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I've submitted here before. My friend and I are still in contact after his death, although sporadically. It began with him forgiving me for the way we had lost contact in life. And he had contacted me throughout the initial years of grief through very, very specific songs at choice times (the first time coinciding with his name being repeated throughout the cafe I was in on a significant day, and another time after visiting his grave and a song came on in the car about laying flowers on his grave and not to come back again nor cry and then passing a car with a skeleton and a daffodil hanging from the rear view mirror - which is the exact flower I left on his grave whilst acknowledging as a baby he couldn't say his surname correctly, identifying as bones) as well as three dreams. At the beginning of the grief period, I was in a dream where he was waiting to pass through a doorway blockaded by a mattress. I had to tell him I was sorry, and he, too, before he was called to pass through. We were both awkward about it. The next dream, later on in the grief process, was a dream where I saw him walking in the valley where he grew up and showed me a couple of times. I visited here to pay my respects at his grave. This time he was walking with a friend who was still alive and known to us both, but smiling at me in passing, with a scarf around his neck. Some time this year, I dreamt of him coming with me to the US, where I was reunited with my living family, but there was so much happening on the streets - protesting with torches (this was not influenced by recent protests as it preceded them). He couldn't stay with me but we hugged and kissed goodbye. Recently, I had been feeling low about everything happening when I was sitting in the garden talking about him for the first time in a long time. There hadn't been any messages/signs from him for some time and I thought maybe he had moved on, went somewhere else, reincarnated, I don't know. But the instant I said his name out loud, a monarch butterfly flew in front of my face and around me before fluttering off. Many times before, a monarch butterfly appeared on extremely significant days.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         No

Did you see the deceased?       No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

How long did the experience last?      So quick. Fleeting few seconds.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       Sudden.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes

Peaceful. Assuring me it's ok and I'm not alone.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   Because the monarch butterfly came up to my face and circled around just as I said his name aloud. A symbol I associated with him before.

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  Like a hug from the universe.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

That he's there.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     It felt like being on the mountain again. The breeze. The sunlight. I got to be in another place by being in the place I was in.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes                Describe:     Will keep going.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      No     

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes    Just the regular affirming/confirming

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    Uncertain

But we did talk about death before he passed and had very similar philosophies

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Calm.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          Yes

They were in the garden with me.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

Did you see a light?        No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

Have you shared this experience with others?      

Yes    The one person who was there with me when it happened.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?   Keep looking for the signs.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes 

I have already submitted them.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       Can you please make a podcast with all these experiences? It's so comforting to hear others' experiences.