I was in bed sleeping next to my boyfriend. In my dream my mum was talking to me. I couldn't see her, not sure I was hearing her but I know she was the one talking to me. A bit difficult to express. She was asking me to remember the word 'hawan'. I replied her to let me sleep and was falling asleep again. But then felt 'pushed' by her asking me to remember the word. We weren't talking but still communicating. I 'replied' her 'mum let me sleep, I don't know this word'. But then I felt really pushed ( I can't explain the feeling with words) by my mum who was 'telling me' to just remember it, and to ask my boyfriend, because he will know. I was making her understand I wanted to sleep, but the more I was falling asleep, the more pushed I was. She insisted on the fact of asking my boyfriend, even mentioned his name, as he would know the word. 

I woke up in the morning. The relationship with my boyfriend was quite new. He is Indian, and I am French, two different cultures. When waking up, I just said 'hi, did you sleep well, and then, even though I felt really awkward asking that, I felt I had to ask him if he knew the word 'hawan'. So I asked him. He didn't replied me straight, but just looked at me very surprised and questioned me back 'where did you hear this word?'. I just told him, that I don't know this word and to forget about it. He insisted. And only told him I dreamt about this word. He finally explained me that in the Hindu culture / religion, 'Hawan' is one of the highest prayer, that Indus people are doing when someone dies, which 'allows the spirit to reach to the highest level of pureness'.

There was absolutely no chance I would know about this prayer (or anything about Hinduism) and had mixed feelings after that dream. For the whole day I felt a huge lack of energy and kept remembering that dream. What amazed me the most is the fact that I wanted to sleep in my dream and that I kept pushing my mum away despite all my sadness of her not being alive anymore, and how much I was missing her. But she 'pushed' me in the dream to remember her word Hawan and to ask my boyfriend about it. I also felt strange as when I woke up I felt 'in the wrong world', that reality was actually while I was sleeping.

Following it, I never had a dream about my mum but had two other dreams about other people (which are alive: one friend and another girl which I've never met whom is the sister of a friend) regarding their pregnancies. I ended up knowing before them that they were pregnant. I had to explain them I 'felt it' in my dream. I am kind of person who really need to put proof to everything and I've never really been open to 'energy, life after death and other stuffs'. But I must admit that this experience changed my approach to the subject. It's after my dream that I starting checking on Google 'life after death'. Even today, it felt it wasn't a dream. It felt it was reality but another world. Difficult to express. 

I want to emphasize here, that I'm still having mixed feelings about this experience particularly because even today I'm telling myself it probably was just a dream, my imagination or else. But thinking this is also 'making me feel' like I am lying to myself, as I know what I've experienced, and I know for sure it wasn't just a dream. I felt a huge lack of energy on that day,  when I woke up on that day I felt reality wasn't feeling like reality, and still today, it's a dream I can perfectly remember but most important a dream I can still 'feel' today. I can feel how I felt in this 'dream'.

Background Information:

Was this experience difficult to express in words?     Yes

Felt pushed in my dream to remember what was being told to me

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?         

No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes

           Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:          It's difficult to express. I could here the voice but not sure they really were sounds. But I knew what was being asked to me.

           Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?    I'm not sure I heard a single sound but I knew what was communicated to me

           Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No

           Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?      No

Did you see the deceased?       No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

How long did the experience last?      I can't say as it was when I was sleeping.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?          I wouldn't listen to what was being told to me as I remember I just wanted to sleep. But the more I was 'escaping the dream' the more intense was the request

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Yes

I can just say that I felt the request was important

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  She ask me to remember the word Hawan and to ask my boyfriend as he would know.

I didn't know the word and there was no way I would have heard it before that dream. I asked my boyfriend about it. He knew and explained me.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:     See the dream description

           Was the experience dream like in any way?           No      

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: I was normal in my dream. It's like my mum was still alive and nothing had happen. I was telling her to let me sleep. But I felt 'pushed emotionally' by her for me not to fall asleep and to remember what she was trying to communicate with me.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?         Yes

It's difficult to say as I still miss my mum immensely.

But it open my mind to life after death and now, when I feel bad, It helps me thinking there's life after death, even though I can't see or hear the person,(which is difficult to admit for someone whom always need evidences).

I'm not sure the message of my mum was to make me do a prayer (which I still did ) , but looking back at everything, maybe it was just a way to 'prove' me she is still here.

What was the best and worst part of your experience? Best part was the 'normality' of being with my mum in my dream. It was waking up and realizing things she told me to remember were really existing.

The worst part was that I felt being alive wasn't the reality, as I felt life after death is actually the reality.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No               

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?          Yes    Opened my mind to life after death

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes    Opened my mind on the subject of 'life after death'

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?        Yes My boyfriend knew the word and explained it to me.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           On that day I felt a huge like of energy. Like the dream completely exhausted me. I felt happy because my mum was right, my boyfriend knew about the word. And also because the word she ask me to remember is a sacred prayer that you do following the death of someone. But was feeling confused as it felt 'out of our reality' and wasnt sure it was real or if it was just my imagination, my grief.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?        No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?           Uncertain

THe dream felt like reality. When I woke up I felt like the dream was starting.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?           No

Did you become aware of future events?      Yes

Pregnancies.

The sister of a friend that I never met , did a miscarriage. Few months later, I dreamt she was expecting a baby.

I called my friend and told him about my dream. He wanted to tell her but told him not too as I didn't want to sadden her particularly following her miscarriage.

A week later he called me back. His sister went for a routine medical check up. Doctor announced here she was two months pregnant. When my friend told me about it, it was a strange feeling, because, I felt, like he wasn't announce me anything. I just knew about it already. Like I knew the pregnancy would go fine.

I dreamt about another friend which would be pregnant one day. I 'felt the baby growing inside her' and know it will be a boy. I 'saw him' growing up. Still now, I know it will happen. Not sure when, but I know it will.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?        Yes

Dreams

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?         Uncertain

I wasnt seeing me or my mum while dreaming, I just felt everything and communicated with her without talking

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?         No

Did you see a light?         No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?           No

Have you shared this experience with others?       
Yes    My friends all trusted me because they could see how it emotionally impacted me. I usually trust only when having evidences. But here, without having proof, I knew this experience was real and that it wast just a dream.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?           No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      My mum was doing a lots of meditation when expecting me and throughout her life. Not sure there's any link, but still looking for logical explanations.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?          No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?             Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       I am curious about the lack of energy I felt after this dream. When I woke up, I truly felt empty in energy. And when I dreamt about my friends pregnancies later on, I felt the same way when waking up.