Messages from Jake 

Two weeks after he died our good Friends Steve, Tara, and Cassius (one of Jake's classmates) were having dinner at our house.  I remember feeling haunted with the reality of his death (still feeling physical pain from his death).  Our son Jonah and Cassius were playing in the playroom and Cassius came and told me that the lights were flickering in the playroom.  Moments later I saw a single light in the front entry go out and on and I looked at Tara and she suggested I go just sit in the playroom with the boys.  I did and Jonah and Cassius were playing in the sink in the bathroom of the playroom.  Cassius told me the lights went out again.  I was there, and only the lights went out in their area, not where I was sitting.  My Mom saw the light in the doorway go out 2 more times with me.  We feel that was Jakes first visit. 

As I was falling asleep one night I tried meditating thinking of Jake and saying his name (I had read about doing this from the book Love Never Dies).  I passed through a layer and Jakes face appeared to me!  It was so real I called out his name as I was falling asleep.  I only passed through the dimension, so his face only lasted a moment. I was convinced that something really happened in that moment.  I feel I really saw him.  Unfortunately, I got no expression from him about how he was.  I only saw his face (No smile or crying etc).   

One night while I slept I bolted out of bed toward someone.  Totally reacting to someone in my subconscious state. As I leapt from the bed this spirit moved away from me.  I felt its presence and how it reacted and laid back down and told this being not to be afraid.  In my half asleep state, as I laid down I felt this spirit come back to stand right beside me.  I dont know if it was Jake or not. 

The next visit was when we returned from Hawaii about 4 weeks after Jake died.  The second we arrived back home there was a sweet visitor waiting  for Jonah. ( Jonah's favorite thing since he was a baby  is ducks.  He has several stuffed duckies and a duck security blanket that he covets.)  A rare, beautiful duck was literally waiting at the front door!!!  I swear that if I had opened the door he would have come right in ☺  We have photos and video of this sweet little creature hanging out at our door and even coming into our garage to waddle around.  The next morning he was gone. 

Around 7/2011 Russ had caught a snake for Jonah and Jonah was playing with it in the kitchen.  My Mom, Dad, Russ, Jonah and I were all together.  As Jonah held the snake the lights ONLY IN THE KITCHEN got very bright and literally exploded!!!  It was almost like Jake was expressing his joy at his brother playing with the snake  (Jake always loved snakes).  No other lights in the house even flickered.  There was NO wind outside, etc. 

Rainbows   Russ received many rainbows during the summer after Jake died.  I believe God was letting him know that he was with Russ.  As Russ was flying to Anactuvic, AK he had a rainbow runway leading him to the town!  (We have a photo of it).   We also had a rare Circumhorizon arc over our house.  Friends took photos and it was in the local and national papers ☺ (we have photos of that too). 

My Mom was having surgery on her eyes when she was under anesthesia she was calling out to Jake and tried to get off the table.  They almost could not operate. 

1/2012 My friend Tara and her son Cassius came over to visit Jonah and I one evening.  All four of us were sitting at our kitchen table.  The two boys were playing a game and Tara and I were talking about Jake and watching a memorial video of  the Breedlove boy who died this last Christmas.  We were crying and talking about the possibility of life after death when our Tiffany lamp over our heads at the table got really bright and blew out!!  I tried turning it back on to no avail.  My friend Tara and her son witnessed the first ADC with us and she and her son totally believed it was Jake sending us another sign that he loved us and he was ok.  All night the light would not turn on (all other can lights around it on the ceiling were FINE).  The next morning when I turned on the kitchen lights the Tiffany light was working again(2 of the 3 bulbs were blown out)!!! 

2/2012 -  As I crawled into bed one night there was a Lady Bug right where I would sleep!  It was February, so ladybugs would not be around this time of year!  When Jake was 3 we were in San Diego at an aquarium and he had this tenacious lady bug that kept landing on him even after we pulled the little bug off!!  I have pictures of that day and I feel the lady bug in my bed was a way for him to give me a hug through a bug as I went to sleep ☺  I put the bug on my chest for a while then kissed it and put it gently on my bedside table.  The next morning it was gone.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?            Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            No

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

As I was falling asleep one night I tried meditating thinking of Jake and saying his name (I had read about doing this from the book Love Never Dies).  I passed through a layer and Jakes face appeared to me!  It was so real I called out his name as I was falling asleep.  I only passed through the dimension, so his face only lasted a moment. I was convinced that something really happened in that moment.  I feel I really saw him.  Unfortunately, I got no expression from him about how he was.  I only saw his face (No smile or crying etc).

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Clear.  I only saw him for a moment, but it was real enough for me to shout out his name as I was falling asleep.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Only his face.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       He was the same age as he died, 6 years old.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            He seemed healthy.  I could not read any expression from his face.  No happy or sad face, just his face.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           No.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           I often am sensitive to the smell of plastic (similar to the smell of the plastic tubing and equipment I smelled in the hospital the night Jake died).

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     Only from what I smelled in the hospital.

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   No.  I don't know what to make of it when I smell it.  It only brings me sadness of the night I saw my son after he died.

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        Possibly.

How long did the experience last?        It comes and goes within minutes.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Gradual

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I can't deny what is happening to us.  All the experiences really happened (total fact).  Whether it is my son or a product of my wishful thinking and pure coincidence...I don't know.  Enough has happened since he died that I have to wonder what is going on :)

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes

As I was falling asleep one night I tried meditating thinking of Jake and saying his name (I had read about doing this from the book Love Never Dies).  I passed through a layer and Jakes face appeared to me!  It was so real I called out his name as I was falling asleep.  I only passed through the dimension, so his face only lasted a moment. I was convinced that something really happened in that moment.  I feel I really saw him.  Unfortunately, I got no expression from him about how he was.  I only saw his face (No smile or crying etc).

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I was falling asleep and I was relaxed.  I was excited the moment I saw his face.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

Yes, but so much in our world today says everything has to be concrete and proven to be real.  These experiences when I think back on them ALWAYS bring me hope.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      I never know what the mood of my son is.  I want to know he is happy and ok.  I am a tough sell.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No             

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     Hope that there is life after death and my son live on in another realm.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     My son and God are outside time and space.  They have the bigger picture.  The things that happened to us have had incredible timing and meaning .

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes I had a dream that came true.  Unrelated to Jake.  I was with my friend Kate and I saw the dream coming true and told her what else was going to happen....and it came true.  This experience tells me for a fact that we can travel outside time and space.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I was hopeful that Jake still exists in another realm. I was more at peace days after the experience.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

Many events were witnessed by people that were very close to Jake.  As many as 6 people in one event.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

As I look back on all the experiences I see how our loved ones on the other side have a bigger picture of things.  I know Jake's love for me is expressed through his ADC.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

I had a crazy dream where I was driving with "a friend" in a car with Jonah in the back seat.  We were heading south when we needed to go north and I was the designated navigator.  As we were driving under an overpass Jonah said he had to pee.  So we pulled over in the median and he got out and went to the bathroom.  The rest of the dream was spent trying to find our way north again to go home....Crazy, huh!