Integration experience

Experience description 2453:  

All this happened 3 times on the day of Tom's passing:

After kissing Tom and him leaving for the day, I usually said, I love you, have a nice day, BE SAFE. That morning I feel urgently compelled to open the door after he was going to his car and told him to PLEASE be safe! I never did or felt this urgency to emphasize this before. I took a nap for a few hours and upon waking had a lucid thought pop into my head that he was going to die. So shocking to me that I brushed it off as crazy.

While getting groceries for dinner that day I heard another thought pop in my head that he was going to die. Again, I brushed it off trying to carry on for the day. That was around 3:30pm. He died an hour later. 4.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?       No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:            Voice in my head, realization as well

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?            On the first one ('please be safe'), it was only an urgent sensing in me. The 2nd was a realization with inner voice and words in my mind. The 3rd was like my own voice in my mind with words.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           No

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?          Absolutely not

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           No

Did you see the deceased?        No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

How long did the experience last?       a few seconds

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         My experience was a premonition that served to warn me of Tom's impending death, but there was nothing I could do so I saw it only as a way that Tom and I are very connected to each other.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          Fearful upon feeling and hearing this message. I did not want to entertain it.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          No

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     It tells me how connected we remained with each other, at best. Worst, it gave me information that devastated my life 100%

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Yes                 Describe:            He passed suddenly. That changed every bit of my life both physically, financially, emotionally, and spiritually.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  No      

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            No      

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?  Yes

Tom said he would stalk me, as part of an old joke but him saying he would find me no matter what. I said I would go to hell and back to find him, like

Robin Williams did for his wife in "What Dreams May Come".

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?    Uncertain Had 3 premonitions. He did in fact die that day. No other verification but my own truth.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           None. I put it out of my head.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   No

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes  100%

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?           No

Did you see a light?          No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          Uncertain

Only that Tom did pass in another location from where I was at

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     No one found it significant in the light of Tom's passing. What good was it after the fact?

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes 

Dreams, synchronicities, perceptions of future events, messages, images and visions. Intermittently over my life. Not consistent, but there often.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 2454:

1st experience: As I was crying on my bed, laying on my side, a clear image of a memory of Tom came into my head, something I didn't remember (and have terrible recall unless reminded), then a strong feeling in my gut followed - like a pulling sensation or great anxiety. I then felt tingling, like light electrical tickles along my back side, legs and arm that was facing away from the bed. I knew by the precursor memory and my bodily reactions it was Tom. I heard in my mind's voice, 'Baby I'm right here'. He told me to just breathe. As I did the breathing out of my mouth to calm down my gut feelings, blowing out of my mouth while trying to feel him. I closed my eyes to reach him, telling him I was trying my best to reach him. I fell asleep within 30 seconds of saying this to him.

Later that night, my oldest daughter was sleeping on Tom's side of the bed. She had moved in with me due to her current marital problems. I had yet another bad dream that night with someone threatening me with knives, guns, or me running from something or someone. I woke up to shake it off but laid still in the bed to not disturb my daughter. A minute later my daughter woke up saying to me, 'MOM!', startling me with her tone, as if someone was breaking into the house. I answered her, 'what?' She said, are you calling spirits or something? I said only Tom but otherwise I don't do that kind of stuff, why? She said I feel someone in the room and it's not Tom and tell them to leave so they don't freak out my kids. I said well I don't feel anything and how could you be so certain it isn't Tom? She said, I don't know, but either way, I feel something in the room and it's freaking me out. So I suggested we get up and have tea. 4am. I requested Tom leave for the time being to help ease her mind.

2nd experience: I was in the shower, remembering how Tom always hopped in there with me, peeking first to see if it was ok to join me. I was remembering that but in a new way....as if he was actually there, clearly in my minds eye. Was that me in the state of grief? Or was that him joining in that memory? I don't see these things the same way anymore knowing there is so much more that we can't measure or understand. Anyway, I started crying. After a few moments I felt the warmth of my head in his chest so profoundly that when I closed my eyes it felt just like him when he would hold me in the shower with his arms around me, even though my head and hands were butted up against the cold tiling.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? Yes

Uncertain and intimate in describing the thoughts, feelings and conversations between us. Hard to describe the feelings both emotionally and physically.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           Yes

1st: I felt tingling like soft electrical down the back side of my body, arms and legs.

2nd: I felt the warmth of his chest on my cheek, chest and arms like I was being wrapped in his arms.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?  Very familiar. He would lay with me that way - his front to my back; in the shower we would always hug like that while letting the water hit my back.

            Was anything communicated by the touch? Love, comfort, care, tenderness, safety, compassion. Him letting me know he's with me and understands how his leaving has impacted my feelings of loss, me, and my life.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?          Absolutely not.

Did you see the deceased?        No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

How long did the experience last?       1st lasted about 4-5 minutes.

2nd lasted about 2 minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        Both experiences were gradual.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

I felt his compassion and need to comfort me.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Yes, that he is capable of breaking the physical barrier between us to convey to me that he is still here.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         I know what I felt physically, saw in my mind's eye that I never experienced before in any way, shape or form. It was too strong to think it was 'just my imagination' or 'wishful thinking'. I know that difference. My mind was in no way imagining or hoping that he could or would come to me in those ways.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          Sadness in me. Comforted and soothed by him.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          Uncertain

I was still sad, but it was lifting and bringing me comfort I needed from him, that only he could give me.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     Best: I felt Tom seems determined to reach me in more significant ways, unhindered by any physical bounds (often saying he's learning new parlor tricks - it's how I joke with him)

Worst: I miss him like I miss part of my soul being ripped from my being, left with a raw gaping hole that won't be healed until we are together again.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Yes                 Describe:            In my quest to understand Tom's love for me, I am being prodded to understand how important it is to love those that we share life with, and the love within and for ourselves is just as important. I have more questions than answers now, trusting my intuition more, and feeling compelled to delve deeply into personal experiences of OBE to be with Tom while we exist in separate dimensions.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes     That love has such great power, most people don't understand how it can change us and goes beyond our perceived world views, beliefs or religions, mine included. It's a powerful force of the heart and souls of each of us. I could say those words before, but now I know them and continue to be amazed at its far-reaching capabilities.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Yes     I realized that love does not apply any rules or rationale of what people think or believe. That our spirituality is merely the great love we all have in our souls. It's a universal language regardless of our beliefs. I realized that in spite of how people say the deceased go to heaven, they are right there at all times if we need them. They watch us, guard us, comfort us, help us heal, and understand our plight of slogging through mud and quick sand in this earth plane of existence. Our souls are eternal and not removed away from us except by the limitations of our senses. I also realized that I'm envious of my deceased husband for being in the better place than me on earth. I know there is a God now, but I questioned this whole set up and strived to get a better understanding so I wouldn't feel so cheated out on being with Tom.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact? Yes

He said he would stalk me (meaning find me no matter what), and I said I would go through heaven and hell to find him.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?    No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?           I felt at ease knowing he is still around, somewhat relieved. Sadness stayed with me.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

The bed experience: when he was holding me and I closed my eyes while feeling him and to reach him, I felt like I was looking into a clear blackness to that was piercing a veil of consciousness. I fell asleep right after that.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes

Being sensitive to people's intentions, and what real love is/does to us when we feel and experience it beyond our human understanding.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

When he was holding me in bed, I fell asleep immediately. I haven't done that before or since, except once when I was 5 yrs old and physically visited by a 7'+ tall being who put his head to mine.

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?         No

Did you see a light?          No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

No       Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?      No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      I have more experiences, to follow.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes 

Dreams, synchronicities, perceptions, messages, images and visions.

Intermittently over my life. Not consistent, but there.

Had a physical visitor come to me around 5 years old. Not the imaginings of a child because of how analytical and lucid I was/am. In fact, the way he looked was a reminder of a taller version of Tom, who I met when I was 43 yrs old. No one seemed to interested in helping me know who that being was or why he came to me. And both of them were able to make me fall asleep on a dime...the only 2 times this has happened to me in my life.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.   Maybe add the word 'intimate' to feelings of what we felt before or after the experience. It felt more intimate to me. But sacred came close.

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 2455:

1st experience: Driving from the funeral home and a large flock of birds landed across a 4 lane road. We had to stop the car. My daughter pushed the car gently forward but the birds only moved a little. She did this 3 more times while rolling the vehicle until the birds finally left. My husband was a Navajo and we had talked of the meanings of some birds, especially owls. He said owls were a bad omen for Navajos, meaning death or accident, but he didn't believe in that, and NEVER tell his mother if you see an owl, that would start her fear/worry tirade. 

2nd experience: The night after coming back home in Texas from arranging Tom's cremation in Arkansas, my children and I (all grown) noticed an owl staying around our yard, hooting. We live just outside a major city so we are surrounded by neighbors and fences. The owl came out nightly for 3 weeks into our yard. Some nights hooting quite often. This is not something we had before except 20 years ago, and only 1 night.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?       Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           No

Did you see the deceased?        No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

How long did the experience last?       1st lasted only 5 minutes.  2nd lasted over 3 weeks.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        1st was sudden. Birds in the road were unexpected.

2nd was gradual and nightly.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was probably real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         The only noticing was from my daughter and children reminding me of Tom sending me 'messages' through the birds that he was with me and the correlation that these were very unusual happenings to NOT notice. Only after did I remember how Tom and I had talked about birds on occasion.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          When my daughter mentioned this was probably Tom sending me what he could, I felt a sense of him watching over me. Relief and disbelief coupled with wanting to believe but not sure.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          Uncertain

It gave me a moment to consider that he was around. But where is he? How? Some questions formed in my mind.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     Best: I know he's trying to reach me.

Worst: I doubt and need to know he is with me often. Others tell me to let go, but this is our choice to remain with the other. No one gets a say in the matter, regardless of their beliefs or 'authority'. Very irritating and annoying when they cannot tell me why I must let go. NEVER letting him go - and he is not merely a 'memory' to me.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Yes                 Describe:            With each ADC, it shifts my perceptions and answers my questions about the afterlife and my loved one. Books can't answer everything. Only freewill and experiences can offer our personal answers.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes     The deceased do increase their capabilities of shifting or altering energy and matter over time to be unmistakably recognized by those on the earth.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Yes     I realized he was somewhere and aware at some level. I also entertained the idea that the deceased love ones could communicate immediately after death, in spite of what people say about not being able to communicate with the deceased for a period of 3 months to a year. Some will say they only stay around until their funeral. There are no definitive answers to what our deceased love ones decide to do or not.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact? Yes

He said he would stalk me (meaning find me no matter what), and I said I would go through heaven and hell to find him.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?    Yes I had 1 witness to the 1st event; 5 witnesses besides myself to the 2nd experience (owl).

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           I went back to feeling extreme grief and shock over his death.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yes

My daughter

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

On the first experience I was feeling like my whole being was not in this world. But that may have been shock as well as the implications of our souls, bodies and minds being separated by death as well.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes

I have been more sensitive to intentions of others.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you see a light?          No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     'Wow, That was Tom telling you he's here'. They too were able to see that it's part of life on earth and how wonderful to keep in touch beyond the barrier of death.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      There are more experiences as time went on where they become more obvious he is with me.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes 

Dreams, synchronicities, perceptions, messages, images and visions.

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 2456:

I think my anger about all that's happened to me caught up with me and I lost it on my children for not protecting me in my vulnerable moments of shock, devastation and attacks by family and some well-meaning and not so well-meaning friends. I was on my bed group-texting my kids about my feelings and what they did and didn't do to help me; how alone I felt in fending off ill-intentioned people when I had no fight in me to stop them. I felt betrayed by the world. After a few hours of this (bad, I know), I smelled lilies all around me. I got up to sniff around and nothing away from where I was sitting - no fans running, and I hadn't showered or cleaned my bed in days, nor have candles in my room, so it wasn't anything wafting through the room. Went back to my spot on the bed, and smelled the lilies there. I was still upset, but this made me stop and realize that the only person who got me lilies was Tom. He would bring them home from the grocery store when I was sick or having a rough time in life. He know I loved lilies.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?       No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         No

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   I heard his words in my dream.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?            In my dream. His voice.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           Similar

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?          No

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? N/A

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           No

Did you see the deceased?        No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?          Lilies. Only Tom bought them for me because he knew how much I loved their smell.

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?    Absolutely

            Was anything communicated by the smell?  That he knows I was having a rough moment and felt alone and betrayed by the world. That he hadn't betrayed me or left me and totally understood what I was going through.

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?    No. I checked and sniffed every possible area - of which there was none.

How long did the experience last?       5 minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        Gradual

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

I sensed his compassion and understanding.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? I realized with this smell there was independent action for me from Tom. He was thinking of a way to help me know he was there. And I never sensed him at all, still believing up to this point that maybe he wasn't around during all this, obviously, because I didn't see or hear him with my 5 senses.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         The smell was all around me and clearly as if there were real lilies. It lingered for 5 minutes so there was no mistaking what my nose knows.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

It was a dream, but the first dream I had of him.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          Being that I was angry, it made me pause and back off.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          Yes

I realized that Tom is still around, watching, caring about me. I also realized I need to not let my anger get the best of me on the only people who stayed by my side through all this time.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     Best: I got flowers!

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Yes                 Describe:            All my ADC's are changing my life. His death changed my life. I feel I'm living with one foot in this world and one foot in the next, yet in limbo because I'm not fully in either. I am not afraid of death. I have only been afraid of what happens prior to death that makes us die - PAIN.

As for God, I was leaning on being atheist until Tom's passing. As I sort through things in my mind, I realize more and more there is a Divine presence behind all life.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes     Stated previously.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Yes     Pause and look at others with the eyes of love and understanding, not in the worst possible light.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact? Yes

He said he would stalk me (meaning find me no matter what), and I said I would go through heaven and hell to find him.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?    No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Lingering anger but more thoughtful of Tom and what I should be looking at with love more.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Witnessed by my son, Michael.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

I was dreaming so this was altered space and time.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?           No

Did you see a light?          No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     They are seeing so many things they just say, oh, nice. Not sure if they are getting used to this or if they think I'm crazy.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes 

Dreams, synchronicities, perceptions, messages, images and visions.

Intermittently over my life. Not consistent, but there.

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 2457:

I was missing Tom and began smelling his clothes and crying. I went from his closet to his drawers. Same thing. I then decided to look through his drawers. One thing led to another and started cleaning up some of his papers, forgetting my tears. I found a card he had bought for me that he forgot to give me. As I was reading it the thought occurred to me that it said exactly what I would have said to him, but it was unsigned and with its envelope so it wasn't from me. He probably forgot to give it to me with our hectic schedule. I showed my daughter the unsigned card. I keep it on my dresser as his gift to me. It came at a good time because I had been feeling the need to hear his words to me.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?       No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           No

Did you see the deceased?        No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

How long did the experience last?       5 minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        gradual

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? Yes. His card told me his heart and what he was feeling about me in detail.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         I found an unsigned card in his drawer beneath his paperwork.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          Relieved, loved, surprised

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          Yes

I realized how fully he felt about me, and confirmed in what my heart knew in words. I was so happy to see that he felt exactly about me as I felt about him, and that I needed those words from him.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     Best: I have his words to look upon any time I need them.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Uncertain      All these synchronistic events coupled with ADC's are giving me hope that he wants to reach me as much as I want to reach him.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Yes     Love never ends nor stops giving.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact? Yes

He said he would stalk me (meaning find me no matter what), and I said I would go through heaven and hell to find him.

So far, that has been true. He is reaching me in many ways, and I am going through so many things and learning ways to find him through the separation.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?    Yes I have the unsigned card.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Happy

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           Yesm my daughter

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?           No

Did you see a light?          No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     My daughter elaborated about how real love looks, since she is confused in her current marital situation. We discussed this kind of love for some time after.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes 

Dreams, synchronicities, perceptions, messages, images and visions.