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Soon after Rosa died, she started sending me signs. I would hear her moving around and even drinking out of her water bowl, although I had moved the bowl to stop it being accidentally knocked over (during her last few weeks she had taken to eating and drinking separately from our other cats). The day after she died, a butterfly showed up in our garden. It was a huge butterfly...bright blue/green and yellow. It looked as though it belonged more in a tropical rainforest than in the Pacific North West! I have had multiple communications from Rosa - even seeing her three times to date, although each time I've thought it was one of our other cats until I've noticed that they are all asleep elsewhere in the house. I hear her sometimes too and I have felt her climb up onto the bed and under the blankets (none of the other cats do that). She has also moved pieces of raw meat (which she used to beg for while I was preparing food - again, something none of the other cats are interested in). And she has sent me shooting stars, cat-shaped clouds that simply dissolve into blue sky once I tell her I've noticed them, paw prints out of nowhere in the snow recently, songs on my car stereo...she's very active at communicating with me. She also once switched off the internal wifi in our house...we have an external provider of course, but a separate box that sends a signal out between the rooms. That switched off even though the wifi into the house was working and there was no fault on the box. As soon as I told her I knew it was her and could she please switch it back on, she did. I have no fear of spirit communication and am very open to hearing from her which may explain why she contacts me so much. And every contact means the world to me because it tells me she hasn't left me. But there is one experience in particular that I feel may be especially interesting to others. It was a dream, on January 31st 2017, just a few days short of the 6-month anniversary of her death. Regan is Rosa's twin and is still living at this point. This was my dream - and it has left me with a huge question about what she was showing me:-

My dream started with me and my husband. It is us, but at the same time it isn't us as we are now - it's us at our 'ideal'...in our 20s or early 30s maybe and feeling great. We're sitting on a wall in a very pretty flower-filled garden at the front of a house. It's next to a beach - not a sandy beach, but one with a lot of big, smooth, flat rocks and some rock pools. The landscape looks almost familiar to me - it's not too far off some places close to where I grew up. But I've never seen the house before. The house is kind of like a typical English cottage - ivy on the walls, climbing roses, a chimney indicating that there is an open fire etc. But it's bigger than a cottage - it looks as though it has at least 3 stories high and it's a fairly big house. We don't know how we got there or why we're there...it's not our house and we were trying to work out why we're there at all...and why we feel like we have to wait there for something even though at the same time we feel as though we shouldn't be there at all. Rosa is there, in her fur-suit. And her twin, Regan is there. And Mist, the border collie cross I had as a teenager, and who has been gone for a number of years now is there too. There are other cats as well - some I don't know (I want to say 'yet' at the end of that and I'm not sure why). One looks like the description Rosa gave me during my reading (with an animal communicator medium) of the kitten she's going to send me. Others are unfamiliar...yet somehow they're not although I don't know their names. At this point, something in my brain is telling me that this isn't possible - that Rosa can't be there in her fur-suit. Yet another, bigger, part of me just accepts it as normal. I have thought all along that if I saw Rosa in a dream, I would feel that I had to do nothing but hold her. Yet I only hold her for a minute, although I pet her and fuss her on and off throughout the dream. Somehow, although my conscious mind knows I don't have much time, the other part of me is telling me I have all the time I need - all the time WE all need. She and Regan and the other cats and Mist are exploring - I feel as though we're not far from a road, yet somehow I know it's safe for them to run around. And I can hear them in my mind as though they're talking to me telepathically. Rosa is the strongest voice - she keeps telling me 'Mama, come see' and 'Mama look at this, look what I found' so I keep running to see what she's seeing. Sometimes she's sending a mental picture of what she's found too - small fish and other creatures in the rock pools, butterflies, and places to explore. She's so very excited, yet somehow she's also telling me that we're exactly where we're meant to be and we just have to wait and then we'll see. The others are quieter, letting Rosa have the limelight, but I get an occasional 'voice' from them too.

Then it gets even more weird. We hear a car pull up and this old guy gets out of the car. It's an old car too - a 1940s or 1950s convertible. I'm about to apologize for randomly being at his house, but all he says is 'See, now we're home'. He has a woman in the car with him too. He goes back to the car and pulls out a couple of suitcases, opens the door to the house and tells us 'welcome home'. And the part of the inside of the house that I can see is perfect - comfortable chairs, lots of books (I love to read). Then he goes back to the car and I don't see him again...I never do get to see either of their faces. It's as if they just disappear. And Rosa runs into the house in front of us telling us to 'come explore'. The weird thing is that I get the strongest feeling that the old couple are us. I don't get to actually set foot in the house - it's as though I'm not allowed to yet because I wake up just before my foot touches the floor inside the front door.

Well, then I woke up. But I've been trying to figure it out - was it really a dream? Or was Rosa showing me how things will be when we're all together again in the afterlife?

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes

Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: Very clear. Inside my mind. I heard Rosa talking to me while she was exploring telling me what she'd found. I have also heard her at other times - a quick purr or a meow or the sound of her moving around.

Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? In my dream, it was as if she was talking to me telepathically. At other times, I've heard real sounds in the house.

If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? The sounds I've heard in the house are similar. The telepathic voice, clearly not as Rosa is a cat.

Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No

Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? Yes

Petted her in my dream. In another dream I had, she came to me and cuddled in my arms.

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Familiar. As if I was actually holding and touching her. Her fur was exactly as it always was - the feel, the warmth, everything.

Was anything communicated by the touch? Just pure love.

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No

Did you see the deceased? Yes

She looked healthier than at the time of her death - she looked as though she was in the prime of life.

How clearly did the deceased appear? Solid.

How much of the deceased did you see? All

Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? Appeared to be younger

How healthy did the deceased appear to be? Appeared to be very healthy. Rosa was very sick before she died - very obviously so physically. But the times I've seen her since her death and in my dreams, she is in perfect health

Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes

What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell? Her own warm, clean cat fur smell

Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar? Completely familiar. She smelled like Rosa

Was anything communicated by the smell? Love

Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No

How long did the experience last? As long as a dream lasts. It felt like a couple of hours. Other experiences are fleeting - a moment or two.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Both were sudden. I appeared in the dream as if from nowhere and woke up suddenly at the end too.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes

She was happy. Joyous even. Excited to explore with me.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? I'm not sure. I think she was trying to show me the afterlife we will have, but I can't prove that.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real

Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: I don't usually dream in that much detail and I don't usually remember my dreams...this one has stuck with me for over a month which never happens. It was just too vivid and too real not to have actually been real. The other experiences I've had...butterflies are definitely real. The wifi switching off and on again happened. The times I've seen Rosa, I've ruled out the possibility of it being one of the other cats.

Was the experience dream like in any way? Yes

It was a dream. Or a vision while I was asleep. The other experiences I've had were not dream like at all.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Overwhelming joy, happiness, a little confusion.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain

I don't know what my emotional state would have been like if I hadn't had the dream so there's no way of knowing if it healed or not. I feel as though it confirmed to me that I will see Rosa again eventually.

What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part was having the experience. The worst was waking up and realizing that I was back in my own bed and Rosa was still gone from me physically.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? No

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happy but tinged with sadness that the experience was over.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes

A weird feeling that, although part of my brain knew I was dreaming and I needed to make the most of the moment, the rest of my brain insisted that we had all the time we needed.

Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain

If Rosa was showing me the afterlife, then yes. I have no way of judging the accuracy - and by the time I can, I won't be able to comment on it here!

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? Yes

Living pets. Husband who is still alive (thankfully). Pets I don't know yet, but feel as though I should or will.

Did you see a light? No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No

Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Within a pet loss group. No-one seemed to really know what to make of it.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? I'd just like to know what it means.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes

I get flashbacks to parts of the dream occasionally. From nowhere, I'll remember one small detail and want to hold it close in my mind.

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes