Cindy J ADC
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Experience description:

I was 16 years old when my paternal grandmother passed away. I had attended her funeral that day. In all of my short life, I had probably visited her once a month, so I barely knew her. . My father did not go to the town he grew up in very often, so I really didn’t have a relationship with her at all. I remembered her as being very kind and caring, but never had the opportunity to get close. That night, around 2 am, I suddenly woke up, and sat up in bed. I don’t recall what woke me. Then I heard it. The sound coming down the hallway was the noise the someone in soft slippers makes as they shuffle along on a carpeted floor. I thought that it was my mother, so I said 'Mama, is that you?'. No answer. The shuffling sound slowed and it was then that she came into full view standing at my bedroom door. I couldn’t believe it. My heart jumped into my throat. I was terrified and I don’t think I had ever dove under the covers so fast! She was dressed as she always was when I visited her, a snap front house dress that was popular among older women, an apron, and those satin slippers. She looked very close to how she did while alive, except that she was a bit transparent, and also had a slight glow. I was so scared. Every few minutes I would raise the covers to see if she was still there. She would still be standing in the same place, hands clasped in front of her with a sweet expression on her face. I could hear her telling me it was ok and that she was just looking around. I have no idea why she wanted to 'look around'. I remember that it was summertime, and I was sweating with my head under the covers, praying that she’d be gone the next time I looked. Finally, after 15 minutes, she left. I haven’t seen her since. I still don’t know why she came to me, and to this day I feel guilt for not communicating with her. But after all, I was a kid.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      No

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

           Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   I first heard her walking down the hallway toward my room. It was very clear and real. She stated 'it’s ok, I just want to look around'.

           Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?     The sound of her walking originated externally. Her speaking was internally. I have always had telepathic abilities and she seemed to know and communicate with me that way.

           If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     It was exactly her voice. The footsteps shuffling was a sound she made too when walking in slippers.

           Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No

           Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         No

 Did you see the deceased?       Yes

 Her appearance looked exactly like she did. She had on clothing that she wore in life. She looked a bit transparent and seemed to have a faint glow.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            A little bit transparent

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Whole body

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?           She appeared to be the age she was at her death.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            She seemed healthy.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

 How long did the experience last?      Approximately 15 minutes.

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       Sudden beginning and sudden end

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes

 I felt peace emanating from her.

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No information. Just reassurance.

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   31 years later it’s still as vivid as ever. It was the first time I had seen the spirit of a loved one. At the time it really scared me. Afterward I called for my mother. She wholeheartedly believed me.

           Was the experience dream like in any way?  No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  Fear. I was so very scared during the whole experience and was actually praying for her to go away.

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? No

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Looking back on it, it was kind of a cool experience.. The worst part is that I feel regret that I showed fear and I’ll never know if she had something to tell me.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes                Describe:     I think the experience was a catalyst for being able to see and speak with spirits.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      No     

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  No     

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Relief that it was over

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

 Did you become aware of future events?      No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      Yes

I have seen many spirits and communicated with them since then. Before the experience I was clairvoyant and was telepathic with my maternal grandmother, who was also very gifted.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

 Did you see a light?        Yes

 My grandmother seemed to glow with a faint light.

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

 Have you shared this experience with others?      

Yes    My father is the only person who didn’t believe me. My other family members did.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         No

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes 

I’ve seen and talked to many spirits since that day when I was 16 years old. I’ve always been clairvoyant and I have a 100% accuracy beginning at age 2.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes