This account is not a personal near death experience, but the experience I had, when my father passed away.

My father and I had a deep soul connection. He lived in India, and I in Los Angeles. Even though there was great distance between us. Physically, we were always connected and there wasn’t a day that went by that I didn’t call him to check on him. I visited India frequently, and as I lives flew by, I saw him physically, deteriorating and becoming frailer and frailer. It was always very hard to leave India, and to leave his side. I loved my father dearly and it was very difficult to see him getting older and physically weaker. He was a retired surgeon and I physician. Of course, I knew one day he would pass, and I have always silently prayed that when the time came for my father to pass away, he would pass swiftly and without suffering. This was one of my deepest prayers, as I never wanted my father to suffer, especially since I’m a physician and know how heartbreaking end-of-life suffering can be.

In November 2015, I attended a yoga retreat. This retreat was in a reclusive area, and for the first time in years, I would not have access to cell phone coverage. So, I told my parents in India that for a few days I would not be available. I did give them an emergency number and asked them to contact me if something were to happen.

On the second last Day of the retreat, during a meditation practice, I started to feel a heaviness in the air and distress in the pit of my stomach as the something was terribly wrong. Interestingly, another participant felt the same way and we both approached the yoga teacher with our concerns, I felt so uncomfortable that I wanted to leave and call my parents as I hadn’t spoken with them for a few days. The yoga teacher reassured me and told me not to leave as I was leaving the next day anyway and that everything would be fine so, I didn’t follow my gut and I stayed.

That night, I had a very vivid dream. I dreamt that I was holding my cell phone, and suddenly my cell phone caught on fire in my hands the fire then turned into a funeral Pyre for those of you unfamiliar with what a funeral Pyre is, it is customary in Hinduism to cremate People and a pie or is typically made of wood and the deceased body is cremated in this. The only time I had seen a funeral, Pyre was on TV or in a movie, and it was always in the shape of a rectangular block however, the one in my dream was shaped like a teepee . This dream was so vivid, and I startled awake. I was so anxious that I quickly started packing my bags, wanting to drive out of the yoga center and call my parents.

As I was packing my bags, my cell phone suddenly pinned with an incoming message and it was a message from my sister.

‘Emergency, call me.’ It said.

I immediately found cell phone coverage and called her and found out that my father had fallen in India, and had been admitted to the intensive care unit with a fractured ankle, and possibly some cardiac issues.

I was terrified, and as I drove home, I called in my work that I would be leaving for India that night and purchased my flight to New Delhi.

 While I was on the flight, I suddenly felt my father’s soul ‘talk’ to me. In fact, I was so certain  that he was talking to me that I thought that he had passed already. He said-

‘Simmi, I’m really tired, is it OK for me to leave?’

Through my tears, I responded- ‘Yes.’

‘Will you take care of your mother?’

‘Yes’, I replied.

When I reached New Delhi, I was relieved to find out that my father was still alive and admitted into the ICU. I went to see him straight from the airport and was so glad that he was still with us.

I can honestly say that the following days were probably the hardest days of my life. Unfortunately, India has a very broken healthcare system, and I had to maneuver through it to try and get my father. The best care he could get. This entailed moving him from hospital to hospital and getting prematurely, discharged, and readmitted. All this time I was terrified and yet having to be, the physician and the heartbroken daughter.

Some very unusual things started happening to me during this period.

I started having waking visions of my fathers, hot busting into white light and then I would see the number three. This was not a dream, but it occurred repeatedly while I was awake. I couldn’t understand what I was saying, and what it meant, and also, since I was battling a very Broken healthcare system. I didn’t pay much attention to this. This is one of my biggest regrets.

Finally, after a few weeks, we found out that my father had irreversible heart damage, and it was time to discharge him home. During these three weeks, I saw my father deteriorate both physically and mentally, and it was really difficult to watch. Also, in India, families are not allowed to stay for long hours with their loved ones in the hospital rooms and we could barely visit him for a few minutes every day.

However, the day before his discharge, it was as though I had become invisible to the nursing staff. I sat by his side for a very long time, and nobody kicked me out. I left, and I return later that evening to see him, fully expecting him to be depressed  and angry, but to my pleasant surprise, it was quite the contrary.

My dad, was sitting up in bed with a big smile on his face, saying that he felt so much better, and had so much energy.

As a physician, I know that there’s some time can be a foreboding sign, that people get better before date, deteriorating rapidly.

However, what was unusual was that there was a very intoxicating energy inside his room. Also, I sensed some beings next to him, but I couldn’t physically see them. I wasn’t sure as to what I was experiencing, but there was definitely a powerful energy in his room.

After a while, it was time to leave, and I kissed my dad goodbye. My mother and I arrived home and suddenly I had this intense compelling  desire to go back to the hospital and to hug my dad and tell him I loved him and will take care of him. it was,, however, very late at night and I didn’t want to worry my mother, so I decided, that I would do that the next day. Till this date, I wish I had listened to my gut feeling.

The next morning, I was woken up with a phone call from the hospital, urging me to get that as my father had decompensated. They wouldn’t give me any more information, and I flew out of the house and hailed a cab, advising my mom to follow.

This was very early in the morning, before rush-hour traffic when the roads become congested and chaotic in New Delhi.

I was panicking in the cab and urging the cab driver to hurry. To my intense frustration, we suddenly hit a traffic jam.

A traffic jam.?! Before rush-hour.

The cab driver understood my urgency and try to maneuver through the traffic, but the roads was completely congested and blocked.

The most astonishing thing was that even though there was a massive traffic jam in front of us, I could see right through the people and the cars they were solid, but yet they were not. They were transparent and I could see right through them. This sucks and confused me and then I finally understood that something was preventing me from reaching the hospital.

I sat back in my seat and told the cab driver to relax as we would reach the hospital when we were meant to. Not knowing what to do, I close my eyes and started praying for my dad.

Suddenly, in my mind, I, I saw a being  and very loudly. I heard these words.

‘No, you cannot pray. You cannot put any more intention into the field because your first prayer is being answered.’

I could not believe what I had just witnessed and heard and I knew that my prayer, for my father had always been that when his time come, he passed swiftly and without suffering.

I just started weeping, and I suddenly saw the deity again, and the following words boomed in my head. I am certain that these words did not come from my own mind because this is not how I speak these words were distinctly from this being this being.

‘Your father has entered the kingdom of heaven, carried on the wings of an angel. You do not need to pray for him, for he has become the prayer.’

And I knew, at that moment that my father had passed away.

I frantically called the hospitals, and this was confirmed.

Miraculously, the massive traffic jam dissipated within seconds, and we reached the hospital in five minutes. I understood then, that something happened wanted me to be at my father side. Maybe, it was protecting me from witnessing any resuscitative efforts that would have been so traumatic.

I rushed to my father side, and, I saw a white light emanating from his eyes. I have seen many patients pass away, in my practice as a physician, and the look on my father’s face was that of awe. As though he had witnessed a great wonder.

My father passed away on December 3, 2015. He died from a ruptured heart valve.

So the walking visions of my father’s heart exploding into white light, and the number three, was accurate. The intuitions, the gut feelings, the dreams, and the messages were all accurate. In fact, the funeral pyre that my father had was shaped like a teepee, just like in the dream.

I also found out, that my father was awake and happy and laughing that he was going home that day, while the nurse was changing his clothes in the morning, and then he fell back and flat-lined. He did go, swiftly, and without suffering.

I saw the grace in this. I saw the providence  in the traffic jam, preventing me from reaching his side. I saw the wisdom of the being telling me not to pray, and put any more intention into the field because maybe, if I had, my father would have been resuscitated, I’ve been on a ventilator that would have only prolong his suffering.

I felt like my spiritual and scientific minds collided. I was 100% certain that a power beyond myself has been guiding me, holding me, and just showing me the way. I was just so caught up in my worry and my disbelief that I had, and paid it the attention it had deserved.

I did feel some guilt, I still, maybe I didn’t fight hard enough for my father. Maybe, I could’ve done more. Maybe, I should’ve prayed for his life. But maybe , that was just  a heartbroken daughter inside me. The physician knew better.

A few months after his passing, I had another vivid dream.

I saw this immense pink light, and I immediately knew that this was my dad. Telepathically, he thanked me for letting him go.

And then, again telepathically, he said that he wanted to show me what I meant for him inside his heart, without the confines of the ego, and all the earthly traits that we as humans have. Then, from this light flowed, the most powerful, all encompassing, unconditional love that I have ever experienced. It was a love with no opposite. Just pure love that was in capable of being anything, but that. I could’ve been an ax, murderer, and that love would be the same, adjust as potent.

I felt, that this was my dad saying goodbye and leaving me with reassurance and closure. Leaving me with the knowing of the power of his love.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  My father was Ill. He had a heart attack

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      Normal consciousness and alertness   Normal

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   As described, I was having waking, visions and dreams

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I described the voice of the Being. I heard in my head during my ride to the

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   I saw a Being

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Confusion. Shock. Awe  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   I saw the light in my vision and streaming out of my father’s eyes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin.
In my visions I encountered

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Yes   In my vision at the traffic jam, the Being was definitely a goddess in Hinduism

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No


Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I feel that I was guided by a power bigger than myself, because there was no way I could’ve been given all this information surrounding my father‘s passing.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   I experienced the love of my father soul. It is bigger, fuller, unimaginably, powerful, compared to what we experience through the ego as humans.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   In the three weeks leading up to my father’s passing, I had many visions, and obviously dreams and knowledge about his passing

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience  

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience 

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   That there is a greater power and our intuitions and gut feelings is how this power communicates with us

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Uncertain   I think this whole experience was not an ordinary    

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  2015

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real  

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No     

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes