I called my husband later in the day and recalled my experience of having his Godly grandfather and my grandmother at the foot of my bed taking care of a newborn and how they were gone the next few minutes as quickly as they had come. We talked about whether I should travel now to Washington and I emphatically said, 'Of course!' I was looking forward to seeing the country visiting sights along the way with the 2 exchange students and my one son. I never thought about the grief that could set in BECAUSE it never did. Of course, I was sad not to have another baby to raise BUT I knew I would see this baby again someday in heaven when I died.  I had nothing to worry about regarding this baby. I believed that newborn babies that die before being capable of deciding about whether there is a God or not are automatically sent to heaven to be with family members that has preceded it in death. I had learned this from my Pastor and was now convinced that it was true because of the evidence of seeing my deceased grandparents holding my unborn deceased son. I only have told a handful of people about this experience of losing this baby by miscarriage over the years but it always comforts me to remember this; so much that I never have experienced the grief of losing a child that would be normal to most people because I know where that child is.  He is being taken care of much better than I could in heaven.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain I was experiencing a miscarriage which involved bleeding but I was not bleeding enough for an emergency situation

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes IT was something that only I experienced and I had no proof it happened except my word and the fact that I had physically miscarried my child and I was not experiencing horrible grief over the situation of losing a dearly wanted child.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? moments before my physical miscarriage

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal there just was an amazing 'PEACE' that enveloped me that I had no worries, no fears and was alert of everything around me temporarily

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. not sure

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. hearing was heard to describe during the experience because I don't remember actually seeing mouths move but more like extra sensory perception communications were happening

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? extreme peace during a normally grief-stricken time

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes it was a warm glow around my deceased grandmother and Father's grandfather in my bedroom

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
my deceased grandmother and husband's deceased Grandfather - two people that didn't know each in this life were together in my bedroom reassuring me that all is well

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes my deceased grandmother and my husband's deceased grand father

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No


Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
everything seemed to happen all at once

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others                I only understood completely about my miscarried son

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life ("life after death")? Yes that my unborn son was going to live with my deceased grandparents in heaven and that he would be cared for by them and that I should not worry

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes I already had confidence that God was in control in heaven but it was confirmed by meeting my dead grandparents

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? Yes just a confirmation that my now dead baby was alive in heaven and being taken care of

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly lifes meaning or purpose? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly lifes difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No

What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your exp

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

My experience directly resulted in: Slight changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared the experience with my husband immediately and then it took several years maybe ten years to share with any other people

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I believed then and to this day believe that my grandparents were in 'spirit form' in my bedroom with my unborn child in their arms

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real We have immortal spirits that go somewhere when we die - I choose to believe unborn babies go to heaven to be cared for by previously departed family members in heaven and my experience fortified my beliefs. I have not and will not grieve for my dead baby because I will see him again in heaven when my spirit joins him.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes