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EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 2575:

 For the second time, and for my second huge break-up, I've has this experience. In this case, I had had a very horrible crisis with my boyfriend, with whom I had been together for 3 years, and whom I had to get married to.

After this long crisis and only two weeks living in our new city and home, he left me suddenly, alone, in a house I did not feel like my home, on an island I did not feel like home either.

I was totally despaired. There was nobody I knew in the city, or on the island. My family was far away. I felt hopeless.

I did not eat or drink the entire day. All I did was lying on the ground, with my face on the floor, crying. I could only see the floor and the carpet.

My cat, who is usually not that sweet, licked me for the entire time, so much that my arm was sore. All of a sudden, while I was just crying and not thinking about much else than my boyfriend, I felt my grandpa's presence. Just like in the other experience, I could not physically see him, but I could sort of see him with my inner eyes. I could also see my uncle.

My grandfather hugged me from behind. I just suddenly felt him hugging me, embracing my whole body, his arms around me and his body against my back.

I tried touching his arms, which I could so clearly feel, but of course I couldn't touch them. I could 'see' my uncle standing in one corner of the room, also behind me, with his arms crossed and just watching, as if to say 'hey, I am here, but it's your grandfather's place to hug you. I'll support you from here'.

It's so weird, because I knew their intentions before hearing them speak, I could sense their love and their being worried. I could see they were comforting me, but especially my uncle looked worried and extremely serious. Also it's weird that I could see them so clearly, even the way they were dressed (especially my uncle), yet I wasn't looking at their direction, but I had my eyes pointing to the carpet under me.


Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?          Uncertain

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?       No

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?       Yes

 I was hugged from behind, thus I felt a body against my back, and arms around me.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? It was loving and familiar.

           Was anything communicated by the touch? Love. Like I'd feel if my mom hugs me when I am sad.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.

 Did you see the deceased?       Uncertain

 I didn't clearly see my grandfather, but I kind of saw him with his face lying on my back, with sunglasses, a sad face. He was standing on his knees, and bent forward so as to hug me, since I was completely bent forwards, with my knees on the floor and my forehead on the floor. My uncle was standing further away, in the room but on one side of the corridor, his arms crossed, looking at the scene. He was also very serious. None of them were smiling. He looked like he did when I saw him the other time- healthy, but the age he died. He had a dark green sweater with buttons, I think, and a pair of darker trousers, probably brownish.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            I can't say

            How much of the deceased did you see?       The whole body

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   Yes

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Healthy

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

 How long did the experience last?      Half a minute

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?      Sudden

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes

 I felt they were trying to comfort me, but were sad for how I was feeling. They seemed serious.

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?          No

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was probably real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   Sometimes I am skeptical, and I think we may see or hear things in time of huge despair, so as to deal with our pain. But I love thinking my experience(s) were real

           Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

 Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I felt just as sad while hugged, but also comforted.

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Uncertain

 I definitely found some comfort from the experience. When I finally saw my mom and told her, she cried with me. But my pain was too strong to be erased or decreased significantly.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?     The best was being hugged. The worst was seeing they looked worried for me.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Uncertain     Each experience just makes me believe more.

 Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         No     

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?         No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         I felt shocked, in a sort of good way. I still felt extremely sad and hurt, and grieving, like somebody had died. I loved my boyfriend very much, and I have felt this way for a long time to come.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          Uncertain

 My cat was there. She acted in an odd way that day.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

 Did you become aware of future events?      No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes Always had.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

 Did you see a light?        No

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

 Have you shared this experience with others?      

Yes    My mother cried. She was very touched and believed me straight away. I haven't told many other people.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?       No

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?     Yes 

I have already described them in other questionnaires.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION 2576:

 When I was 13, I met this boy on holiday. I fell in love with him like a girl my age could fall in love. He also fell in love with me. I kissed him for the first time, on our last day of holidays.

He was foreigner, and thus had to part our ways, promising to each other we will meet again soon. Unfortunately, he disappeared.

I managed to contact him again after 4 months, and then we stayed friends for a long time. But, I have always loved him. I spent countless days and nights day-dreaming about him and praying that one day we would meet again. I had many problems following this experience. I could not study, I felt depressed. For two years, I did not function properly. I do not know why it had such an impact on my life, but it did.

Anyway, after 4 and a half years in which I dreamt of him and only him, I decided to move to his country, and thus we met again and got together.

A couple of months before I would actually move to his country (which I eventually did anyway), he broke up with me.

When this happened, I was crying my eyes out. I had invested so much of my hopes and dreams, and I saw them all shuttered and destroyed. I felt hopeless.

I was crying a lot, in my bathroom, leaning with my arms onto the windowsill. The shutters were closed, and so I was just observing them and crying.

At a certain point, I heard a voice and imagined my uncle. It was my uncle's voice, which I recognized (although I cannot recall it usually, as too many years have passed since he died).

He kind of telepathically talked to me. I could not hear with my ears, but I could hear him inside my head. I also couldn't physically see him, but I knew he was just in front of me, a bit to the right side.

I remember he told me something like 'hey, don't cry, you'll be okay'. I answered 'uncle?? Is that you?'. He said 'yes, it's me, don't worry, everything will soon end. You'll be fine'. At that point, tears of joy started to run down my face. I said 'uncle, how are you over there?'. He said 'I am fine, you shouldn't worry about me. Think about you. Now I have to go'. I said 'Please, can you stay a little bit longer with me? Please'. He said 'I can't Serena, I've got to go back. But I am always here'.

I tried replying, but I couldn't sense him anymore. I felt incredibly relieved and void of my pain for some hours after the episode.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words? No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?          Yes

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?       Yes

           Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:          I heard it very clearly, but not with my ears. It was like telepathic.

           Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?          Sort of externally, but also inside of me. I heard it, although not with my ears.

           If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?    Similar.

           Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.

           Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?       No.

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?       No

 Did you see the deceased?       Uncertain

 I imagined him, and I knew with certainty where he was located in the room, although I couldn't see him. It's like I could see him with my inner eyes.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Can't say.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Can't say.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   He appeared to me in my mind like he was before getting very ill, and the age at which he died.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?           He looked healthy.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

 How long did the experience last?      A minute.

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?      Sudden.

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Uncertain

 I could sense just what you can sense when you speak to somebody. You imagine how they feel as they speak to you, but you're not certain about their feelings.

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?          He told me I'd be okay.

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was probably real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   I have already described another experience I am certain about, because I was very young when it happened. I am skeptical about these things even if many happened to me, because now that I am older my rationale comes into play. Thus, sometimes I wonder if my mind built it up just to relieve my pain. But I love thinking that's not the case.

           Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

 Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I was extremely sad and grieving. I was crying my eyes out and felt desperate, probably asking God to help me.

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

 For hours after the experience, I felt fine and grateful for my uncle's visit.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?     The best was feeling my uncle's presence and hearing him. The worst was prior to the experience.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Uncertain     It confirmed me there must be something great after death.

 Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         Yes    It confirmed me there must be an afterlife.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?         No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         Very shocked, in a good way, and happy.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

 Did you become aware of future events?      Uncertain

 He told me I'd be okay.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain

Always had.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

 Did you see a light?        No

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

 Have you shared this experience with others?      

Yes    I shared this one experience with a few people, the closest to me. Some believe me, some think I might have imagined it.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?       No

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    Yes 

I have had another experience very similar, which I will describe in another questionnaire.

 Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?     Yes 

yes, I have described it in another questionnaire. I had a near-death experience at the age of 2 and a half while drowning.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes