Marie O ADC 2489
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Experience description:

Jack was my developmentally disabled(mentally handicapped)brother. I had cared for him in some way since I was a child tying his shoe laces to his trustee until he died this month.

I was dreaming when in the dream I saw a small dog we used to have that is long dead. This understanding made me realize I was dreaming and therefore became lucid. The scene changed or moved to a hospital room where my brother lay in the hospital bed which had crisp white sheets. I knew this to be the real Jack's spirit. Totally different and more vivid than any dream Jack. His hair was dark again and he looked years younger. I exclaimed to him how wonderful he looked and that he was getting better. He smiled as he always did but did not answer. I said to Jack that he didn't need his oxygen any more and as he thought of what I said an indentation appeared on his face as if the oxygen tubing pressed into his cheeks although there was no tubing visable. As quick as it appeared the indentation disappeared. After hearing that he was getting better Jack tried to raise his head off the bed up and down a few times testing his strength.

There was a nurse present in the room. She wore a typical white nurses uniform with a nurses cap. Her hair was course, and an unusual blonde which was pulled back and up under the cap. She seemed to be monitoring my interaction with Jack. I felt she was the spirit who made the meeting possible. After Jack tested his neck strength, the 'light' went out of him and I was left with only a dream Jack.I turned to the nurse and said, 'Oh he's gone. It is just an ordinary dream again.' The nurse replied sympathetically that Jack wouldn't always be this way. Meaning in a hospital bed. Then I woke up. I had remained lucid through out the dream until I woke.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words?        Uncertain

 The difference between the lucid dream and the visitation part of the dream

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?        Uncertain

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?      Yes

 I held his hand

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? familiar feel

            Was anything communicated by the touch?           warmth as alive

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no

 Did you see the deceased?       Yes

 healthy and younger with dark hair

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            solid

            How much of the deceased did you see?            shoulders up

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?        much younger

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            healthy though laying in hospital bed

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? Could have just been a dream but there was a distinct difference between the spirit Jack and the dream Jack in the vividness and realness of the spirit Jack. I knew in the dream it was the spirit Jack. Lucid dreaming is quite vivid and real in itself however this was even more real than the dream.

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

 How long did the experience last?      a few minutes. maybe 5 minutes, at most ten minutes

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?          beginning slow, ending sudden.

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Yes

 Jack was happy to see me.

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was probably real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:     The difference between the lucid dream and the spirit Jack

            Was the experience dream like in any way?           Yes

 It was within a lucid dream. Definitely dreaming.

 Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Excited to have a visit from spirit Jack. Happy to see him. Sad that he was gone from the dream and replaced with a dream Jack.

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?         Yes

 I had been worried about what had happened to Jack if there was an afterlife. I had expected him to be healed immediately after dying. I did not expect a hospital setting.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was seeing Jack again and knowing he was healing. The worst part was when his spirit left and I was left with a dream Jack.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?          No     

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         No          

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?      Yes

 With my living sister, although reluctantly on her part because she is sure there is nothing after life

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?        No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Excited and happy to have had contact

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?        No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?           No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?           No

 Did you become aware of future events?      No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?        No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?         No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   Yes

 the nurse

 Did you see a light?         No

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?           No

 Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    My husband. Mild interest. I'm not sure he believed it since it didn't happen to him.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?           No

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?          Yes 

I experience the oneness of the universe and knew that everything was happening as it should

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?             Yes