Kimberly S ADC
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Experience description:

My beautiful mom had cardiac arrest on 12/21/19 after having dementia for almost 10 years,  and we took her off life support on 12/24/19.

On February 25th 2020 I awoke at 4:10am after an amazing visitation from my mom.  In my dream, I was dreaming of something else and she interrupted my current dream. I seen my mom's face, and only her face,  really close up.  She looked the exactly the same,  but no wrinkles whatsoever. And her head was up( she lost control of her neck muscles) she looked so lovely and smiled with her eyes. I was taken aback because her eyes looked the same, but they were sparkling bright blue and the color was moving. She had the prettiest green eyes in her life. The next image was again,  only her face and this time she had a scarf on her nose and mouth( the same one I put on her alter for Valentine's day) I was also taken aback why? Thought she might be either being funny, or since I could only see her face that's how she could show me.  Then the next part there was a bright yellow light, I couldn't see her, or myself.  I was really emotional and we hugged and held hands at the same time, it seemed to last for quite a long while.  Within this light I told her how much I missed her.  She said,  ' I know,  I know' telepathically, but it was her voice and her speaking mannerisms. I asked what she's been doing, and she told me she's with children, schooling them. I asked her 'Will you please come back?' She said 'Probably not' I basically begged her without words, and she said,  she would try. Before she parted, she was telling me something I could not understand, it was in a foreign language.  I was confused why I couldn't understand.  When I awoke,  I was emotional, I touched my eyes after I realized what just happened, and I had 2 tears one under each eye.  The amazing connection I felt was undeniably real.  I've had lucid dreams before and this was way beyond the most realistic-like dream. Now thinking back to that dream in February before the corona virus was even really rampant here ( I think there was 14 cases travel related at the time of my dream) and long before we needed masks.  I think my mom was warning me of this and to take it seriously. Thus the foreign accent. Plus it could've been her telling me she had to go like she did because she knew I would have been devastated if she died during this pandemic and I couldn't be with her. You see I wanted to be with her when she took her last breath and I wouldn't have been able to do that.

But I believe she came back to her body after her cardiac arrest so I could be with her.  She was taken off life support on Christmas Eve and she stayed with us for another 8 hours.  We sang to her, played her favorite songs, dressed her up, talked to her, kissed her, and held her hand. She gave me 8 hours, just like I gave her everyday taking care of her 9-5( then another caretaker took over) As soon as we winded down from being all up in her face all day (haha) I leaned the other way in my recliner, being exhausted, my brother relaxing, and my husband sleeping. The machine beeped once and I jumped up, seen her last breath, one more beep and she went peacefully to GOD. She waited until we were settled I truly believe

 Background Information:

 Was this experience difficult to express in words?     No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      No

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

           Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   Her speaking to me telepathically because I couldn't see her or me in the light.  But I knew her voice and her speaking mannerisms

           Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?     Internally but heard how she sounded and was exactly how she would say things

           If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     Exactly the same

           Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No

           Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         Yes

 We were hugging and holding both our hands at the same time

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Most definitely familiar, maybe with more emotion than we ever had before

           Was anything communicated by the touch? Love,  longing and feeling of being reunited.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No

 Did you see the deceased?       Yes

 Just her beautiful face twice.  Looked the same age, but no wrinkles , smooth appearance

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Solid in the 2 images and then just light after that

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Face

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?           same age, just passed away 2 months prior

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Looked flawless. She was looking straight at me and because in her living life she had end stage dementia her neck muscles were not supporting her head any longer.  Plus she hadn't really spoken but a few words in 4 years so it was extra special to hear her like before she was sick.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

 How long did the experience last?      unsure,  the holding hands and hugging at the same time seemed to last quite a while

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       Beginning was gradual because she interrupted another dream I was having.  I even told that dream to hold on, I have to talk to my mom.  The ending was sudden because of course you want it to continue on forever

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes

 I understood her to have felt my pain, by the tone of her saying I know,  I know after I told her I miss her.  And again that hug I could only imagine anyone knowing that emotion is someone who has lost someone and found them again and never wanting to let go.

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  In my detailed description.  It might have been a warning or explaining the reason she had to go.

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   It was very very emotional something I never ever felt before in my life.

           Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

 Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I was exhilarated, but also sad because I didn't want it to end

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

 After I was happy, then overwhelmed with emotions. Kinda felt like I lost her found her and lost her again.  But in 8 months since her death she has not returned to me in a visitation, but have had many signs and synchronicities.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?          The best was reconnecting with my beautiful mommy. Her death has made me want to make her proud.  I continue my connection every day with her and will for the rest of my life.  I know our souls will be together for eternity.

No bad part, aside from her not being here in the physical.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes                Describe:     I'm more loving, accepting of the little things.  My mom's death taught me a lot about life.  I feel I'm open to the universe and what I can do to better everything.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      Yes    I'm a totally different person than I was before my mom passed away.  I am more spiritual and believe in the afterlife.  This is not all there is.

 Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         Yes    I've had so, so many thoughts and sayings come into my head since she's past.  All the sayings I wrote down while she was still alive so I could use them to make her laugh weren't as many that I received since she's passed. I believe she sends those to me.  How else could I have gotten them when I tried so hard to remember them when she was alive? GOD gives us gifts,  many gifts.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes See full description.  I believe she may have given me a warning

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Extreme emotions.  Exhilarated that I could connect with her.  Extreme love. Sadness that she might not come back to me like that again.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

 Did you become aware of future events?      Yes

 Well her having a scarf I bought her on her nose and mouth like a mask and now we're all wearing them for corona virus.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      Yes

I see visions of her and other things while I'm definitely awake but about to sleep.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

 Did you see a light?        Yes

 When we were hugging and holding hands there was nothing but light and the feelings

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

 Have you shared this experience with others?      

Yes    They listen, My dad has had a couple of instances and my brother a couple as well. I believe you have to be open and sensitive to receive communication.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         No

  Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?   I am blessed to be my mom's daughter.  It's unconditional love that will last through eternity.

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes