Dorothy S's ADC
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It was on a Thursday evening when I was working on an art project and I had been using Tile for this art project, well I needed a certain color of tile, and I decided I should go to Home Depot like I usually do. Anyway I stopped on my way and invited my sister (oldest of us kids). We headed to Home Depot which was only about 3 miles away. When we arrived, I parked in the northwest part of the parking lot which is directly in front of the gardening dept. Anyway we both walked in the west doors, and we stayed maybe only ten minutes. (They didn't have the color I needed).

As we walked towards the exit which were the same doors we entered thru, as the doors slid open, my sister was in front of me and I was right behind her and she was talking about something when all of a sudden I heard "Dorse!". Now my name is Dorothy, but only my parents and all of my brothers and sisters have always called me "Dorse".  No one else calls me that. When I heard "Dorse!" I stopped as I stepped out the door and both my sister and I just completely froze. I told my sister "Oh MY GOD!" "Is that Calvin?" We were stunned, I'm telling you we froze and he kept on calling me "Dorse!" and at the same time he was walking towards us-he looked, walked, and talked exactly like my brother. He kept on "Hey, Dorse!" and then he was mumbling something, but I could not make out what it was he was trying to tell me. My sister was like " Oh my God, Oh my God.." And I remember saying "Oh my God, is that Calvin? How can that be? but I saw him in the coffin?" And he just kept on Dorse, Dorse and there were customers in the parking lot and I distinctly remember there was a man and a woman in front of him walking towards their car, and the man turned towards him and looked at him, because he was yelling out my name.

When I first saw him, he was walking towards us right in front coming from where the other exit doors are at. He looked so happy, and he was dressed the way he would when he was here. We both could see him coming towards us and you could clearly see it was Calvin, but yet I was still stunned to see him and at one point my sister said "Let's go, it's not Calvin, it's the Devil he wants us to think it's Calvin." and I told her "No, he's calling me and at that point I yelled back at him and I said "What?" and I started to walk towards him and my sister grabbed my arm and said "No, let's go, hurry let's go!" I think she was more scared than anything, and as I started walking backwards towards my car that is when he turned towards the left to the parking lot and he gave me this look, like he knew that we weren't sure if it was him or like my sister said "The Devil". He stared at me the whole time, and he disappeared into the parking lot.

 The only vehicle that left were the people that looked at him, that's the only car that left. We got into my car and went towards where we saw him walk and there was absolutely no one there or anywhere else in that parking lot. I told my sister "Oh my God, was that Calvin? Oh my God I can't believe that we saw him, and he was calling me." I told her " I know he still lives in Heaven, even though he died and we all saw him in the coffin, but can they actually come to us like that? Was it him, I mean he looked exactly like Calvin he even walked and talked like him???" I told my sister no one will ever believe this, but there's proof, cause he walked about 7 feet from all four surveillance cameras and if there is audio then they can hear him calling me. I told my sister these kinds of things just don't happen. To this day I'm puzzled by it. Many questions. Why was he calling me, and what was it he was trying to tell me. If I would have gone towards him, what would have happened? I regret that I didn't go ahead with walking towards him and leaving. I was totally stunned. We froze. We didn't expect anything like that.

I have asked the store manager to let my family and I view the surveillance, but they said it is only allowed through police dept. when there was some kind of criminal activity and I would have to file a police report. But see there was no crime committed here. I've explained to them and they look at my sister and I as if we ARE crazy, or on drugs or something. I told them I know it sounds weird, but it's all true, my brother and I were extremely close we took care of each other and respected each other tremendously, he'd had a heart condition since he was 2 yrs. old and I NEVER left him, when he was in the hospital for all his open heart surgeries, I stayed with him, that's where I wanted to be. As long as we were together, I felt like I needed no one, I loved him with all my heart, mind, and soul-everything that I am. We would always talk about death, and I would tell him "You know, I don't ever want to lose you, I don't want to live here without you you're everything to me." and he would say "Dorse, but if it happens, it wasn't me, it was God who took me but always remember 'me and you will never separate not even death can separate us.  o.k.?'  I know how much you love me, you were always there for me through thick and thin, and you never left me even in the hospital, you were always near me sleeping on the floor so you can keep an eye on me and you still love me the same way." That is what Calvin would say. Since he passed away, I have had dozens of dreams about him, where I can see him clearly. I also smell him in my home on at least three occasions.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    "Dorse!!"   (mumbling something)  "Dorse!"  "Hey Dorse"  "Dorse!"  "Dorse"

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           yes, exact.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           absolutely, not.

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No. Not possible

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No comment

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

He looked exactly like when he was here on Earth. He walked exactly the same, his hair was combed neatly to the back. He was what looked in new clothes, but the same clothing (type) he wore when he was here. He looked so, so happy, and more healthier looking. When he was here, he looked tired, very tired. His voice was his too.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Clearly solid in flesh form just like any other human being. Other customers saw him, too. The surveillance camera can verify all this.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       All of him. 100%

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       He appeared the same age, but much more vibrant and healthier.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            He appeared to be extremely healthy.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No. absolutely, not.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        I would say a few minutes.(2-3)

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         It all happened so fast.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Very happy. So extremely happy, full of joy.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no, but he was trying to tell me something.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I view it as real, because he was in actual flesh form, walking towards us, talking, well calling out to me. And the customer in front of him turned to look at him cause he kept yelling my name loud.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No      

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           confused, then happy, then stunned, completely stunned.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           N0 comment

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      the best part was when he was walking towards us and he had his eyes on only me, and calling out and smiling for me. There is no worst part.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      It has affected my daily life. I still find it hard to live without him here, but I know because of this experience, it made me realize even more, that we were inseparable even unto death...we will never separate, just like he said.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     Does God allow them to come back? I know we were so close, but I would assume a lot of people in this world are, but do those loved ones, if God allows, are able to come back even for a moment?

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

 Calvin told me many times that if he ever died, that he would never leave me, and that not even death would separate us. He told me we would never separate, never.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          N0 response
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Happy, some confusion, but mostly happy ever since that happened.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

 My sister was with me and she experienced the whole thing not to mention the surveillance cameras( four of them) captured the whole experience, clearly.

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

 Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Well my sister experienced the whole thing with me, and she still asks a lot of questions, but then she tells everyone "If you noticed, he was only calling 'Dorse'. well you can't blame him, you know how close they were those two could never be apart." My other family members, well, it's hard for them to believe it, and I don't blame them, but then again they bring it up quite often, and try to comprehend. They would like to view the surveillance tapes, and of course I would like to see them too. We hear of capturing 'Ghosts'-well this one was in full flesh form and he was calling me by my name, that only he and my other brothers and sisters call me by.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

  Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       yes, I would like to say, that since then, I had this one particular dream, where I clearly saw Calvin, and we were standing together, and he was hugging me, and he told me "See Dorse, Marylou has no faith at all, that's the reason you didn't go towards me at Home Depot, she prevented you from coming to me." and I told him "Calvin was that you? Marylou (my sister that was with me) grabbed my arm and sais no Dorse don't go it's the devil pretending to be Calvin. And Calvin said " I know Dorse. I just wanted to give you a hug and tell you that we didn't separate. I love you, Dorse. I will always love you eternally." and then I woke up from the dream. I started crying.

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

two NDE in 1987 when I was living in Albuquerque.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

 

Experience description #1:  

In all of the ten ADC I had, 7 of these took place in my dreams.  I will start off with the dreams. I remember very clearly, the first one I'd had of my Dad whom I saw very clearly. I remember I was standing outside under this huge shade tree. And where I was at, looked similar to Earth, except this place was extremely peaceful and bright, and happy, more than happy. I could feel this place. My first thought was this must be Heaven. or a part of Heaven. As I looked around, I noticed these green fields, lots of them and there were big beautiful trees all around and there were the most beautiful flowers. The scenery was so extremely magnificent, I knew this place was more than earth. The atmosphere was of pure joy, happiness, and bright peacefulness. As I looked around, I noticed there were several homes, in front of me, similar to the ones here on earth.

I then noticed one of my dad's sister coming over to talk to me, and she didn't say hi or anything like that, but she said " See that person over there, (pointing to the field on the right-I notice someone in a John Deere green tractor, a huge tractor.) I said, "Yeah?" she says " who do you think that is?" my response was " MY DAD! OH MY GOD! That's MY DAD! and she said " Yup, that's your Dad! when she said that I noticed my Dad was parking the tractor next to 'his house'. As I started to walk towards my Dad( I wanted to run) He started walking towards me, and I said "DAD!" and we both hugged very tight, and he said "Dorse" (that was short for Dorothy) I'm glad you came to see me! Dorse, this is where I live, as he pointed all around this huge area along with the homes in front of us. And I said, " Dad is this Heaven?" and he said " Yes, Dorse this is Heaven, but it's San Juan. (San Juan is a small village south of Albuquerque, My dad was born and raised there along with his family, my mothers family, and of course me and my brothers and sisters, we all loved that place, especially my mom and dad) He then says to me "Dorse, don't cry for me I'm alright, there's nothing wrong with me now, (health wise) I'm in Heaven, I'm here with God and Jesus. And this is my house, and I'm going to wait for all of you guys (referring to his kids)"  We then walked into his home, where my Dad showed me 6 rooms, I saw his room and I saw another room that belongs to my brother Jerry, whom passed away at 5 months of age. Everything was white, everything was not of this earth. It was the perfect home. He told me "Dorse, all your rooms are ready, but I have to wait for you guys o.k.? you have to go back, tell everyone what I said . You tell everyone that I love them, and I'm safe here in Heaven and I love you, Dorse" after this, I woke up.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    Not only did I clearly hear my dad, but I saw him.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  everything I describe was in my dream that I'd had

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           nr

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           nr

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   none

Did you see the deceased?        

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            full figure, just the way I saw him here on earth, but he wasn't old in any way same physical appearance, in clothing, he was wearing blue coveralls and work boots.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       all

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       did not appear to be the age when he died, he looked younger and healthier.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            perfectly healthy, on earth, my dad was blind from one eye, he would limp, none of those were present. He was whole.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no

How long did the experience last?        not sure

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

total and complete happiness, no words can describe.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           Definitely real. Even in that dream, I could still feel the happiness I felt throughout the whole dream, when I think of it. I saw my dad clearly, and spoke , and touched him.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Happiness, joy and peace.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

my grief seemed to diminish, although I still miss him, I know where he is. I'm satisfied with that.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      best part was seeing and hugging and conversing with my dad, whom I loved, missed, and grieved sorely for.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:            yes, it enhanced my belief in God, Jesus, and Heaven. and also Heaven and it's counterpart-Hell.

 Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   N0 comment            believed more highly of Heaven.

 Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?                      easier to understand life after death, definitely God, Jesus Christ Our Lord and Savior and Heaven. I thank God and Jesus for taking care of my Dad, and granting to him eternal life through Jesus Christ.

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I experienced great relief knowing that my dad was safe happy, and in Heaven, and that he was doing what he loved (farming), and that he would wait for us when our time was done here on earth.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            Yes my dad's sister, who still lives here on earth.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

  Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       no

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

In 1987, I had a near-death exp. which happened in March of 1987 and I had another one in June 0f 1987. The first happened at home, the second one happened at work, and there were deceased loved ones that came for me(3).

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes