Length of time between death of deceased and your experience:  sometimes saw them in spirit before death

Was the date of the experience significant in any way?    I was a nurse, many on work shifts

General geographic location of experience:  Ohio, Arizona mostly

Details of location of experience and your activity at the time of experience:          worked as an RN so many work related spirit sightings

Degree of bereavement for deceased immediately prior to the experience:      No sadness and/or grief feelings

Degree of alertness immediately prior to experience:            No response

Have you had multiple experiences?   No response          Was this experience difficult to express in words?          No Response

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Uncertain

          Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   at times I'll hear a slight voice but it's mostly a buzzing sound, or like a low, bass flute note, that gets my attention then I see them.  I'll also get a taste in my mouth sometimes before I see them.  Like  meat that's going bad

          Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?     Mostly from behind my head, or in the back of my head or upper right side of my head.  Sometimes behind my left shoulder, a buzz sound or a deep flute note that doesn't stop

          If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     it's not a human sound, as a child I would hear voices in the wall, sometimes dozens of them at once, often calling my name.  We had an old house as a child and at times I'd hear a party going on there, laughing, tinkling of glasses but never saw a thing.  The Civil War Soldiers would talk among themselves, clear voices and tones but somehow I couldn't make out what they said

          Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   I checked.  No.  lived in mostly isolated places growing up

          Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   no

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         Yes

My mattress and bed would bounce around the room, if I would almost fall out of bed the mattress would curl up around me, sometimes shake so violently.  Many nights I had to push the bed back to its original place and go back to bed.  none of the family heard this but where the feet to my bed were, there was nearly half an inch indention in the hard wood floors where the pounding of the bed damaged the floor.  My parents and grandmother told me to just not get out of bed until the shaking stopped so I didn't think much of it, but it was scary at times.  This happened from ages about 5 till I was 12 or 13 then slowed down and stopped, never happened since.   I wasn't 'touched' but bounced all over the room for years.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? again, it wasn't a touch, but the bed was bouncing

          Was anything communicated by the touch? no

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   it was the bed, what made the bed bounce I don't know

Did you see the deceased?       Yes

Soldiers looked totally solid, as a kid I wanted to play with them, they were young boys, but they never responded.  I've seen many that were solid, many that were semi solid but I'd either seem them waist up or waist down, especially in the hospital.  Some were outlines and white smoky bodies, in hospitals on several occasions I'd see a ball of people, nude, stretching in and out of a rotating ball of many other people.  Swirling in and out, right next to each other, faces, heads, arms, legs all in constant movement.  They had agonizing expressions, it didn't look pleasant.  This was always in hospitals or twice it happened at the Hospice inpatient unit where I worked.   As patients in Hospice were dying I'd often see big box-like outlines of beings, large shoulders and heads but no faces, chunky size like an apartment refrigerator type build.  They would line up along the wall of the dying patient, more coming as death gets closer than they move forward towards the patient's bed.  I would apologize in my mind to them as I would walk among or through them to get to my patient to provide care, they didn't respond to me but I felt I was intruding.  At death they were all gone.  This has happened a few hundred times.  Recently I took an online meditation class called Silva Method, the new version of Silva Mind Control.  On the last day we do 'cases' and psychically view another class member's friend or family  that has medical issues.  One woman used her dying brother.  I saw the same beings lining up around him while I was in the class.  I got a feeling they didn't want me to see them.  I mentally asked them when is he going to die and they sent a feeling to me, 'soon'. I told this to the woman and she said her brother is dying.  I had seen him in surgery and ended up he was getting nephrostomy tubes placed that morning for abdominal distortions from his cancer. that time I saw those beings from my home, as the class was on Zoom, but the vision was her brother elsewhere in the hospital.  that was interesting

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            some solid, some outlines, some like a reverse negative what would be white  is black what is black was yellow.  Some from waist down, some waist up, some as smoky figures that moved, some just outlines, baby spirits were like oblong shaped static electricity in the corner of the room.  my sons appears like oblong sparklers like thousands of diamonds shimmering.  The ball of spirits were like pen and ink drawings, the outline and features clear as could be but the body was white inside the outlines.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       many hundreds

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?           I'm not sure, so many I didn't know.  One of my hospice patients I saw just before her death sitting up and looking less than half her age.  She died after the end of my shift, but as I got home she was in my hallway and looked lovely, like 40 years younger.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            They all looked healthy. 

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   nope...they were spirits. I've grown up seeing them as did my family.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes

          What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?          at times I do, or more often a taste.  when I get the taste right away like messages come to me in my mind, pictures like someone is trying to tell me something, showing me photos rather than talking.  Not pleasant smells or tastes but not too offensive.  At one facility where I was the charge RN for an AIDS inpatient unit in the early 1990s we took over an old closed down nursing home.  So many spirits of older patients there but our living clientele was almost all young men.  I'd smell almost sickening sweet smell of roses at times and usually would see a dark figure down the hallways or half people, waist down or waist up walking from room to room, but no one physical there.

          Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?          medicinal mostly, one facility is was sweet roses, smell quickly replaced by a taste, like bad meat then I get images like someone using pictures to talk to me.

          Was anything communicated by the smell?          something but not sure I got the message accurately.

          Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?         The rose smell I did check out.  the facility we opened the AIDS unit in had been closed for years.  I never could find the source of the roses, it was like an Avon perfume smell.  First times smelling it was a hallway we hadn't opened up yet.  No one else smelled it, it would like come up to me and surround them then pass on by.

How long did the experience last?      the roses lasted maybe 45 seconds to a minute or two

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       the rose smell was sudden, I'd be standing still looking at the half people walking around then smell the almost sickening sweet rose smell then it would pass quickly and totally

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Uncertain

at times.  There is this one spot in the road by my house that I sense sudden fear, hear a crash of metal and see in my mind a woman's face in horror.  When I drive over that one lane in one direction I almost always sense this.  I 'feel' a young woman was riding her bike and was killed in a wreck by the look of her face and she's stalling a bicycle.  The others I usually don't sense emotions.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  not sure what you're asking

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   here is my story of my buddy, Lee.  I found his body because I saw his soul standing over it.  this is a good example.    https://youtu.be/6kr0vGia5TU

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  No
         
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  Usually just a calm normal day, if at work it's sometimes very hectic trying to get all my patients cared for properly then a spirit will pop up, I stop, look at it, send it a warm feeling of gratitude then usually have to get back to work quickly.  I worked 5 years pediatric hospice inpatient, my patients would see many things that I did not.  Mostly what I'd describe as the 'gray aliens' from what the children would tell me or draw for me.  that was long before I ever heard of grays. I thought the children had their own odd shaped spirits they saw.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

I had one bizarre over the top, never before experience of the ultimate gratitude feeling that has stayed with me all this time now for 26 years but it wasn't a spirit it was The Phoenix Lights UFO craft that flew over my head by 30 feet in 1997.  Something truly happened as I've been in near constant happy gratitude states ever since now for over a quarter of a century.  I've no idea what happened, was it me or was it the craft but I've become a better person ever since that moment the craft flew over my head.  

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     I have learned to stop asking The Universe, 'why, what, how, who' and replace those questions to the with 'thank you.'  The door to the Universe opens inwardly, pushing shuts it tighter.  'Thank You ' allows  the inward door to open before you.  I really think gratitude is about all you need.  It's already here for us all, gratitude opens our eyes to see it.  Simple as that.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes                Describe:     the day my boys came back .  I made career changes to help others more, deal with death and dying, became a Hospice RN for 17 years because of this experience.  

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      Yes    see above

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         Yes    The Phoenix Lights event just gave me an intense gratitude, a feeling of friends stopping by to say HI.  I think of the craft and cry, It's still difficult for me to talk about and not cry, but a happy cry. From that second on I've gone into the most happy sense of gratitude towards...what?  the Universe, things, It, what ever the source is, God, whatever IT is.  I've felt a connection I've never felt in my life after the UFO passed over my head.  It's never stopped, that feeling is like a part of my DNA since that moment.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    Yes

Yes a friend was dying of AIDS and I took care of him, he promised to come back.  About 6 months later I was driving for a road trip out of town for enjoyment.  I saw and felt a blue piece of fabric cross over my face, right to left, blocking out all vision for a few moments then it felt like it was drawn away on the left side of my face.  When I could see again, and I was driving on a highway. My friend, Steve was in the passenger seat and we were talking.  Nothing was out of the ordinary, for some reason I didn't remember he had died.  We just chitchatted about normal things.  I never play the radio in the car but he loved it.  He turned the radio on and changed the station to his favorite and we listened to music and talked.  He then said he had to go but wanted to let me know he was OK.  I said to him, 'where are you going I'm driving 80 mines an hour' and laughed.  The blue fabric went across my face again and he was gone, then it struck me he had been dead for 6 months and the radio was on his favorite station.  I kept the radio on for the rest of the trip and thanks Steve for touching in.  Many years before this I was almost in a bad car accident 70 or more car pile up on the road due to black ice and I was driving too fast, tried to slow down but was on ice and was heading for the pile up of cars, trucks some on fire..  The blue fabric went over my face and blocked my vision like it did years later with Steve.  This time, the first time the fabric happened, as it disappeared off my face on the left side when I regained my vision there were no cars and I was slowing down.  When I looked in the rear view mirror the whole freeway was blocked with crashed, burning trucks and cars, I had driven right through it somehow.  I've no idea what the blue fabric was, but it saved my life.  ditch to ditch  the two lanes were blocked with a mountain of crashed cars and trucks, somehow I went right through it.   What was that?

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain it seems spirits touched in to let me know they were ok or to validate to them that they were ok, like the trauma patients at the hospital that died.


What emotions did you feel during the experience?          mostly it was a happy gratitude.  I was raised to respect spirits as my parents saw them, too.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          Yes

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

those times I was near the light, it was like timeless, I could see 360 degrees, no up, no down, no this way, no that way, just everything simply was.  It was like there is nothing to do, think about, understand, go to, go away from, like everything is right there, all at once, in one place, effortlessly.   A few other times in meditations I'd get smaller and smaller and see atoms, then the space between atoms and feel the energy, then smaller still and suddenly see a whole other galaxy of stars and planets in the space between electrons.  Imagination or real I don't know, sure seemed real.  Microcosm or macrocosm are they one and the same?  It was lovely, that's all I know.  I left with a peaceful feeling vs knowing some great secret.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes

not as thought or incredible knowledge, but a feeling, mood, joy,  Not thought but a peacefulness all is in order, all is as it should be, no need for any resistance or effort to move towards something or away from something else.  Everything is right here right now.  I get those experiences at time

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      Yes

I suspect I've always had them and my family did too, I never had them shamed or ridiculed out of me like I hear so many others.  I'd say I had that one UFO experience that I felt physically, mentally and spiritually changed me.  I could feel like a click in my head, like something in me moved a quarter of an inch inside when it passed over me.  It changed me, my coworkers and friends noticed the change.  I don't know what happened, but it was wonderful.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   Yes

Often found myself out of the body, above the roof, as a child I would see men with beards in fancy costumes and they'd take me way into the sky.  I guessed spirit guides.

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?       Uncertain

Who knows who all these beings are.  I assumed they were spirits.

Did you see a light?        Yes

light and color, waves of color, like the last rays of a setting sun, more horizontal than round or vertical, different shades mostly blue and white often accompanied like a low bass flute note that doesn't stop, or a hummm that goes on, or a violin base note that doesn't stop

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     Uncertain

not sure what this questing is asking.  All these things happen around me, home, work, shopping, trips, I had a crazy experience at a Home Depo with a woman that kept coming up to me on three occasions.  She'd get right up to me and yell at me 'you're not smiling, SMILE, I WANT TO SEE SMILES!' I was focusing on trying to find the part I needed so not smiling enough I suppose.  She would get angry and walk away around the corner of the isle.  A month later I had to go back and there she was again said the same thing.  I gave her a smile and she walked off.   A few months later I was back needing parts and she came up to me for a third time, said the same thing to me.  this time I spoke to her, I said, 'If you want a smile you need to ask nicer.'  Her face contorted to horror, her arms and legs flew up in the air before her, she was levitating about 3 feet off the ground, like she was sitting on the floor with her legs in front of her and her arms out stretched.  With a horror look on her face, in a second and a half she flew backwards through the air down the aisle and around the corner so fast she was like  a streak of color.   I just stood there waiting for her to come back, then I looked around to see if anyone else was standby by and saw her, I was alone.  I went to the end of the isle and looked, people were shopping but looking like they saw a flying scared lady.  I don't know if she was a spirit or what, I never went back to that Home Depot.

Have you shared this experience with others?      

Yes    My whole life I've talked about this subject, its happened so much all my life and my family supported me in it.  I had few friends come over as their parents didn't approve of my family being open to spirit encounters and visiting all sorts of spiritual events.  As a nurse I did have to watch what I said except in Hospice.  Now that I'm old and health changing I'm making videos of my experiences to leave behind, I don't want my experiences to be lost, maybe they can help others.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         Yes

My family was all into this.  All my friends know, I'm now recording my stories,  I've done a couple podcasts but they want to hear about my UFO and non human beings encounters.  Here is one of them. https://youtu.be/imjn4jIp3ps

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?   IT whispers to us all constantly.  A dime on the sidewalk, a bird landing by you, a mood or feeling suddenly, something many would call a coincidence occurs.  The Universe rarely knocks us over the head, it whispers.  What happened when someone talks softly to you?  You lean towards them, focus your attention more to hear them, you stop your other thoughts to catch what they are saying.  This is how the Universe works, too.  God, whatever you call it.  IT wants us all close to It, to lean closer, listen more intently.  We exist because It loves us.  It's patiently waiting for us to pay attention to It.  That's eternity, what else is more important to focus on than that?    That's what I got from the horizontal light I see now and then.  Or it appears quickly as a blue tiny flash of light.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes 

loads of them.  I'm in Eckankar, we practice Soul Travel

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes