When I awoke from a afternoon nap, it was like there was a presence. Nothing visual or fiscal, it was so real, I even asked if every thing was OK. It was then I realized that I was alone, there was no one or thing there .... the presence subsided, but I continued to think about it a good part of the afternoon.

This seems to be a norm.  It has happened on at least two occasions, with very similar circumstances. It is not longer frightening, however the first experience was a bit disconcerting for a short time after the occurrence.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

I attempt to be practical in most of my efforts. I feel like I'm in some area of discontent or at least an unknown.

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?        Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:    I thought I heard a sound in the kitchen

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?            Outside of me; a definite auditory sound as a plastic bottle falling from a shelf onto the counter.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           No voice.... on the last occasion, I sensed a 'wanting' ..... no real connection

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           After thinking about it, not really sure. I do not have animals in the apartment, My neighbors are fairly silent

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No.

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?            Uncertain

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           Not sure, not specific

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     No

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   no

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?     could have been. I cook all my food and possibly a left over odor bacon & eggs etc.

How long did the experience last?        maybe a couple of minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         In the beginning, it was sudden. Then as I became more awake, reality took over and I more or less passed it off.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  None

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was probably real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           I am not beyond conveyance to the other side. Physical limitations, scientific fact are probably the big hold-backs. In the past I've communicated with my mother, but we had a bonding during life. Used to really bother my first wife that I would know when the phone rang, it was mother.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Uncertain

After the funeral, I expected to have a dream about her, not to be. There have been numerous occasions where that could have generated some afterthought, but it didn't happen. However, it has not been three months and it's kind of unusual to start having experiences now. I am just recently getting over the bulk of grieving in gathering up old clothes and knick-knacks to pass on to the grandchildren.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           Sadness. There is almost immediate reality that she is gone, and that is when the sadness set's in. Not long lived, but there never-the-less

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           No

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      There is no WORST .... We were long past the passion of young love, but the fire had not completely gone out. Simply to remember is a plus

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:            I seem to be more at peace with others.         

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No       Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  Yes            As it says in the good book, there is life after death.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            After the emotion of the experience, there is almost nothing. I know I can't bring her back and I wonder now if perhaps she is trying to convey something to me.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

visible time is mostly a function of light and dark. Nothing altered that I remember,

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Wishful thinking. I'm still wondering about the purpose or 'why me Lord'

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?  No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           Uncertain

Not sure. I did not see any special light, such as a spot on the wall or a flash.....but there was something. I really can not describe.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          Yes

Yes, Once (2nd time) in a vehicle, just after I had pulled out of the parking space at the apartment.

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Similar. Wives talking with husbands, mothers talking with their children...

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       I'm happy with the experience, albeit unique in its entirety. If it is to be a common occurrence, so be it.. I will share with the grandchildren

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?       Yes 

As a pilot, there were 3 such occasions. Each was specific it its own way, each brought me to the brink, but allowed me to survive.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    It is because my believe in the here-after, afterlife, etc that I know that I'm a sinner of the first water. I try to make myself a better person but years of living with sinning at the doorstep is self induced, but only self is capable of asking for forgiveness, to help others and use a lot of white paint.