My friend Diane had passed away from Cystic Fibrosis in February of 1999 after I had known her for about 6 years.  We had celebrated our birthdays together a few times since mine was on 4/18 and hers was on 4/23.  On the birthday right after she had passed, I had gotten home fairly early since it was a work night and was getting ready for bed.  When I got in bed and turned to fix my blankets, near the foot of the bed was a bright pulsating orb of light... like a sun.  Not a small orb, but about the size of a dessert plate.  And it was not static... it had what I can only describe as waves of light undulating off of it... almost like flames would move... but it was light.   One would think you might get up and run out of the room seeing something like this but I was unable to take my eyes off it. And it wasn't just the way it looked... it was the feeling that it emanated. It was a feeling that does not exist on this earth.. at least not the I have experienced. A feeling of pure love, joy, acceptance, peace... every positive emotion multiplied by 100.   I sat there in awe... I couldn't move...I was totally fixated on it.  And then just like that it was gone. But not in a flash... it sort of collapsed in on itself and faded away.  The whole experience lasted about 30 seconds. But it was 30 seconds that changed my life.  I have been trying to figure out and make sense of what I saw for the last 25 years. I now have no fear of death if I am going to the place where that came from.  I truly believe that it was my friend Diane coming to say happy birthday to me and let me know she was okay.  The next day I told my sister about it, I still lived with my parents at the time, and together we stood in my room and tried to debunk it.  But where the house is there are no streetlights or houses close by that could have cast that light in my room.  And like I said, it was moving the entire time.. not still.  I rarely tell this story to anyone because they look at me like I am crazy.. and I get that. Unless you experience it for yourself, I guess it does sound pretty crazy.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?     Yes  to exactly describe what it looked like

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?     No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         No

Did you see the deceased?       No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

How long did the experience last?      about 30 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       beginning was sudden... ending was gradual

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Uncertain

what I saw gave off many positive emotions

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   I always say I know what I saw, I just don't know what it was.

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I was in awe and didn't really think about what was happening until after it was over

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes  it brought me a certain degree of peace

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          the best part was the feeling i got from it... the unconditional love and peace.  Worst part is that it didn't last that long

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      Yes    just that there is more to this world than what we see on a day to day basis

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         Yes    it just confirmed some suspicions I already had about life after death

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          confusion and disbelief.. but also a sense of peace

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

Did you see a light?        Yes   I saw a large orb of light

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    I don't tell many people and most of them think it sounds pretty crazy

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes




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