Following his passing, I was in his bedroom looking for a pair of sweatpants of his that I could change into. I bent over and opened the bottom drawer of his dresser and felt a presence pressing up against me, wrapping around me. There was a heaviness, it was enough to make me breath deeper to fill my lungs. The pressing was felt not only on the outside of my skin, but it permeated into my body. I experienced profoundly and immediately that it was George, so much so that I stood up and said out loud, 'Oh, George, I'm so sorry.' and began to cry. Later that afternoon I went back into the bedroom to retrieve something, stopped and looked at a picture on the wall of him and my mother. Suddenly, the hairs on my arms stood on end and I felt that same heavy pressing into my body, wrapping itself around me. The intuition again was that it was George. There was no doubt at that moment that it was anyone else but him.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         Yes

Something pressed into me and wrapped itself around me.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? It was both familiar and unfamiliar. I felt like someone was wrapping arms around me and body against me, but it permeated into my body so that I felt energy from the outside entering in.

          Was anything communicated by the touch? Just an immediate knowing that it was George.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   The house was empty, except for my mother at the opposite end of the house. The home was on national forest land, so there were none of the experiences that could be attributed to and urban environment. Furthermore, I have felt that same physical sensation at other times when I have also had visual or auditory experiences.

Did you see the deceased?       No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

How long did the experience last?      20 seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       Both the beginning and the end were a bit more sudden, although the physical sensation was quite strong during the experience.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Uncertain

I felt a sudden need to connect with him and tell him I was sorry. I was overwhelmed with tears. The only thing I felt from him was the desire to connect in that moment. I shared the experience with my mother, and it gave her comfort. Maybe that was the purpose, I don't know.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   I'm very pragmatic. Even though I was raised in a conservative Christian household with beliefs that contradict the many experiences I have had, I cannot deny the validity of those experiences. They were real, they were tangible, and I have no logical explanation for them.

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  No     

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I felt open, as if on a ride that I had no control over. I was not afraid, I felt George immediately and my knee-jerk response was to connect with him. I did not think, I simply felt the physical touch, the extreme heaviness on my body and lungs, almost as if I was being lifted up and out. I don't know how else to explain it.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? No

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          There is no worst. I felt connected to George and felt blessed he came to me.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes                Describe:     I'm much more open and willing to experience things now. I feel that intuition is something to be cultivated and practiced.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      No     

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes    Regardless of our faith and religious beliefs, there are things we cannot explain nor understand. We compartmentalize God as we know him, and these experiences prove we cannot put Him or our established beliefs in a neat little box. I may not have all of the answers, but if I am lucky enough to be brought into the experiences, I will walk away with a greater appreciation of our world and what is beyond.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Sorrow at George's departure. Honored and blessed by his connection with me. Open to future experiences.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

Did you see a light?        No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    They have been positive.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?   No.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes 

Other spiritual events in the course of my life:

One night at the age of 10, my twin sister and I were in our bedroom sleeping. The door was closed, no one was in the dark room with us. Suddenly, we both heard a large coin drop on the bedside table and spin multiple times before stopping. We called our mother into the room. We all searched for the coin but found nothing.

At 16 years old, I witnessed a black cloud floating in corner of my bedroom one night during a difficult time in my life. I was fully awake.

In my early 20s, I walked through grandmother’s perfume three years after her death, following a move across country. I was walking down the hallway and it was as if I walked right through a heavy cloud. Her perfume was distinct to her.

Multiple episodes of physical sensations of hairs standing on arms and neck, followed by feeling of someone wrapping around my body, pressing into me, heaviness in body and lungs:

2xs after George passed away

The day after cousin Jimmie passed away

At the historic Flavel House in Astoria (this one hurt my lungs, had a difficult time breathing, I felt like someone was squeezing me)

During a Zoom counseling session following a carjacking this Easter; computer monitor goes berserk, hairs stand on end, physical pressure, and the counselor says 'they want me to tell you something.' That one freaked me out a bit.

In 2017 I witnessed a young child in basement of our home, running from my daughter's bedroom toward the back of the basement. I thought it was my daughter attempting to surprise me, so I ran around the corner to meet her. No one was there. My daughter's bedroom door was closed, she and her sisters were on their stomachs on the floor watching TV. This was during a time when my oldest daughter heard a child crying in the house one day, but no one else was home except for her. Our family would experience sadness when going into the basement closet. Guests who stayed in our home would also experience the same sadness in that closet. Our little dog would frequently end up in the closet, with the door completely closed and latched. Only his barking would alert us that he was trapped inside.

I woke up one night to watch my bedroom door swing from all the way open to almost closed, stopping abruptly an inch from latching. I got up, went to the bathroom and while in the bathroom, heard boots walking across the hard wood floor from the front door to the back door. When I checked both doors, they were locked from the inside. Both my husband and daughter were sound asleep.

I've woken up twice to find one book from our bookshelf laying in the middle of the living room floor, and another day finding one propped up behind the couch. I was alone in the house at the time.