Susan R Father’s ADC
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This story is a bit different from your typical NDE. However, I know this is important and I pray people will learn from my decisions. It was the weekend of the 4th of July and I had come home early from work to attend one of my best friends party. We had planned to go to dinner that night and then have a full scale party at their home afterwards. We had planned to drink, do cocaine and play the guitar and sing the night away. I was 22, single and working in sales making a lot of money for my age. From the outside, my life looked wonderful to everyone else. Inside however, I suffered with a very dark secret that seemed to eat up every ounce of joy that my life events brought. No one but me and my mother knew my dark secret and it was killing my very soul. I just wanted to turn back the hands of time and redo the worst decision of my life but that wasn't an option. Instead, I used alcohol and drugs, mainly cocaine do drown out my sorrows.At dinner that night, we ate at a local restaurant and I had two glasses of wine. Then we went back to our friends house to sing the night away. When we arrived back at their house we did a few lines of cocaine and I poured myself another glass of wine but I didn't drink it because I didn't want to ruin my coke high. We were there for just a short time when I located my best friend standing in the kitchen alone. I asked if I could speak with her privately. I told her my soul was in pieces and I needed her help. She had just moved back to Cincinnati from Virginia and she had been overwhelmed by her move. She looked at me knowingly but replied by saying, 'I can't deal with any more crap right my Sassy. I have my own problems to deal with and I can't handle any of yours!' She was stone cold and rude to me and it didn't seem to bother her one bit. I couldn't believe my ears! I had no idea what had happened to my best friend?  This coming from someone whom I hadn't seen in months and now she couldn't bring herself to just listen to me? I was incredibly hurt! I didn't say another word to her I simply went to find my purse so I could leave. I didn't want anyone from the party to stop me and ask 'what's wrong?' so I waited until no one was in the living room by the front door. Then I left. No one at the party knew I was gone except me.

I drove the back country roads homes because I needed to talk to God. I was desperate to speak to someone who would listen to me and truly care. As I drove down the dark country roads I screamed at God, 'Why don't you just kill me? I hate my life and I just want to be with you!' I wept and cried all the way down the dark curvy road. After about ten minutes of crying, I pulled myself together and decided I would to go Indianapolis the following morning to meet up with another friend who just might listen to me and care. I was driving on a dry surface on a clear night. The road wasn't wet or foggy. As I came around a curve, my car went into a tailspin. I had no idea what was happening! I wasn't going more than 30 miles per hour so I didn't think anything bad would happen. That was until I saw the tree headed in my direction! I knew I would hit the tree but I didn't believe I would be hurt. I simply thought, 'I'm going to mess up my car!' Then I blacked out.

At this time, my father was a chopper pilot in the US Army Reserves. He had gone to flight school at Ft Rucker, Alabama during the Vietnam War. His roommate and stick buddy, Thomas. He was a cowboy from Buffalo, WY. His wife and son were living with her parents while Thomas went through flight school with my dad. Once they had finished flight school he was headed to Vietnam. My dad escaped the war due to bing the last remaining male in his family to carry on their family name. This meant that he didn't have to go to the war. In hindsight, I think he would have been better off to go to Vietnam because he lived with survivor guilt the rest of his life. So many of his friends were killed or missing in action that it was difficult for him to live with.

When I hit the tree with my car, everything went black. I don't remember anything except making another bad decision to try to avoid the glass from the tree hitting my car. In an attempt to protect myself, I laid down across the front seat of my car to avoid being hurt. When my car hit the tree, the front driver's side tire was pushed up through the drivers side floorboard where my foot was on the break. The momentum from the force of the tree, tire and leg sent me sailing forward slamming my head and neck into the passenger side door breaking my neck in three places.  I don't remember any of this. When I awoke, I was in an ambulance strapped to a board. I was in a lot of pain and they took me to the hospital where a highway patrolman was waiting for me. They had me sign a piece of paper even though I couldn't see anything at the time. The head of the highway patrol lived next door to us and I wanted him to call my sister and tell her that I had had an accident. I didn't realize that they believed I was stinking drunk so he refused to honor my request. I told him, 'I just want him to let my sister know what's happening.' He screamed at me, 'He's not going to get you out of this!' I had no idea what he meant because I had a terrible concussion and wasn't altogether there. 'Out of what?' I asked. He quickly replied, 'You're drunk and you're getting a DUI!' I replied, 'I'm not drunk!' He didn't believe me and a nurse called my sister.

My father, mother and youngest sister were in Corpus Christi, Texas when my accident occurred. They were there with my father's Reserve Unit doing flight training. They had no idea that their oldest daughter was in the fight of her life. That night at about 1am the very time of the accident, as my parents were sleeping, my father was awoken by someone or something. He sat up in bed and looked across his hotel room to see who woke him. Standing at the end of his bed was a man just starring at him wearing GI Boots and a flight suit. My father didn't know if this was real or a dream. The man stood there for a few moments while my father got his bearings. Once my father was fully awake, the man told my father through telepathy, 'Sassy has been in a very bad auto accident. She is very broken but she will live.' It took a few moments but my father realized whom this was! This was his friend and stick buddy, Thomas. He had been sent to warm my father about my accident. My father was too terrified to believe what he was just told. As Thomas body evaporated from the room my dad went back to sleep thinking, 'Well, if this is true, I'll know soon enough.' The next morning, my parents and sister were on a sailboat when they were given the news, 'Your daughter Sassy was in a life treating accident! You need to go home as soon as possible.' This confirmed what had taken place earlier that night. Thomas HAD been there to warn my father what had happened. My parents were on the next flight back to Cincinnati, Ohio. When they arrived home they learned of all my injuries. My brother had been too afraid to tell them how truly bad off I was. I was suffering from a shattered ankle, broken leg, broken back, broken neck in three places and a head concussion that was so bad they couldn't give me pain meds for fear I wouldn't wake up. They had to set my leg and ankle without any pain medicine. I was in agony! By the grace of God, I wasn't a quadriplegic! I broke C5,6,7 of my neck which is the classical quadriplegic break. I don't know how or why God was so merciful to me given that I had just been screaming at Him to kill me and he let me live and walk again! It took a long time for me to heal and a lot of therapy but I did recover. I was cleared of all the charges the highway patrolman brought against me. I wasn't drunk after all.

The strange thing about this is, if I hadn't made that first bad decision I wouldn't have ever been on that road that night! You see, God had given me a baby. A baby that I discarded as if it meant nothing. Only it meant everything. For all you young females out there worried that you 'can't have a baby' know this: If the Lord God has given you a baby it's a gift. If I had had my baby, I never would have been on that road that night. The Lord God had given me that child to protect me from that auto accident. I know and believe this to be 100% fact! That's why I was so broken before I had the accident. I couldn't live with what I had done and needed help. Trust the Lord God with your decisions and let Him worry about the rest. He's been caring for us since the dawn of time and He does a much better job than we do! I know that demons attacked my car that night to kill me...BUT...the Lord God was merciful to me. I learned six months later that five people had lost their lives on that same tree. After my accident, they cut the tree down so no one would be hurt by it again.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  I was in a auto accident that almost took my life.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      Before I hit the tree.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   Everything was in slow motion and I knew what was going to happen before it did.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Dead people don't visit me or my family since the accident.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I don't remember.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   FEAR!  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
My dad had the encounter not me. I was unconscious.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Yes   My dad encountered his best friend from Vietnam who went missing presumed to be dead warning him of my accident.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   My dad was visited by his pilot buddy from Vietnam.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No


Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Slower


Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   My dad was told of my accident by his dead friend visiting him.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  


During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   I knew that God had given me a baby to protect me from the accident ever happening but I had an abortion.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience  

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   You don't forget an experience like this!

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I learned how very important God's gifts are and to never throw them away because they just might save your life!

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?  
Yes   I knew I was given another chance to do things right!

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?    
That my dad's friend came from the dead to warn my dad what had happened.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?  
Yes  Just once, with Thomas who was three years old when his dad was shot down in Cambodia. I thought he would want to hear this story for himself.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   Dead people don't visit you!

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   Life is real.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I care about people now.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I have become born again and trust Adonai and His son, Jesus for my needs.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   no that's all.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   This was complete.

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?  Just their stories.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?              none