Michele P ADC
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Experience description:

My great grandfather had a stroke back in September 2024. As I have previously stated, I was not extremely close to him, he really liked me specifically and I enjoyed spending time with him. Visits from my family, including me, helped him keep surviving, despite the bad conditions and abuse at a hospice he was in from September to January which stressed him a lot. Eventually, fights and drama inside my family, over who had to care for him, when and how, made his condition get noticeably worse.

He had suspected early stage Parkinsons, but it was never properly confirmed as far as I know, since until near the very end he was completely mentally sound.

On April 21 2025, he was sobbing very loudly. He was calling his mom and asking her for help, and he was extremely distressed. He could clearly see her, and he alternated between moments where he could recognize the presence of me, my mom, and his wife, and moments where all he could do was call his mom.

On the night of April 24 2025, one of his sons sent him to a hospital outside of our town, where he would pass away soon afterwards. He never wanted to feel like a weight to others during his life, so for him this was clearly the last straw.

That's where my experience started.

At around 5:30 AM, I woke up all of a sudden, feeling extremely distressed. I knew something had gone very wrong, and my mom apparently also shared this feeling to a lesser degree. I had the feeling that I had to hug her, I was feeling very sad for no apparent reason and I felt like I needed to protect her.

I went back to sleep just to be woken up 2 hours later by my mom, who had just received a phone call. All she said was "it happened", but I immediately knew she was talking about my great grandpa passing away.

We then discovered that he had passed precisely around 5:30 AM, which is when we woke up. If we had any dreams with him before waking up, we do not remember. But I do strongly believe that this was a legitimate message from my great grandpa who was trying to give us peace and remind us to love each other, since it was an incredibly strong feeling which such a sudden onset.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         No

Did you see the deceased?       No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

How long did the experience last?      5 to 10 minutes before I managed to get back to sleep

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       The beginning was extremely sudden, the end was more gradual

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Uncertain

All I remember is that I felt a strong desire to protect my mother alongside the distress. If that love was also his, I do not know, but I do suspect it

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  Yes, I am certain this was his way of telling me he had passed away and wanted to say goodbye

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   I am completely certain it was not a simple coincidence. It was a real case of after death communication

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  Deep feeling of distress accompanied by sudden urge to protect and love my mother

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain

I am not sure if I have healed from this. It has led me to question a lot of things and choices in my life, and that has taken quite a toll on my mental health. But I believe all my grandpa wanted to do was help me out, and I appreciate and respect him a lot for trying to tell me goodbye

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Best part: the sense of love towards my mom

Worst part: The overwhelming sense of dread and fear that something bad had happened

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes                Describe:     I now appreciate my life a lot more, but the thought of losing it still absolutely terrifies me, now mire than ever

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      Yes    I slowly became more spiritual and religious. It was definitely not instant, but over time I understood the importance of what had happened back then

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         Uncertain     I now know that something definitely happens *on* death. I'm not sure if anything happens right after it, but this definitely gives me hope for that, and I would definitely appreciate it a lot if there was an eternal life to reunite with all our loved ones

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain I had a feeling my great grandpa had passed before being told about it.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Intense grief, but also confusion over the next few days, months and year

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          Yes

My mother also seemed to wake up in a very similar way

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

Did you see a light?        No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    My mother, who said she also woke up in a similar way

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?   It slowly changed me, as I understood it more and more

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Uncertain 

I am not sure what spiritual experience means in this case, but I have often had the strong feeling that, when I pray from the bottom of my heart, and I am fully believing at the same time that what I am praying for will go in the right way even though it normally wouldn't, it just inexplicably does. I have had a fair share of unexplainable events happen to me, on a way smaller scale and not to the degree of this after death communication, not involving deceased ones I assume, but I still believe they shouldn't have normally happened.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes