I have not gone back to church except for family christenings and other events.  I have two sisters and 3 brothers.

I do not do anything spiritually.

It was my father, 76 years old, I loved my father and respected him.

Date: May 5, 2001.

Where: I was in my backyard, my Dad was at my brothers working alone on a pool pump in my brothers backyard. My brother's wife Linda was getting a shower to go out.

When: that afternoon. May 5, 2001.

I was just concentrating on mowing my yard. I had just given an SAT test at the high school and almost went up to see my parents that day. My mind was just on idle.

We had just celebrated my father’s birthday by eating at a nearby restaurant that week. It was the last time I spoke with him., in the parking lot after the celebration.

What: The experience is told below in detail.

How(1): 

I have had some precognition events or happenings. I will let the reader be the judge of the following events, please keep an open mind.

My mom related the story to me that when her father died she had chest pains, she said they were so bad, so severe that she felt very ill.

Later she learned her dad was dying at that time.

I do believe it's important enough to share the experience with others. I think it is unique because it happens at the exact same time that someone is dying. I have read about near death experiences after this happened. I did some research on it you know and I'd heard about it before on TV and other places but never was really interested in it. Even though my mother had had her experience and you know I couldn't totally relate until this happened.

Why: I was the oldest. I had numerous experiences before. I had shared these experiences with my mom and dad.  Note: I  have these premonitions about things:

I think Dad was trying to send a message back to us all, through me, to let us know that there is a hereafter and that if it's going to be great, not to fear death.

In 1982:

I had a dream one night when I lived in Ohio that my family was at my house. We were having some sort of party and things went well. Things were going good and then it was time for people to leave and as people would leave and I took notice of that but I didn't  see my uncle Bernard leave or my dad. I was concerned about that so I went looking for them in the basement and I saw the basement was filling up with water (in my dream). Where was it coming from? I asked myself. It just kept getting higher and higher.

It had been a premonition or a warning before my uncle's death who died tragically  3 days later. It was a premonition of what was to come, when I went to his funeral and we were in the church everybody was crying. So many people were crying for his loss, so many tears were shed at his church service and at his grave site. (My Uncle, Bernard S died at 10:30 A.M. following an industrial accident at 53 on September 20, 1988, he was born on March 20, 1935. He lived in Ohio. He was employed as was his one son at Warren Engineering Company, Engineering Local 1871 of Cleveland and was working at Thermo-Link in Garrettsville when the accident occurred.).

In 1993: I had a dream one night of my Uncle Bernard coming to me. He had died as I explained earlier.  In my dream he appeared before me and asked me to contact his wife, my Aunt June. He wanted me to just make contact with her and tell her that he had come to me in a dream and that he was thinking of her. She would understand why. I oscillated quite a bit as I didn’t want to bother Aunt June with this as maybe she would be angry and this would upset her. She might just pass it off as just a silly dream that I had. I would feel embarrassed then maybe regret bothering her.

Eventually I called Aunt June and related the dream to her and she listened quietly letting me finish. Then she said to me,” Johnny do you know what day this is?”  I said,” I didn’t know anything special about today” Aunt June then said” Johnny it's Uncle Bernard’s birthday!” 

I didn’t feel so silly now and we spent some time catching up with each other about family and how she was doing. I actually felt good about calling her and relating the dream to her, as if I had done the right thing after all. I was surprised to find out that it was his birthday as I don’t remember celebrating his birthday ever with him.  In 1993:I had had a dream warning me about my brother Mike and I oscillated here as well. But I finally called him and told him to be careful as I had a bad dream about his safety. He listened and assured me he was fine and thanked me. Maybe it made a difference I don’t know but I weighed the outcome if I didn’t attempt to warn him.

In 1982: I had a very unusual event take place at the old farmhouse in  Ohio. We were going to go up to see my parents for Thanksgiving Day, a celebration with family and as we were getting ready that day I had this feeling like something bad was going to happen. It was snowing and the roads were not in the best condition. It was as if a black cloud was hanging over me. I am usually ready to go first on a trip anywhere but my wife said I was dragging my feet. I just couldn’t get myself to get going like usual, because of this terrible heavy weight I felt on my shoulders. Then it suddenly lifted. I could not explain it. The next day in school I learned that the neighbors had come down the hill and had crashed into the road railing near the entrance to the road to the farm house. If I had been feeling normal and been on time we could have been right in their path.

As a child in 1963: Once I told Mom I felt that Dad was coming home and he showed up early, as the power went out at work and he was sent home.

In 1966: Another I had a little later in high school was going to the Civic Arena for the first time. Upon entering the Igloo I felt that I had been here before or that I was living it over again as I could tell you where the concession stands were, restrooms, entrances etc. It was eerie. I believe they call it deja vu. I started to have a number of these from time to time. They say you imagine how something is then when you encounter something close to it you feel you have visualized it before. I told my friends about it and they didn’t quite understand.

In 1969: In the Navy my ship had a fire below decks and we had to limp in the Charleston harbor as we were on our way to Vietnam. Talk about premonitions, my Mother had one at this time sensing that something was wrong for me. Upon reaching the port I tried to reach Mom and Dad by phone but couldn’t get an answer, it was busy or nobody answered the phone. I called next door to let the neighbor know I was okay and to tell Mom. Mom had a bad feeling come over her and would not answer the phone. She felt something bad had happened to me and wouldn’t answer the phone. This would not be the last time that Mom would have this feeling or premonition about me in the service.

In 1969: We were scheduled to go back to a Vietnam station preceding the east coast of Luzon, but then something usual happened. I had a dream, I had many like this but this one stands out. I dreamed that I saw the ocean between Korea and Japan and there was fighting going on. Also I was in the water with fire on the water and the dream was in Technicolor. I felt us shadowed by enemy ships. The dream started with us receiving a flash priority message to proceed to North Korea. It was so vivid.

When I awoke at breakfast I told my watch crew about what I had dreamed at breakfast, some on watch and they laughed making me repeat it to the off going watch. We had just gotten set in when we received a Flash Priority Message to proceed to North Korea immediately. Everyone looked at me and I was just as surprised. As it turned out we entered the Sea of Japan and were shadowed by the Russian surface fleet and were overflown by Bear Bombers as we called them.  We would sit in the electronic counter measure room notifying the captain that they had turned on their fire control radar to bomb us as they flew over us. 

We remained in the area for a while then we headed for Nagasaki, Japan. Apparently our presence was important; we sailed as far north in the Sea of Japan to be near Vladivostok, Russia. We weren’t the only ships present; there were other American ships and we seemed to have a Russian presence in the form of a trawler. It was attempting to disrupt our courses and eavesdropping on our communications and radar signatures.

These are the kinds of feelings I would have from time to time and I have learned to slow down so to speak. If something gets in my way and causes me to be slowed down I now view it as it is meant to be and accept it. Occasionally I also feel the opposite like I need to not be in this position as something bad is about to happen.

In 1982: I had a very vivid dream once. I even related to the Sunday school class in East Liverpool church I attended at the time. It starts out that I am on an airplane, jet and the flight number was 730. I was on the plane with my current wife but something went badly wrong and it’s like sabotage with other people involved as we fly to Florida. The plane is going to crash and I remember clutching my wife’s hand who was seated next to me on my left and not feeling any pain as we crashed and thinking it really didn’t hurt to die. I looked over and it wasn’t my present wife. Yes, she was blond but she was different. The next scene is being lowered into the ground as everyone is weeping standing around the grave as dirt is being thrown onto the caskets, I see through the caskets and then we are rising up toward heaven. Even my school superintendent was there to say a few words. I now look back on this dream and realize that it wasn’t the literal death of us but the end of our marriage. I had this dream at the time we were building our new house and within a year it had come true, this foretold the end of our marriage.

In August 2020: This is a dream I had before my mother's death. We flew my mom out in a private jet during this pandemic (Covid-she had been basically isolated , no visitors were allowed) to get her safely to California and for about two weeks she was doing fine but then she just decided to end things.

7/26  /2020 of being like in this frontier, woods and there was this hill and they were like the enemy or the Indians. A boat was involved of some kind. Some soldiers (others) had gone before, one of our leaders, the closest leader, had been taken or gone to the other side. And I felt like he had deserted us or changed, switched sides and there was like fighting and in some cases that we were like killing Indians, and the one scene shows that I'm like fighting him and and there are round like iron discs that are thrown at him , stuck on him and there are a total of seven and he throws them off in one big burst of energy, sheds, brushes them all off which signifies that these metal disks are carried by him, like claims to his soul or life force. Fear and escape rises a desire to go.

I tried to free the squall taken by him and it can't be done because she states that she knows he's a s*** and not being good at everything but she still loves him. And I think this squall  is my mom and she's drugged back away from me, as she appears from behind a large rock on the edge of ice, on the edge of this body of water that is iced covered and the ground to the left is even ice covered. I am struggling to go back to be with others on the other side. The ice is breaking and cracking under movement to the other side, at the edge of this body. Here she is being drugged or drawn back or talking to him and the realization comes across that I'm going to be going on alone and that no matter what anyone says or does it it's her fate.

I realize that it's like a wispy connection to the other people on the other side and that it's a journey that we take alone and I will have to take it alone and the squall is pulled back to the warrior, spiritually. The warrior was my dad, the metal was us his family.

8/9/2020 mom died 3:10 pm in California.  I was there with her, my sister and my brother-in-law at the time.

8/17/2001 Someone was at the foot of my bed! Awaken I looked and didn’t see anyone but felt the presence of someone.

How (2)shared Near Death Experience :

The death of my father, John S. It was a Saturday afternoon on May 5th, 2001. Dad had a heart attack while working at H.J. Heinz plant climbing up and down sets of stairs. He had not felt good and came home and sat down in his chair in the living room. He kept saying he felt terrible and finally Mom had called an ambulance which saved his life. He had a blood clot in his lung and they had placed him on cumulin to help thin the blood. This occurred when he was 65 years old. He appeared to have recovered from this though reduced his strength.

On May 5, 2001 (This would I later found out was his brothers’ Joe’s birthday) I had an experience that really changed my outlook on life:  It's called after death communication or synchronicity, or energy resonance.

It was a Saturday and I was going to give the SAT test at the High School. It was shaping up to be a great day. There was a beautiful blue sky, cool and crisp morning as I grabbed something to drink and eat as I went out the door. I gave the SAT test and all went well. I left about noon, closer to 12:30 PM. As I got to the exit on route 19 from the High School and was waiting in line I thought I’d go up and see Mom and Dad as I always checked in with them once a week (We just had celebrated our Dad’s birthday he was 76 this week). I hesitated going up to see them because my brothers had teased me about always being up there. I thought maybe this was their way of saying that I didn’t give them enough space, even though my Dad and Mom enjoyed seeing me and I seeing them. I told myself I would go home and mow the lawn, as needed and maybe later go up to see them but I still oscillated until the traffic started to move in front of me and I had to make a decision. I had called them but got no answer. So I went to the bank and then home to mow the lawn. I turned right towards the lawn that needed mowing. I told myself after I mowed, maybe I’ll go up to see them after I'm done and shower.

I arrived home and changed into my old clothes to mow the lawn pulling the tractor out of the garage backwards. I refueled the riding lawn mower, checked the oil and away I started. I was having a good time as it took about an hour and twenty minutes to mow the front and back yard.

I was almost done with the back yard and I started to feel like I was having a heart attack. It hurt so badly, it hurt really bad, bad enough for me to stop mowing for a while. I sat there on the tractor wondering if I was having a heart attack.  I had recently gone to see a fellow Physics teacher from the High School and he had had a heart attack while on his mower. I got kind of scared because there is hardly anyone home whenever I am working, mowing outside. I stopped the tractor and held my chest, afraid to move about. Then after a bit it stopped hurting. I told myself that I am going to take it easy the rest of the afternoon as I hadn’t felt the best lately. I hadn’t slept well. So I started mowing again, convincing myself that I only had a little more to do. It's European work  ethics.

I started again and almost got finished when my chest started to hurt again. I stopped the mower and sat there for a few minutes and then it stopped again. I was really worried this time but since I was almost done I finished the few passes that I needed to finish it and put the mower back in the garage. The pains stopped and I finished the mowing and got myself something to drink and eat.  I shut everything down and went into the house to get something to drink, just as I was slowly walking out the garage door to go sit down on the bench up back in the cool shade my wife pulled into the driveway. Helena (my wife) came home with Austin (Her young grandson) and proceeded to tell me what I should be doing.

I told her I was going to the backyard and sit under a tree as I had been busy and not feeling well. I was going to take it easy for a while. She begins with this honey to-do list and I tell her I am going out back to rest awhile, but she continues saying she needs me to….I interrupt her and tell her are you listening? I am going to take a break for a while not telling her why I had to go sit down for a while.

I went up the hill to sit under the shade of trees. I sat down on a wooden  bench and began to drink some coke, my favorite, when I had this feeling that someone was looking over my shoulder. I could sense someone there; out of the corner of my eye I could almost see someone.  It felt as if someone was walking around me from behind, playing a trick on me. I had to stand up and look behind me.

I was contemplating the preceding events and savoring my drink thinking maybe I was dehydrated and that’s what caused the chest plains. I started to sense more than one entity, a lot more. Then I started to feel the presence of someone behind me. At first I thought maybe it was the kid’s way in the back yard near the adjoining road. Their house was a good 1200 feet or more behind me. I had seen them chasing each other with paint guns shooting at each other in the bushes and trees that separate everyone from the house on the roadway. I was bothered, feeling the presence first to the right and then to my left, looked over my shoulder to the right and left. Finally I stood up and looked behind me, this feeling of someone behind me, seeing and hearing nothing.

I sat down again and I was very concerned about the chest pains, they had gone away now. The feeling now was that there were a lot of people behind me, again. I felt as if they went way back into the field behind me as if seeing them without seeing them. A great lineage that showed a degree of interest that went back in time, way back into time. The depth of the people, I had a feeling, was like further back in time or way back in time. The people most interested in what was going on were the nearest in recent time, they were closer to me. The depth of the entities felt like it reached back to appoint unrecognizable ancestors.

All of a sudden the sky seemed to glow as if a radiant light and I thought I could see someone out of the side of my eyes. It was as if I was in a trance looking into the sky above the house. I relaxed and felt this euphoria come over me. I felt really good, happy; a joy came into my heart and mind. I felt the presence of my father, and my Uncle Bernard was standing in front of me. I also felt the presence of his mother and other relatives around me or behind me.

I felt my father saying it’s going to be okay and that all will turn out alright. I had the feeling of a great uplifting spirit and that things would be good for me and the family. There was this tremendous feeling of love. The area around me felt warm and glowing. I couldn’t look directly at my father but it was so strong as if he was standing in front of me. My father was standing before me with someone; I think it was Uncle Bernard at his side, talking to me. The whole sky was a golden hue of color, bright but not too bright giving a feeling of euphoria. A sense of tremendous energy! I was being communicated to at a level of consciousness that gave the emotional feeling of warmth and good emotions that were about to happen or would happen in the future. It was like a premonition of future events only to be realized later in my life. It ended with a fading of the light, as if the light was the holy ether of the hereafter. I had a very good feeling come over me as if everything was okay or going to be okay. Then the feeling slowly faded and the glowing faded as well.

I sat there for a short time until I realized it was over and asked myself what had happened and how I was going to tell anyone about this. Did I want to tell anyone? I wasn’t sure what had happened. I knew I would not look at things quite the same again.I did not know something had happened to my dad at the time. I then had no more pain in my chest. I was thinking like this had the energy of the sun's power, an infinite amount of energy.  Shortly after this my brother Keith called.

I believe that this was my dad in my presence and other relatives. I am questioning reality now (consciousness); I know there must be something beyond our physical world. I will never forget my dad, his voice or what he meant to me.

I just sat there for a minute. I had the feeling that the sun was like the source of so much energy. I don’t know how long this lasted but I would say minutes. Then my wife called me to come down and answer the phone. My brother Keith was on the other end and he was upset, he told me that Dad had just died and he was crying. I almost fell to the ground, I sat down right there.

Keith told me how Dad had gone over to help work on his pool pump and filter alone. He had been working on it for a while and he had taken a break and sat down. Linda had just given him a glass of water and she had gone inside to get a shower. When she came out she observed him on the ground still holding the tool and parts in his hand. I still have a funny feeling when I go around that part of Keith’s yard. She called 911 right away and tried to give him mouth to mouth CPR until the emergency vehicle and crew arrived. They tried to revive him but only got his heart to work. He was then taken to the hospital where they also tried to revive him for a second time, but it was too late.

I think the first pains riding the mower were when the heart attack first started for my father. It must have happened exactly when he died. The second set of pains were when he was being worked on by Linda and the rescue crew. I was having sympathy pains. My mom had this happen to her when her Dad had died. She had terrible pains in her body as she later learned it was the same time as her father had died.

We (the whole family) had just celebrated his 77th birthday and his doctor had given him a clean bill of health that week. My mom, Joy Schaefers, said that he was in good spirits all week.  They had gone out shopping and later came home and that afternoon dad then went over to my brother’s house to help him with his pool pump. Keith was still working at his BP gas station in Slippery Rock and was to come home soon to help dad who already got started on the pump problem. Linda's wife was home and she was going to go shopping and she had sat down with him giving him a glass of water to drink and talked to him awhile before she left. Upon her return she went looking for my dad and found him on the ground next to the fence still holding the part he was working with in his hand.  She screamed and called for a neighbor who came and they tried to revive him, giving him mouth to mouth respiration (Linda) and then the ambulance arrived and they transported him to the hospital where they tried again to revive him, they got his heart started again but he died there.

Keith’s daughter, Danielle had gone over to pick up my mother as she didn't drive to the hospital and she was there then also to see dad.  That is when my brother Keith called me and told me that our dad was gone.

How impacted my life:

After this happened. I told my wife of this happening. I later told my brothers and sisters as well. But I couldn’t tell them right away. I know this is hard to believe but it really did happen.

After Effects:

Because I stated earlier I was the oldest so maybe I wasn't surprised that I was chosen. I am sensitive to other peoples' feelings. I think I just have this innate ability to sense things from time to time.When I dream they're like novels It's in color with sound and it goes on and on lengthy dreams, like movies!

I related my experiences to my brothers and sisters and though none of them commented. I didn't relate this right away. Maybe that was a mistake but I didn't think given the circumstances that it would be appropriate.

`One thing is my view on life is it's extremely short and some of us get to live longer than others. I think we only have small bits to play with the purpose and meaning of life, but we are an intricate part. I get along with all my brothers, sisters and my wife.

Grief: One does not really ever get over grieving.. My brother's, sister share experiences that we've had or feelings, thoughts from time to time that they feel about Dad. Mostly just memories that are kicked up or stirred up by our activities and interactions. I have shared this at three very small local meetings and the people you know are taken back by it and don't know what to think.

I have reevaluated my views about religion and life. I don’t think we have got it right. I think it is going to be a lot different from what we are being told by our various religious leaders. I sensed that there was a completely different afterlife awaiting us. I stopped going to church. I still believe in religion and am reconsidering some of the things about religion.

I wonder how much control we have in charting our paths versus wandering in general, it is a cooked path. How many conscious decisions do we make in life affect us for the remaining time we have? I think we need to spend more time pondering, in a trance-like state, half conscious state, relaxing to make decisions.

What are we to make of this? Are some people more capable of having these visions? Do they have to be important people or can a lay person have these visions? Are we meant to see and then share their visions?  I have learned that a great deal of life falls between black and white. Reality is “malleable”! Someone once said,”We humans may be the smartest objects that ever came down the pike of life’s history on earth, but we remain outstandingly inept in certain issues, particularly when our emotional arrogance joins forces with our intellectual ignorance.”

I believe I have had some of these phenomena experiences over my life.  For example I once had a hunch about the number 348 would come upon the lottery and I won $1500 dollars by buying two dollars strait one night and the next day I forgot I had made the purchases and put another dollar on the number (i have hit the four digit number three times in a year..). I have hit 4 digit numbers 4 times.

While most of these communications are mental or telepathic in nature, there are exceptions. For example (If someone famous has this apparently then it is acceptable) George Washington at Valley Forge “saw” his communicator. The being spoke to him in a thunderous voice, giving him information about the development of the Republic and predicting major events for the future, including the great wars. Experiences like these, reported by sane and normal individuals, are too common to be classified as mental illness or hallucinations. There are many degrees or levels of awareness in the physical dimension as well as in the spiritual dimension. At this stage of our development as humans. It seems we are for the most part insensitive to the spiritual energies around us.

Because of these experiences and others*(I have also had other phenomena(s))...I am asking myself what consciousness is?

I have read many near-death-experience researchers have noted that one of life’s review’s main lessons is that knowledge and love are two elements that we take with us when we die. As a result, life reviews are often one of the most transformative elements of the NDE. Those who have powerful life reviews tend to revere knowledge and love after their NDE.

Thank you for sharing this with other people, I think it's important to tell what happened.

John S

9/23/2022

Background Information: 

Gender:       Male

Date NDE Occurred:        May 5 2001

NDE Elements: 
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event?      Yes         Fathers death heart attack  Other Chest pains mowing yard

Fathers death due to a heart attack.

How do you consider the content of your experience?     Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body?   No 

NoHow did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?     More consciousness and alertness than normal   It was like an insight on the working of the universe!

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      During the experience in back yard.

Were your thoughts speeded up?      No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?      Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

   I could not tell ya how long it lasted but it seemed as if all physical laws were busted...

Were your senses more vivid than usual?      Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.    unbelievable...like my being was taken over, had to pay attention...I didn't hear as much as felt, engulfed, saturated with energy and knowledge, uplifting, glazed over

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I didn't hear anything as such, more a quiet around me.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere?    No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?      No    

Did you see any beings in your experience?      I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?      Yes     father, his dead brother, a long lineage of people behind me, friends, relatives, and very very distant relatives, the closer to me the closer in time, father away, further back in time.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light?      An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light?      Yes   It was like a golden hue, blanked out everything.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?      A clearly mystical or unearthly realm     that I was on a plane of the here after, I sensed certain people but not events associated with them, recognized them.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?      Tremendous uplifting, calm, excited, energy of unknown amount, euphoria.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness?      Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy?      incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe?    I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?      Everything about the universe     sort of: like I now knew there was definitely life after death but it was no way how religion is on earth...they have it all wrong, reevaluating life, death, religion. The role of the sun, energy.

Did scenes from your past come back to you?      No    

Did scenes from the future come to you?      No    

Did you come to a border or point of no return?      No  

God, Spiritual and Religion: 

What was your religion prior to your experience?   Christian- Other Christian  

Have your religious practices changed since your experience?      Yes     Do not attend church

What is your religion now?      Select   Methodist raised, went to Catholic church because of wife

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs?      Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience    

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience?      Yes     stopped going to catholic church

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?      No  

Did you see deceased or religious spirits?      I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?      No  

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence?      Yes     Life after death, Joy of life, everything was going to be great, look to the future.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness?      Yes     Definitely a oneness of such large energy

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God?      Yes     Their is a supreme energy, I guess you could say god, but not any religion on earth!

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion: 

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose?   Yes   Life after death, no religion can describe it.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life?      Yes     Love, kindness, joy of life, heart should lead us

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife?      An afterlife definitely exists     Yes     life after death, not how any religion says it is.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives?      No    

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships?      Yes     not to fear, not to worry, everything will be great

During your experience, did you gain information about love?      Yes     Love all, nature, humans, animals, life

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience?      Large changes in my life     Its hard relating to family but others listen.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience?       Yes closer to family, nature, life

After the NDE: 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     Yes   I cant fully describe the feeling and rush of emotions, energy I felt, sense, made aware of.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?    I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience  Its engraved on my memory, part of now.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?      Yes     a closeness to nature, life, family...other happenings

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?       my dreams and insights from other happenings

Have you ever shared this experience with others?    Yes    months family listened but did not comment

others listened and commented on

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes   Just what my mother told me about her dad's death and what I had read about once or twice, heard on tv.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened?      Experience was definitely real     It impacted me that I was chosen, given insight

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now?      Experience was definitely real     Still vivid

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?    Yes   my moms death