It was a little after midnight on March 17, 2024. I was laying in bed silently praying and crying to Jesus to please let Tommy know how much I loved him and how I missed him terribly. I was begging Jesus to allow Tommy to come to me in a dream so I could talk to him or touch him. I had been asking Jesus for this since I found out Tommy had passed five days prior. This particular night as I was praying, crying and falling asleep, I think I was in the twilight stage of falling asleep, I suddenly felt something like the weight of an arm and hand being laid on my back and left shoulder. (I was lying on my right side in bed)  I felt him lean over and kiss me on my left cheek, much like when you are kissing someone goodnight as they are sleeping in bed and you are standing up over and behind them, leaning over towards them.  It was as if I knew it was Tommy and I cried out 'Tommy I love you so much' and I began to reach for his head with my right arm. I remember wanting to touch his hair, he had a buzz cut and he used to like me to rub his head and I liked the feel of his soft hair. As I was reaching I began to wake up, and he was gone.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?     No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         Yes

I was in bed laying on my right side when I felt the weight of an arm and hand being played over my back and left shoulder. I felt him lean over and kiss my left cheek.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Familiar I guess. It was like someone leaning over to kiss you goodnight as you are laying bed and they are standing behind you and lean over to you.

          Was anything communicated by the touch? Love because he kissed my cheek and I felt love.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   I did not hear anything only felt

Did you see the deceased?       No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

How long did the experience last?      Maybe 5-10 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       Sudden. I suddenly felt the arm like weight and kiss on cheek. And as I was reaching for him, I woke up.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes

Love is what I felt

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   I believe Jesus allowed me this moment with Tommy because Jesus has answered my heartfelt prayers previously in my life.

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  Yes

I say yes because I was in twilight sleep at the time.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I felt Tommy’s love for me and I felt my love for him.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

I feel like Tommy knows without a doubt how strong my love for him is. He used to doubt anyone loved him due to severe childhood trauma he had. I feel peace knowing he is fully healed and happy.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          The best part was knowing he was there and loved me and the worst part was when he was gone.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No                  Describe:     I think it’s made me not feel as sad
          
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      No      I want to

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         Yes    There is life after death for all those that put their faith in Christ and accept Him as their savior. I know Tommy had accepted Christ as his savior and feel his visit to me was proof he was now in heaven and at peace.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Love, happiness and almost like surprised at the speed in which Jesus answered my prayer. Also a little sad it ended.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

Did you see a light?        No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

Have you shared this experience with others?       No     

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?   I feel a peace about his death now and I feel happy knowing that he knows how much I love him and that I will get to see him again one day when I get to Heaven. He is one of the first people I am seeking out once I get there, after Jesus.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes