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Experience description:

I'm reporting this experience on behalf of my mom ...

I learned on Monday that my brother passed away three weeks earlier. On Thursday, I took a flight from Albuquerque to Los Angeles to collect items from his apartment and return the apartment to the management. That same day, I took a return flight to Albuquerque.

It was night when I returned home. When I left the house, I left one light on and it was on when I got home. I came into the house, stood in the kitchen reflecting on the long day, and heard a humming sound. The humming sounded like that of a refrigerator. Electrical. Soft. A deep buzzing sound. I began to walk around the house to find the source of the sound, as I deliberately turned off all the lights before leaving the house that morning. When I entered an unused room in the house, the 'source' of the hum, I heard my brother's voice clearly. He said, 'Goodbye, Jane'. Although he was in his 70's when he passed, the voice sounded like his when he was in his 20's. He had mental health issues in life and I worried greatly if he was at peace. His voice was clearly his. His voice was confident, healthy, and young. With those words, I had a strong sense that he was happy and doing well. The experience caught me off guard, scared me and I ran out of the room.

After taking a moment to think about it, I realized if it was my brother, then I was safe in that room I just left. In that same moment, I became excited. My brother is here!!! I ran back into the room to attempt a last conversation with my brother. When I returned to the room, it was quiet. Normal. The buzzing had stopped. I didn't feel his presence anymore. I fell asleep 30 minutes later and regretted not making a greater effort to communicate with him.

When I woke up in the morning, I knew in my soul that my brother was still alive. No sense of grief. No regrets. His body was no longer on a physical plane, but he still lived. Most importantly, he was happy and doing well.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words?          Yes

 While articulating the event, I can't help but think I sound crazy and no one will believe me. Ghosts don't exist. So, why happened and why was it so real?

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         Yes

             Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   I heard 'Goodbye, (my name)'. It was very clear. It was my brother's voice. Although passing while in his 70's, it was his voice from when he was in his 20's, back when he was happy and well.

             Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?            The voice originated externally. Before hearing the voice, I heard a soft buzzing, humming, electrical noise. Like the hum of a refrigerator. I walked around the house to find where the hum originated. It wasn't until I entered a dark room in a house and listened very intently that I heard his voice clearly.

             If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           He passed away while in his 70's. It was his voice from when he was in the 20's. It was a phase of his life when he was strong, well, and happy.

             Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?          I investigated the source of the humming sound and couldn't find it. The humming noise stopped after I heard his voice and ran out of the room.

             Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No.

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           No

 Did you see the deceased?        No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

 How long did the experience last?       Maybe two to three minutes.

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        The beginning was gradual. It began as a faint buzzing sound, and got louder as I investigated the source. When I got to the room where I thought the humming originated, I listened very closely. After hearing his voice, I ran out the room. The buzzing, humming noise suddenly stopped.

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

 In life, my brother had mental health issues. He separated from the family in order to protect those he loved. He wanted his privacy and we respected it. I still visited with him a few times a year. I worried about him. After this experience, I could sense that he was well and happy.

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Whereas he had mental health issues in life, he was well and happy in death.

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

             Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         I believe the mind/body/spirit coexist. One does not exist without the other. I wasn't seeking out this experience and wasn't open to it. Yet, it happened. It was real.

             Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

 Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          Gut feeling - scared. I was thrilled to hear my brother's voice, that he was happy and well, and that he continued to exist. It was when I tried to reconcile that my brother was talking to me, and he was deceased, I freaked.

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          Yes

 My sense of grief lifted away. In life he was not okay mentally. In death, he was young, strong, happy, well. I felt confident that I didn't need to worry about him anymore.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?     Best: On the day I learned of my brother's death, I called my daughter to make plans to visit my brother. I felt an urgent need to see him. A few hours later, I received a call from my other  brother that he received a letter from the coroner. My brother was gone. It meant the world to me to have one more interaction with my brother. I wanted to visit him because I worry about him. The fact that his message was that he was young, well, and happy meant everything to me.

Worst: A humming noise with no origination point. A disembodied voice in a dark room. Scary!!!

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Uncertain                  Describe:      This event happened just last night.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes     Before I thought the spirit died when the body died. Now, I'm not sure.

 Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Yes     Before the incident I feared death. I'm the oldest of 5 children, and I assumed I'd be the first to pass. Learning of my little brother's passing really shook me and made me dwell on my mortality. Earlier in the day, my daughter explained that she believed that our natural state was that of the angels, and we lived in a perfect world. She believed that that whole point of life was to experience hardship so we could be better angels and guide those who chose to have a human experience. Don't feel bad about those who experience depression, alcoholism, drug abused, poverty, etc. That's a journey they need to experience to become a better angel. I thought the concept was odd. After this experience with my brother, I can't help but wonder if her belief is true.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact? No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?    No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Euphoria. Happy that my brother was finally well and happy. (He wasn't happy in life.) It felt as if he never passed away. I understood that he moved on to the next phase of life.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   No

 Did you become aware of future events?       No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?           No

 Did you see a light?          No

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I only told my daughter. She was happy for me. She said she couldn't explain it, but heard of it happening to others. If the experience gives me a sense of peace, don't fight it. What a gift! Accept it. I was afraid that she'd tell me I was crazy.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

  Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      I'm reporting this on behalf of my mom, yet telling the story in first person. My mom does not want to share the story. I'm sharing here because she clearly had an experience. Just because we don't understand it doesn't mean it didn't happen. It just needs to be studied. Here's one more story to add to your study.

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes