of sharing with you in this format.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

 

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

12-10-08

            I had some sort of a nightmare, and woke myself up by yelling out. I dont know what it was about, but when I opened my eyes, I saw a soft light with a sort of tail like a comet move into the room and hover over me.  It had a concerned face staring down at me for a few seconds, and was gone.  I believe this was Chris, but the face was unearthly.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

this was a very ethereal vision, very much made up of light, and an amorphous shape, which swirled above my head while I lay in bed.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            somewhat transparent

            How much of the deceased did you see?       his face, and a comet like body

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       the face was other worldly, but it looked like a younger Chris than when he died.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            the vision did not appear ill, but ghost like, spirit like.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        about 5-10 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         the second I cried out in my sleep, I awoke, eyes open.  I saw a lighted shape see

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

very concerned about the fact that I had a dream which made me scream.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           because I was fully wide awake when I saw the apparition.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Uncertain

it was an otherworldly being, unlike anything I had ever imagined.                     

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I do not remember what the dream was about which caused me to awake myself by crying out.  it was something I was fearful of, I do remember yelling out, "NO," upon awakening. When I saw the apparition, it made me feel as though I were not alone, and that there was something in its appearance that wanted to comfort me, and not to leave me alone with my fear.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Uncertain

I still felt very full  of grief for his loss.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The worst part was that it was not longer, and the best part was just having it happen, being able to see Chris in this way, looking concerned for me.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:            each one of these ADC has changed my attitude about life, and life after 'death.'  Now I know for certain that there is a realm for our spirits once we leave this earth.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes            This gave me another idea of how a spirit could present himself.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

 Before Chris died, I asked him to promise to come back and tell me that he was alright after he crossed over.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt that Chris was trying to look out for me from wherever he was, and that did make me feel comforted.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain

 The spirit world is closer than we perceive.  They are there for us, watching closely.

 Did you see a light?           Yes

 Just the light that was the being.

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

 Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     I think most people were interested, and many had told me that they knew of others who had lost a spouse and had had similar incidents.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

I have had several ADC, one with my grandfather when in 1974, one with one of my dogs in 2005, and at least 6 with my husband in 2008-9.  I will eventually enter all of these on this website.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

 

Experience description:  

4-24-08

            Last night I dreamt that Chris was walking around places with me, that he was healthy and smiling.  He seemed happy and restful, and he looked youthful as he did in his late 30's.  His smile radiated that unconditional love that he always showed me. 

             When we ran into a group of people, they greeted us, but a few clearly said that Chris had to go back from the place he came, that he did not belong to here  any longer.  Chris and I walked on.  We seemed to be on sidewalks, on a pleasant day, and then stopped at an arched doorway that seemed as if it might have been an Italian caf, as we used to go to.  I though we were going to go in together, but he made no move to enter with me, but spoke to me as he did when we were out on a weekend, relaxed and content. I dont know what he said to me just then, but it was calming. I asked him if he had to go and he gave me that beautiful, sweet smile that he always had, and said, I can ask Nietzsche anything I want to, now, and hear Beethoven play piano anytime I want to.  I knew he was in a good place. 

            Then I awoke.  Tomorrow is the day I first met Chris in 1974. I was not immediately sad, but felt a certain peace after this dream, or visitation of his spirit. 

12-2-08

            This was a lucid dream. I still recall it very vividly. I remember thinking that when I saw Chris, that I knew I was dreaming, and that I thought he was dead, but I allowed it to unfold peacefully. I saw him, but did not see myself, just as if I were really walking with him, and seeing everything through my living eyes.  He was holding my hand and talking to me pleasantly, and lovingly, though I dont recall what he said during our walk. He had the demeanor he used to have whenever he wanted to comfort or reassure me about something that was bothering me, calm and sweetness were in his voice.  I remember the arched doorway was a white stucco.  I could see past it to a larger building where others were milling about inside.  I thought they were waiters because they wore black and white.  I thought we were going in for coffee as we did so many times during our life together.  He pressed my hand and walked inside smiling. Father Nigel said it was really Chris spirit coming to visit with me, and that he believes that I had a glimpse of heaven.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    I do not remember what Chris was saying as we walked toward the cafe, but he was talking in human form.  At the end, I remember very clearly his telling me how he could hear Beethoven play piano, and how he could ask Nietzsche anything.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  No, the voice came from Chris' lips.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           It was the same voice he had when he was alive.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

He held my hand as we walked, and also pressed my hand with his as he entered the doorway without me.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   familiar

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  love, comfort, and the fact that I could not follow him any further.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  no

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

Chris was healthy and peaceful looking, not ravaged by waste and disease as when he was dying.  He looked as he had when he was in his late 30's.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            He was solid and human.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       I saw his entire body, just as in real life.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       Chris was 57 when he died, he looked in his late 30's here.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            He was very healthy here, not at all like the wasting man I sometimes have trouble putting out of my conscious mind.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Uncertain

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           I may have sensed that spring was in the air, the way I remember the time at the end of April was when I first met him, and has remained in my mind the same, for every April.  I think that Chris smelled like a freshly showered Chris, but I am not sure.

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     Like Chris did every morning of our life together.

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   that he was alive and healthy.

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        no. the windows were closed, and none of his belongings were in the room at the time of my dream.

How long did the experience last?        however long a dream lasts.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         no, this all seemed like a real experience in living time.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

unconditional love for me, and his wanting to give me comfort.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  He indicated to me by his last comments, that he was in a place of complete peace, combined with knowledge and creativity.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I knew that Chris was already dead when he came to me in this 'dream,' and I remember acknowledging that to myself and telling myself that I would 'just go with it' to see what would happen. I also did not see myself, as we do not see the whole of ourselves when we are in our waking lives, but only limbs and torso from our own eyes.  I thought I must be dreaming, but it had an unbroken sequence, unlike the fragmented dreams I usually have when sleeping.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Uncertain

At first I thought I was dreaming, but then everything seemed so real.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was very glad to see Chris and to see him healthy and peaceful.  I was overjoyed to be with him once more and have him talking to me and holding hands, the way we had always done.  I was grateful to know that he was safe, happy, and no longer afraid and angry at this impeding death.  Also, I was happy to know that he still loved me , and always would, and that he forgave my shortcomings of coping with his death.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

Before Chris died, I had asked him to come back to me and tell me that he was alright.  he did more than that, in giving his love and forgiveness.  I felt better than I had previously.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part was being able to spend some loving time with Chris.  The worst was that I could not enter the doorway with him.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         N0 comment                        Describe:      It is all about love, although I still have a terrible time coping with the physical loss of my husband.

 Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I know that when our body dies, we do not; that we will be reunited with our loved ones when we pass from this world, and that we have some purpose in remaining behind when we lose the   ones we love.

 Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            N0 comment            I know now that when we die, we will take with us, love and knowledge, and that Chris will be there for me.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

 Before Chris died, he said," I'll find you someday."  On a different day, I had asked him to come back and tell me that he was alright.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          N0 response
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            The same as described in #23, but I was disappointed that the experience was over.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

 I felt peaceful during the experience, as though his time with him would not come to an end.

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

 not at the time.

 Did you become aware of future events?       No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

I had

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            Yes

 I cannot identify the people who pointed at us and said, "you don't belong here." and I don't know if they meant Chris or me.

 Did you see a light?           No

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            Yes

 I knew I was somewhere that I had never been before, but I did not care to question where, because I was just so happy to be anywhere with Chris.

 Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     many said they had had ADC as well. I think a few thought that I was unstable.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

  Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       I do have much more spiritual knowledge, and sometimes that gives me a little comfort.  Unfortunately, the bounds of daily life without my husband are very difficult, and I wish I could be with him wherever he is.

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

7 other ADC.  When my husband was alive, we had many, many mental telepathy communications together.  I have had premonitions from time to time during my life, and now I try to be more open to my intuition.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes