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Experience description 2607:

My friend was sitting with me, consoling me and letting me tell her the story about J and why I was wrought with grief. After I told her, I looked at the empty chair next to me and said I wish I could've told him that. Not even a split second passed before (now we were the only ones there nearer to closing time apart from a group that joined mid-way through my story) the door behind me opened and the group repeated J's name over and over and over again, saying 'J is here'. It wasn't just once. It was REPEATED. 'J is here' 'J is here'. And long enough for me to point this out to my friend who had time to listen and hear it. At the same time, a song played that made me think of him. My friend asked what the song was, at the bar and it turned out to be 'Passing By' by Zero 7. Which was ironic. But upon looking at the lyrics, was a little too close for comfort in terms of what we were discussing. I also kept saying to her I don't know the day he died etc. I later learned it was on the 7th (zero seven). I felt very much forgiven. Many things happened to me after this of the 'traditional signs and symbols' nature (like numerology, butterflies and scents). Especially symbolic songs - ones that are way too obscure to just play in the places/times that they did. Fast-forward to when I visited his grave - I picked flowers from the forest we walked together near his home back in 2009. Back then, we sat on top of a mountain looking down at a cemetery. Now, I was in that cemetery, looking up at the mountain. When I was in a low feeling of grief upon return from my visit, a friend gave me a lift and the song that played in the car was the same song I played after visiting his grave. The next song was 'Lay Some Flowers on My Grave' by Willie McTell. Another song too close for comfort and instructs the listener not to return (to the grave) and not to cry, bidding a 'last goodbye'. Not much has happened since apart from two dreams. Dream one was I was in a band-type classroom and he was sitting there and I was nervous to approach him, but did (didn't register he was dead in this dream). I told him I was sorry and he said he could've reached out too. Then he was summoned through a door that I couldn't go through (it was an upright mattress weirdly). The second dream I had, he was walking with a friend (who is alive) in the valleys where he lived. He was wearing a scarf - which I never recalled a time where I ever saw him wearing a scarf. He smiled at me and waved, but didn't stop and it didn't occur to me that I should follow. The first dream was after I knew of his death, maybe a month or two after. The second dream was after I visited his grave, maybe a month or two after.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words?     No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      No

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

           Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   Symbolic songs

           Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?     In my second dream - where J smiled at me - I knew he was okay and that we were okay.

           If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     N/A

           Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No

           Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         Uncertain

 Once, when I was at a really low point, I was sobbing uncontrollably because I was in the same situation as J. This is going to sound weird but it felt like something was stroking my arm which scared me at first, but then calmed me down. I don't know.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Unfamiliar

           Was anything communicated by the touch? Just to calm down

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No

 Did you see the deceased?       No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? Yes

           What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?          I smelled brownies/a cake - and I didn't realize it until reading back my journals that I had made J a birthday cake/brownies for his birthday once before

           Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?          Yes - the smell of brownies/cake

           Was anything communicated by the smell?  I thought something happened to my dad at first - but then I remembered later on that I had baked J a cake/brownies for his birthday

           Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?         Not at all

 How long did the experience last?      A few days on and off

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       Sudden

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          No

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  Maybe the songs (ex 07, lyrical instructions/responses)

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   Too many coincidences - later, the friend who met with me at the cafe asked me to meet up elsewhere for a drink. A band was playing. My friend asked me to ask J to play a song associated with us. I joked during their set that it would have to be doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo, do-do-do-do-do-do-do-do ('Chelsea Dagger' by The Fratellis). Two songs after the song they were playing was that exact song.

           Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

 Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I felt forgiven and that a heavy weight was lifted from my chest

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

 That although we could not make amends in life, we did in death and that he's not really gone - just a different form

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?          The best part was being able to make amends with J / seeing him / knowing he's here - and then finding books he leant me that I still have and will cherish - the worst part is not being able to share this time in history with him on the same plane of existence

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes                Describe:     It saved my life - kept me living when all I wanted to do was see J again and cut my losses if our stories were that similar

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      No      Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes    It acknowledges that energy is neither created nor destroyed

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes Maybe. I didn't know the day he died. The song that played whilst the group in the cafe said 'J is here' over and over was Zero 7. It turned out to be he died on 07.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?         At peace, forgiven, love (the unconditional kind)

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          Yes

 My friend was sitting with me, consoling me and letting me tell her the story about J and why I was wrought with grief. After I told her, I looked at the empty chair next to me and said I wish I could've told him that. Not even a split second passed before (now we were the only ones there nearer to closing time apart from a group that joined mid-way through my story) the door behind me opened and the group repeated J's name over and over and over again, saying 'J is here'. It wasn't just once. It was REPEATED. 'J is here' 'J is here'. And long enough for me to point this out to my friend who had time to listen and hear it.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?          Uncertain

 Both dreams - it did not occur to me that J was dead.

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes

 It's the world around us right now - there's a movement against it and if it fails, it's game over for everyone

 Did you become aware of future events?      Yes

 Being aware of what is happening in the world right now - and that this counter-movement is part of our journey right now and in the next 'life'. There is an awakening happening.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   Yes

 In the second dream - it was a friend of his that is still here on this plane of existence. They both grew up in the same valley but lived elsewhere since university.

 Did you see a light?        No

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No Response

 Have you shared this experience with others?      

Yes    I only told my open-minded friends

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         No

  Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?   There are signs all around us if you pay attention

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 2608:

 I reunited with my dad for the first time after he moved to another country following my grandmother's death (3 months). I went to visit him. He was in the kitchen downstairs. I was in his bedroom upstairs. I heard my grandmother's voice say my name. I didn't tell my dad until after he said he heard my grandmother's voice say his name in the kitchen.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words?     No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      No

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

           Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   My grandmother's voice. Just my name. Said it in the same manner as calling anyone's name to get their attention if you were sitting right next to them.

           Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?     Definitely outside of me.

           If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     Similar

           Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   Not at all

           Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No - I have super sensitive hearing

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         No

 Did you see the deceased?       No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

 How long did the experience last?      Very quickly

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       Sudden

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          No

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  N/A

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   I dreamt of my grandmother dying on the night she had a stroke many years before she actually died. I woke up, told my dad that she was in trouble, went to school, and came home to find out she had a stroke that night. I was not surprised to hear from her after death - and when I later got lost in the cemetery where she was buried, without looking, stopped exactly on her unmarked grave (it's my grandfather's tombstone).

           Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

 Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I was spooked, then comforted, then happy - and forgiven for not seeing her again as I said

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

 Yes. I promised her I would come back and see her again and told her not to tell me her goodbyes when it really was goodbye. This made me feel forgiven.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Hearing from her was the best. The worst was not being able to converse further, but I suppose that will all be revealed.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      No      Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes    It confirmed she was ok and existing in another form

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes My father had a similar situation happen to him at the same time
What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Spooked/shocked, comforted/forgiven, happy/at peace

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          Yes

 My father heard my grandmother's voice say his name in the kitchen downstairs at roughly the same time I heard her say my name in his bedroom

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

 Did you become aware of future events?      No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

 Did you see a light?        No

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

 Have you shared this experience with others?      

Yes    My dad confirmed the same happened to him. I have few friends who are open minded about this - so I leave it with them.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         No

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes 

I *think* I had an out-of-body experience as a child, being afraid of a thunderstorm. I was in my parents' room and slept there with them - but I woke up in my bed, under the covers in the morning. I asked my parents how I got there and they said I was never in their room to begin with.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes