My husband Ray died in January 2022 from COVID. It struck sudden and unexpectedly. He was only 70. I was in shock, in tears, in grief and did not pay much attention on anything, especially on old calculator. It has no batteries only solar. The display is always shows '0.' It is on the screen during the day time or when it's light. Zero disappears in the darkness. In the morning when it's light again, it is '0.' again. It works perfectly.

One evening I used it to count. It was '0.' on the screen when I finished, and turned the light off, and went to sleep. Next morning, July 18th, I looked at the calculator and was surprised. It was not 0. on the screen. There was different numbers on the screen. I took a picture with date and time.

It was kind of the first message. From that day I've been checking calculator all the time. It showed different numbers, symbols, even flashing ones.

I've bought several new calculators to check if it will be the same messages there. Nothing appeared on those screens. Maybe because all new calculators have solar + batteries and '0.' will disappear after a while when you don't use it.

My husband loved numbers and was very good in math. He also was addicted to computer games.

It's not my hallucinations. It's not sensing the presence of the deceased. It's a fact. I have a proof. Have pictures with dates and times. Not just every morning pictures, but most days it was several pictures a day because with new and different numbers/symbols. Plus I have videos with flashing numbers.

Nobody who saw the videos could understand how it's possible for this to happen. It has been going on since July last year and I want to find out what all it could mean. Maybe he is trying to tell me something. Or maybe he is just playing his new games.

I also had other unexplainable things happened.

Shortly after his death I was awakened by TV in the living room. It was about 3 am. TV was turned on by itself or by whom?

The other time  I got up in the morning and could not believe my eyes. The reclining chair was unfolded by itself. Ray spent last day of his life sitting in this chair before ambulance took him to the hospital.

Background Information:

Date of experience:          from July 2022

Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         No

Did you see the deceased?       No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

How long did the experience last?      from July 2022

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       still going on though last couple months it's not every day

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          No

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was probably real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   Because it's going on for so long time. Every day. 18 months.

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  No       

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I am like addicted to the calculator. Want to know what it is. Why it is.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

helplessness. Loneliness. Anger. Confusion.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Not knowing what does it mean.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes                Describe:     I am checking the calculator hundreds of times per day. Tired of it and can not live without it  

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      No     

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?  No     

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          talking to my husband. Asking what he wants to tell me. What should I do? Ask him to help me to figure it out.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

Did you see a light?        No

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    widow group people. Some friends.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         Yes 
Wrote my story.

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?   I would send you pictures and videos but don't see how I could do it in your form.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes