It was a week after my husbands death , many electrical oddities happened which I can explain in another post.

I was lying in bed , on my side drifting off to sleep when I felt my husband press up against me and put his arms around me.

 I was holding his hand I knew it was him . He entered me slowly , tears were falling from my eyes I held his hand tightly..  it was incredible , We were ONE.. my heart was racing I felt electrified.. he started to pull away I grabbed his hand and said please don’t go , I’m not afraid.. ( I’m crying as I write this , very emotional experience) he left I got out of bed and I felt shaken and disconnected from the world.

He wanted me to remember his love.

I say that because we were away at our cabin the night he died.

I was very tired went  bed He came  in later and we had sex .. not the best it felt rushed and no emotional .. not like him at all. He went out into the living room and called me .. he was very pale and sweaty and losing consciousness.

He had to be Life-flighted  to a hospital an hour and a half away.

I had to drive and never got to see him alive again.

I KNOW HE CAME TO ME TO SAY GOODBYE AND WANTED ME TO REMEMBER THIS EXPERIENCE AND NOT THE ONE AT THE CABIN. it worked

Was this experience difficult to express in words? Yes

The very nature of the experience , it was deeply loving, sensual and consuming. I had to get out of bed and didn’t feel part of this world. Very emotional senses heightened.

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         Yes

Felt his body pressed against mine and his arms around me .. I held his hand.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Familiar, warm , part of me felt electrified ( my senses )

          Was anything communicated by the touch? Just so much love and caring .. brought me to tears

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   NO

Did you see the deceased?       No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

How long did the experience last?      Not aware of time

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       Gradual , felt him press against me arms around me , a wonderful snuggle that progressed

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Uncertain

Hard to describe,  our emotions were felt , we were one.. not something you could analyze it was intense.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   It was truly a visit .. I KNOW he was there. I was not fully asleep I was aware of what was happening as unbelievable as it was I didn’t want him to go.when he left I hit out of bed .. I had to walk around because felt disconnected and shaken.

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  Prior to the experience I was still having trouble coming to grips with his loss , I couldn’t live without him. During the experience it was pure love we were together as we should be I wanted to hold onto him forever.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain

Healing took a long, long time. I had a couple other “dreams” that year .. very short .. knew he was dead .. happy to see him .. I spoke to him but he never talked back .. I thought if he just visited me like this once a month I could deal with this .. but that didn’t happen.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Best he was there worst he was gone

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      Yes    I always feel calm , I don’t feel alone

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         Uncertain          Understanding is the wrong word .. left me with more questions.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    Yes

We were supposed to meet at our favorite spot by the river ( at our university)

We made that pact when we were very young..

he visited me at our home .. much better!

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes It has to do with the electrical system in my house .. others staying with me all experienced same thing.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         I was overwhelmed , shaken , sad that he left I wanted him to come back.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

I felt not part of the world, hard to explain , shaken , a but disoriented , heightened senses

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

Did you see a light?        No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

Have you shared this experience with others?      

No      Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?   No just wish he would visit

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes 

A long time ago a high school friend had died in a car crash .. I had a strange Experience I was so sad I just wanted to die..

one night a had a dream about him .. I was in a very dark place and I saw him he reached out his hand to me and I tried to grab it , them my grandfather was there and he yelled No go back . I

My eyes popped open I was very shaky , sweaty and I couldn’t move..

Years later( in college)  I had a dream about my friend , it was a beautiful day , I knew he was dead he asked me if I was happy and I said yes.  That was it!

At the time I was with my husband to be.

Occasionally when I was young I would dream of family gatherings .. even the deceased were there  the person talking to them always was the next to die..  everyone would tell me DONT dream of them!!

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       No .. you give a lot of opportunity to describe what happened.