Suzanne B ADC
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Experience description:

My father had AFIB, which he was medicated for. He called his doctor and said, 'this doesn't feel the same' and was told they'd send a monitor. From Feb to Aug, he'd gone from pumping 80% and enlarged 20%, to being enlarged 80% and pumping 20%. He and I loved each other, but always struggled to connect. I'd asked him to lunch on Father's Day, forgetting that he loved watching a golf game on TV, and he came. I almost cancelled after I remembered the golf, but I'm glad I didn't! I spent some time showing him that we did, indeed, watch TV, just differently and I showed him how we watched YouTube shows and I let him surf a little. (He was familiar with youtube on the computer, just not as part of the TV).

He was watching early morning TV as his wife slept, and he collapsed. They revived him in the ambulance and flew him to a big heart hospital. After they brought him out of the 24 hours of deep freeze, his heart began to falter again. They kept injecting him with epinephrine to keep him alive until everyone got there. He did briefly open his eyes and moved his mouth to try to correct my brother as we talked about a family vacation. We were the only ones there, thankfully, and I do feel like he totally knew what we were saying and that he recognized us. He looked at my brother a long while, then closed his eyes again. We had discussed his desires for quality of life, so with heavy hearts, we agreed to unplug him.

The next morning was Sunday and my husband thoughtfully played an Enya playlist on YouTube--which I've listened to before--and commenced making me breakfast. 25 minutes into the Enya playlist, my husband was putting my food on the plate, when the next song that played was, 'Cat's in the Cradle', a song that was extraordinarily important to my Dad. He worked a lot when we were kids and he re-evaluated his life at some point to be around more. He was always proud of himself for being clever like that, and I feel certain that this was a 'hey you know darn well it's me, I wish I'd spent more time with you, and I'm sorry', all rolled into one song. Then YouTube went right back to playing Enya!! My husband went to the office later in the day and carefully went through the playlist, and no Harry Chapin was mixed in. My father was an agnostic and he knew I was interested in NDEs and the afterlife, and I believe he wanted me to know he was there.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words?     No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      Yes

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

           Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   In the middle of an Enya playlist, he played a song that was important to him while he was living.

           Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?     A song unrelated to a YouTube playlist played, then went back to playing the playlist.

           If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     N/a

           Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   A song was inserted into another playlist.

           Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         No

 Did you see the deceased?       No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

 How long did the experience last?      Around 3 minutes

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       Sudden. An hours long Enya playlist was playing, the song ended, and Cat's in the Cradle started playing, then it went back to Enya. The song was important to my father and would be unmistakably recognized by me, while saying those things left unsaid.

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes

 Sadness and regret

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   My husband was here with me and heard the same thing. He went and looked at the playlist to make sure it wasn't just randomly inserted.

           Was the experience dream like in any way?  No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  During the experience I was completely in awe that this was happening!

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

 I feel like he was saying sorry about not always wanting to come when I invited him to events, and not to worry, that he was just on the other side.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?     It was very reassuring that he was there, trying to communicate with me. The worst part was that it was a one way deal and it's never happened again.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?          Uncertain     I have always believed in Life after death and that communication was possible under the right circumstances.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?    Yes

 With my MOM! The night she passed away (just 11 months later) I awoke to a shove to my left shoulder. I felt for my husband, who was across the bed from me, so I went back to sleep. A few weeks later, I read her ADC story again. In it, she mostly discusses her experience when her father died, but also briefly wrote about her mother alerting her to a tree branch  about to fall outside her bedroom I always thought her mother was shaking her leg, but it turned out it was her shoulder!! So maybe! We were close though, so I didn't have unresolved issues with her.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         A bit of reassurance. My mom (divorced from him since 1980) was completely certain it was him too. She had her own ADC with her father (Lynn R) so she already believed in this type of thing.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          Yes

 My husband was just as shocked as I was. He heard it too.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

 Did you become aware of future events?      No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

 Did you see a light?        No

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

 Have you shared this experience with others?      Yes    My mother 100% believed me, as she also knew what the song meant to him. My brother was skeptical.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         No

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes