4/7 My beloved dog passed away at vet hospital after having surgery.

4/8. Today was a very difficult and emotional day, one of the worst so far!  At work I sit next to dog lovers and they mention Bailey and I get emotional, then again when the Dr. C from the Vet Hospital called who worked with Bailey to express her sympathy and give us details and support. Then again when I read the test results she emailed…. and wouldn’t you know…Bailey didn’t have cancer after all, although she still needed the surgery!  If she would have recovered she could have been around for a couple more years…never know…so there must be a reason….as a reason is for everything!...  So today, lots of times I got upset, even at dinner when Tim brought up the topic, again in the car and Kendall says, Mommy you sad? I said yes, because I miss Bailey.  Kendall then said 'Do I make you happy?'....oh my…..My responses was, 'oh yes most definitely you always make me and daddy happy!'  Well, then I started to think about all the times I’ve been getting upset and it takes time away from Kendall…..  So this heartbreaking day was topped off when I got home to an empty house and a sympathy card arrived from the Vet Hospital…yep more tears!  I thought OMG when is this going to get any better??

Then a little later, while putting the dishes away and not really thinking about anything at all, I heard my mother's voice as if she were standing right there next to me! She said, 'Teeeennaa……I GOT HERRR!' I instantly got a mental image of Bailey standing in front of Mom facing left and Mom bending down, patting Bailey firmly twice on the side ribs as Bailey wagged her entire body with excitement with her neck & jaw up in the air looking at my mom as if Mom had a ball in her hand.  Mom’s voice was just the same as it was in life, she seemed like she was slightly out of breath when she said my name though, kind of like she just threw a ball or was expelling a lot of energy saying it to get my attention.  Her tone made me feel like I had to listen to her sort of like: Hey now listen!! You know Bailey is with me so STOP worrying about her!

After I realized what just happened, I started crying and thanked mom, then I went downstairs and told Tim/Punk what happened.  I have no doubt now, I wasn’t imagining it, I wasn’t even thinking about either one of them at the moment….So, yes, I got the message very clear and just what and when I needed it!  Bailey is fine and so is Mom, we will see them gain so quit grieving and pay attention to those in your life right now !(which I need to do better with)! !

I documented this the night of the message so I kept it and that is what is pasted above.  I will add that I had more difficulty with my dogs passing, more heart wrenching pain and torment than when my mother passed Nov 3 2014 (5 months prior) and when they appeared to me in my minds eye they were surrounded in a dense black with only their bodies visible.  Years after I saw the Stranger Things series and it looked very similar to when Eleven was put in the pool and went into the upside down and she was being surrounded in all darkness.

To this day every time I think of this experience or share it with someone I get emotional and tears flow uncontrollably. It was impactful!

Was this experience difficult to express in words?       No

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?          No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   Yes

          Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:     I heard my mothers voice yelling my name drawn out 'teennnaaa' as she did when I was younger to get my attention except it sounded like she was slightly out of breath and distant. Immediately after she said 'I got her!' said rather slowly and matter of factory. at the same time I was provided a mental image of my mother with my dog, Bailey as described earlier.

          Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?    It sounded externally and It was loud enough that I turned my head in the direction of her voice which was to my right shoulder. But the image was in my head.

          If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?        The exact same voice, tone and sound of her voice.

          Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?      No one was present on the first floor of my home where I was . No TV or radio playing. My husband and child were watching tv on a lower floor.

          Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?     No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   No

Did you see the deceased?       Yes

It was so fast I did not examine details but my mother and dog looked just like they did before they passed.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Solid but in my minds eye, not by my visual sight.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Full body of both the dog and my mother, which also included her usual loving 'two pats' on the dog as she always did in life.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died? Same age but the bodies were not up close so they could have been younger.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?           No physical issues were seen. Mother had some walking problems but she was standing and bending over the dog so I did not see her walk.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?       No, my mind was not thinking of anything at the time just the mundane task of emptying the dishwasher.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?       No

How long did the experience last?      A few seconds maybe 5.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?          Sudden. I hear her yell my name which caught my attention and the end was sudden like turning off the TV. Blip they were gone.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?         Yes

Her voice and visual made it clear that my dog was with her and they were having fun (dog appeared happy) mother was a dog lover! Her tone was evident she was taking care of the dog.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?          Yes, she assured me that the dog was fine and with her which I was not aware of before.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

          Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   I know without a doubt I heard my mother and saw both her and my dog together. I did not dream it or hallucinate. It was as real of an experience as any in our physical world.

          Was the experience dream like in any way?  No      

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          Shock and attention deflection from the task at hand. I ran down stairs and asked if they heard it, that’s how real it was.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          Yes

The death of my dog was absolutely devastating, I was  having a lot of guilt for electing surgery and her dying with strangers and not at home. This experience has helped me cope with those feelings.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    Best was the experience and knowing they can contact you. Worst is others who don’t know how impacting it is.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?          Yes                Describe:     My outlook has changed to incorporate more interest in the afterlife.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes    Yes, I Grew up a loosely type of Christian having experienced some religious training for a time but was not devout and did not affiliate with a church or sect. I’ve learned more about various religion via college and have since feel being a certain religion or belief in a god is not necessary. While some of the teachings my help lead better lives, The rules, the structure, the belief in hell etc. is not a part of my life, nor will it ever be. I do explore and am open to paranormal events.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         Yes    Life exists after death or I would not have heard and seen them in this experience. I KNOW there is more after death.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?         No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         Joy, excitement, confusion, tears, grief for their loss but also exuberant that I was lucky enough to receive this experience.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?         No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?      No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?    Yes

There seem to be more strange coincidences occurring and I also captured an orb in front of the doggie door in one of the pictures I took of our new deck just outside the doggie door. I have captured orbs in the past as well while at night in a cemetery, but this one related to my own dog at my own home.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?          No

Did you see a light?        No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?        Yes

The visual of both of them was in an all black space so only their bodies were seen and no surroundings visual.

Have you shared this experience with others?      

Yes    My father, who was unmoved, likely disbelief.

Husband and daughter who were receptive.

Sister who believed.

An aunt (mothers sister)over email, who was encouraging.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No Response

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?          I wish everyone could have this experience.

My experience was 5 months and 5 days or 22 weeks and 2 day after my mother passed. And one day after my dog passed.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?    No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                    Yes

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       Thank you for allowing an outlet to tell of this dramatic and wonderfully life changing experience.