in my sleep, I smelled Yardley's Lavender perfume which my grandmother used to wear. I opened my eyes as I felt as though I was in her arms. I saw a grey smoky vision of cloud and it was her face. I jumped in fear and she disappeared. It lasted seconds. I had asked her to do this to show me there would be a time together after our time on earth or else I would kill myself when she died and she reluctantly agreed. This was her sign. I regret that I was afraid of her, the one true kind loving relationship I ever had.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? 

Yes

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?           

No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           

Yes

held in her arms

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?  

familiar

            Was anything communicated by the touch? 

love, tenderness and safety

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? 

no I was alone

Did you see the deceased?        

Yes  same but only a greyish vapour of the face

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            very clearly yet somewhat transparent

            How much of the deceased did you see?       face

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       same age

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            somewhat difficult look on her face as though she wasn't supposed to do it.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           no way

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?     

Yes

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?          

Yardley lavender perfume that she wore

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?    

yes

            Was anything communicated by the smell?  

her presence

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?       

no way

How long did the experience last?       

seconds

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

sudden end to a experience that lasted how long before I awoke I cant say

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

Yes  Not supposed to be there, sad

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? 

Yes that there is a future for she and I when I die I will be with her.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         

The fact that she disappeared when I got scared

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  

No  only before I awoke as it was very real after

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

sad, then comfortable, then loved, then scared when I saw she was there

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Yes

she will wait in her heaven for me.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

the proof was the best, my fear was the worst

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?        

Yes                 Describe:           

more loving of her and other family

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     know I will be with my loved ones after our deaths in the future

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?           

Yes     it is difficult to return and manifest in this life to humans but it can be done, with effort due to love so ask for this from a loved one who is dying to show you proof that we will all be one after death

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?       

Yes

with my grandmother as described. Yes she had agreed

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         

No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?           

sorrow that I got scared, missed her even more, felt happy that she did it

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Interest and surprise and gratitude. Dying people are comforted when I tell them my story

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  

No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      

just that I hope this helps others to believe like it helped me.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?        

No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?          

Yes 

bleeding internally, blood pressure went, lost 4 pints of blood, was exposed to all knowledge even that not yet looked at by humans

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?              

Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.   

Invite me to be tested to define in human words the knowledge I obtained in my personal NDE. I believe it could hold the answer to all questions but I don't remember the details even though at the time I knew everything about everything. I have a very high IQ yet still cannot grasp even a phrase from my experience which was validated by my surgeon who confirmed that they almost lost me. I had Extreme Unction Last Rites with the Catholic priest and the ashes on my forehead and all.