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Experience description #2:

Our German Shepherd mix, Conchita, had to be euthanized when her health took a serious turn for the worst during chemotherapy treatment for a mast cell tumor.  She was doing fairly well when one week she became nauseated, we had to discontinue the chemotherapy and then she became very weak.  She received fluids and antibiotics but got continually worse for a few days and finally we made the decision to have her put to sleep.  We applied sand from a blessed mandala to her forehead and placed mantras on her body according to the traditions, and chanted a mantra for her favorable rebirth as she lay dying at the vet's office.   

I still felt terrible about finally losing a 2 year struggle against various forms of cancer, both liver and mast cell, and though we gave her quality of life and many months of remission we still lost the war against cancer. 

Less than two weeks later I dreamed that I saw her lying on her mat in the living room.  I approached Conchita and said "Don't vanish!" because I knew she had died and what I saw was her spirit. 

Mentally, Conchita said to me, "I won't vanish yet.. I have something to show you."  Then a face of a black and tan dog with floppy ears was superimposed on her own.  The dream ended and when I awoke I wondered, is she showing me a future dog she wants me to have or is she showing me that she used to be a black and tan dog I owned 20 years ago? 

Two weeks later I went to the local animal shelter where a relative does volunteer work to chat with her.  Before she knew my boyfriend and I were even there, she called me on my cell phone and said that a dog that looked like a dog I used to have was at the shelter, spayed and ready to go.  A volunteer showed me the dog and she looked like the dog that Conchita had shown me in my dream.  I was not emotionally ready to adopt quite yet but I did not want to go against an apparent desire on Conchita's part and so I adopted the new female dog.  Grazia has so far been a pretty good dog!

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  It was telepathic and in a dream.

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

She was a grown dog.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            She appeared solid.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       I saw all of the deceased.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       She appeared to be the age she was when she died.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            I did not see any infirmities.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        About twenty seconds... it is hard to tell since I was dreaming.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Sudden.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Uncertain

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  She showed me a dog which might be a dog I had owned 20 years previously or perhaps not.  Little actual detail was shown.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was probably real

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes

It was a dream and was unusual in that I knew my dog was in spirit and was definitely communicating something specific.       

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was a little confused because I didn't know if the dog she was showing me was a past life of hers or if it was a future dog for me.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

I was more confident that she was doing well and that the ceremonies we did helped both of us.  I wondered if the ceremonies made it easier for her to communicate with me in my dream.  This is the first time I ever had such a clear communication from a deceased pet animal in a dream.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part was the feeling that my dog Conchita was comfortable and adjusting well to Bardo and the worst part is that the dog I now have is not her reborn.  It might be another dog of mine reborn, but it is definitely not Conchita.  This dog is a grown dog.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes     I already had some spiritual understandings.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain The day I went to the shelter on February 9 I was not intending to adopt a dog and my relative did not know I was even there when she called me to tell me about this black and tan dog with long ears that was ready to be adopted.  No one had expressed any interest in the dog and she had been at the shelter for about ten days.

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I was still a little confused but I was very glad that my dog was able to communicate with me in spirit.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

 Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain

 I did not know that a dog matching the appearance of the face of the dog my deceased dog was showing me would soon be available for adoption.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

 Did you see a light?           No

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     One person believed that I had an after death communication (and started looking for a black and tan dog for me) and another said it was "weird".

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

Many times I have communicated psychically with what appear to be spirits in the form of dreams or the receiving of mental imagery or short sentence mental communications.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

 

 

Experience description #1:  

I was asleep in my bed upstairs and my partner was sleeping downstairs, so he was not aware of the experience.  It was approximately 3 am and I awoke suddenly from sleep, saying out loud, "Oh my god, there's a ghost in this room!"  Then I sat up partly and saw to my right a figure of a man standing by my bed.  He was about five feet nine or ten inches tall, was surrounded by small sparkles, and had light brown hair.  I could not determine who he was.  All I knew was that he was a relatively young man, and he had a rather sheepish or embarrassed expression on his face.  I sensed the emotion of slight embarrassment, and a little surprise, on the part of this semi translucent man.  He then vanished. 

I thought about all this for a minute or so, and then shrugged it off as a dream and looked over at the clock.  I then went back to sleep and did not think about the incident again for weeks. 

A month later I received two boxes from United Parcel Service from Mississippi.  They were from the radio station where a friend of mine worked.  I had been worried about the friend because he had not been replying to recent email messages.  The boxes contained DVDs and personal photos of my friend and an explanatory note. The note read that by the time I read this, he would be deceased. He had had a car accident and injury a year before and did not want to continue to live walking with a cane.  He was leaving his effects to friends who would appreciate them.  

 I immediately called his landlady, hoping against hope that maybe my friend had not gone through with his suicide.  Unfortunately, the landlady sadly related that he had shot himself in his room.  I asked her when this had happened, and she said "Around the 3rd of September."  Suddenly I recalled the vision of the young brown haired man.  It occurred to me that I had seen this vision around the time of my friend D. S.' death.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

The vision or apparition was of a youngish looking man, of average to tall height, wearing clothes, and having light brown hair.  "He" was semi translucent, and outlined by tiny sparkles of light. I was not sure who he was.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            He appeared somewhat transparent.  I could, however, make out some of his facial features and he seemed to have a sheepish smile on his face.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       I saw all of him.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       If the apparition was indeed my friend, he appeared to be about the age at which he died.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            I saw no infirmities.  The apparition stood straight and I saw nothing unusual about his appearance.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No.  The room was dark and the only light was from two small windows that looked out onto the street.  I have a lot of bushes surrounding the yard and they tend to block out much of the outside lights.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        The entire experience seemed to last no more than about twenty to thirty seconds.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Something jolted me awake from sleep and caused me to say loudly, "oh, my god, there's a ghost in this room!".  The apparition only was present for me to see for about ten or fifteen seconds and then it simply vanished.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

I sensed some surprise and sheepishness or embarrassment.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was probably real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           For a while I wondered if I had had a dream and suddenly awoke from it, but was not sure and am not completely sure now, but the apparition or vision by my bed was rather unusual.  I have never been jolted from sleep in quite that way before.  I was not dreaming about a man before my sudden outcry and the sudden awakening from sleep.  I cannot recall any dream I was having before the experience.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was startled and I wondered why I awoke saying those words.  I then looked around me in the dark and saw the semi translucent man and was puzzled as to who he was and why he was there.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

Weeks following the experience I found out about the death of my friend in Mississippi and I felt terrible about it and the way he had chosen to end his life. I had always tried to be there to encourage him when he felt down, which was not often, and I still feel very bad about the way he died.  However, it is good to think that he sought me out afterward to see me.  I have not had any dream about him or any other apparition that appeared to be him.  I want to be sure others know about him and the good man he was.  I talk about him a lot.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part of the experience was thinking that maybe a friend came to see me just after he passed, possibly had tried to see other friends, and they could not see him.  I wonder if he got a little frustrated by all that, and was surprised that I could actually see him.    The worst part was thinking that he was someone I may know but was not sure because I did not have his identity communicated to me.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain                  Describe:            This was my first experience with a full bodied apparition, if indeed the vision I saw was connected to the death of my friend, and it seemed to be connected in terms of the gender of the apparition and the timing with my friend's suicide.  I had never seen an apparition before.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Uncertain            I am comforted that he is not suffering, but I still worry about him because I don't want him to begin his next life still thinking that suicide is an answer to problems.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Because the vision or apparition simply vanished before my eyes, I did not think anything else about it, and sat in bed for a few moments.  I concluded that I had been having a dream, then turned over and went back to sleep.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No
 Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Most people just shrug their shoulders and say nothing.  Few venture an opinion and usually change the subject fast. I don't think anyone was influenced.  If they were, they give no sign.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            Yes

 childpastlives.com forum

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

I have had a number of very detailed dreams in which deceased persons talked to me in ordinary conversations that made perfect sense.  I have also been "touched" by unseen hands at various times (while I was awake) and I think a spirit "walked" through me once.  I have been in someone's home where I felt strongly that I was being watched while in their downstairs dining room, and I saw in that home in my mind's eye various older persons playing board games by a fireplace upstairs.  I learned later that night that the home had at one time been a retirement home.  This was something that I did not know when I "saw" the older men and women playing board games.  A year later, the owner of the home told me he did not "like" that room and did not want to use it, but he would not tell me why.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes