On a cold December day, I was in one of my bedrooms which was turned into an office.  I was very sad and missing my husband.  When I awoke, I discovered that I was facing my husband, he had his arms out as to embrace me.  He appeared to be in this early thirties, the prime of his life.  He had black wavy hair as he did back then.  I could feel that he was happy, extremely happy to see me.  This was so real to me that I said "from my mind to his, How can you be here with me now, I though you were dead.  Suddenly he disappeared and I was back on the futon, laying on the futon on my back.  I felt the reason he had come to me was to let me know that he was not in the pain and torment that he was in his final days.  He also was at peace, and he wanted me to realize that there is life after death and that we will be together again.  This experience I hold on to.  I am not well, life is a struggle for me, and he wanted me to just take life as it comes, try to find a tiny piece of happiness in the time I have left.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

embraced, hugged around my shoulders

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   familiar

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  love, peace, don't be afraid was communicated by touch, made me feel protected and that someone is watching over me

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  no

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

he appeared young, fit, healthy, how he looked in this twenties or thirties.  He felt happy and content.  His hair was black shiny and wavy, how it looked at that age.  When he passed he was in his early sixties, he had been sick, he was frail, stressed, and anxious.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            somewhat transparent

            How much of the deceased did you see?       waist up

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       no, he appeared much younger about 30 instead of 60 when he passed

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            very healthy.  He was in need of a liver transplant when he died.  He had diabetes, a heart problem, he looked really sick when he died.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        a couple of minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

very peaceful, healthy and happy

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           To me this experience was real.  The love that I felt coming from my husband was the strongest feeling of love and well being that I have ever felt.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           felt a very powerful love, the kind of love that is not felt on earth.  I loved my husband, it was a wonderful feeling, he was the only person who I felt comfortable with, I cannot wait until we are together again.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Feeling of love, worst part is it lasted so briefly.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I now know for sure that the soul leaves the body at death, that life goes on, that life is a learning experience, I am less materialistic now, try to do good with what time you have here.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?     No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Felt happy for a while, then went back into the depression, chronic pain, loneliness, am glad that I had this experience, life passes quickly and before long we will be together till eternity.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

Did you see a light?           Yes  a glowing light around my husbands body

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     They loved to hear what happened.  It is something that they think about when they are in times of trouble.  It gives them hope for the future.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes