This is with regard to my daughter's drowning death - I believe I was allowed a glimpse into her death at the moment it happened and had some sort of connection to the beyond during the days that followed - but it faded gradually.

A little background on my daughter - she was a wild spirit who lived life to the fullest - a world renowned photographer in the urbex community - an incredibly old soul.  She was beautiful, fearless and loved by people from all over.

On June 2, 2018, I was with several other family members - all female - for an upcoming family wedding.  My daughter lived in Philadelphia and this event was on the Eastern Shore of Maryland,  Becca was supposed to attend, driving down from Philly, to participate and photograph her cousin's events leading up to the wedding.  She was supposed to be arriving at 5:00 pm but it was not unlike her to be late.  My text to her at 4:00 'are you on your way' was nothing out of the ordinary.  However, at exactly 4:30 pm my heart literally stopped - I cannot describe what I felt other than to say that there was a rip in the fabric of my world. I felt it physically, emotionally and in another way I have no words for - like very cell in my body skipped.  I immediately started voicing (very loudly) to my family that something was wrong - literally screaming for her cousins to call her.  I called her brother in NC (a USMC fighter pilot) to find his sister (he thought I was nuts and overreacting to exactly nothing).  I called her, I texted her, I posted 'where is Rebecca?' on her boyfriend's FB (I had never posted anything on his FB before).  My family didn't know what to make of my actions, and I left.  My trip home takes me over the Chesapeake Bay Bridge and the rain leaving the shore was horrible - blindingly heavy.  Before I got too far from where I left, I stopped on the shoulder and called the police in south Philly (where she lived) and demanded a wellness check on her apartment (I have never called a wellness check on anyone EVER before).  The police thought I was a little nuts but I didn't care.

I spent the next hour or so driving home in the blinding rain calling out loud to so the universe to please give me a sign that what I already knew wasn't true.  I was also calling out to someone who I was certain was sitting in the passenger seat of my car.  I did not see them - but I knew with those same cells that has skipped a beat that there was someone sitting next to me.  I think I heard them in my head telling me to drive safe, get home safe, that there are things I need to handle and be strong for.  I don't know how to express how certain I am of this someone being there. 

When I got home at around 6:30, I started making calls - to her dad in Florida, to my son and his wife pleading with them to get in the car and come home, to my sister in law and the cousins telling them to get to my house - I needed them.  They no longer thought I was nuts and started the trek to my house.  I called the police in South Philly again and was told that someone would call me back shortly (what the hell was that?).  At about 9:30 I got a call from detectives in the northern part of Philadelphia to tell me that my daughter had been swept away in a flash flood and that they were doing everything to find her (her boyfriend was also swept away but got out).  The next 12 hours were a blur - I don't remember much other than the absolute truth that there was someone else with me.  I later found out from her boyfriend that they were trying to get out of the rising water holding onto each other, that they got separated but were calling out to each other until Becca quit responding at exactly 4:30.  I know it was exactly 4:30 because Fran, her boyfriend, said something told him to look at his phone when she stopped yelling and he was amazed that it was still in his hand and still lit up - at 4:30 pm.  He told me this before I told him what I experienced at exactly 4:30.  It was also later determined that Becca did, in fact, drown; she was pulled under and hit her head leaving a large wound in her forehead.  The medical examiner said she was unconscious but took no more than two breaths - leading to her drowning. 

In the days that followed, I started using words and phrases that were completely foreign to me.  I referred to Becca as transitioning - not dead.  I started being able to kind of see beyond this world - like I was looking through a screen and just on the other side beyond what I could touch was this beautiful place where she was - but she was also all around us.  Like it was a veil and that it was just so thin.  That I could almost reach out and touch it - that it was all around all of us but just out of reach.  All during this time, there was still this presence near me - I could not see it but I knew it was there.  It was guiding me to do what had to be done, but to also recognize the beauty in the gift I was given - that Becca reached out to me at the moment of her death and that she is ok - she is happy - she is laughing.  And that I am absolutely positive that I will see her again - I just have to wait my turn.  It is very hard to put this into words and I don't feel I am doing my experience any justice.  The certainty that I know what I saw and felt and heard is so real.  She was there!  And so what this other presence sent to me for comfort.  And so is the peek at what is beyond the veil I was given.  All of this has made her death bearable to what ever extent possible.

I have since been put in front of 3 different mothers who have lost a child - literally within days of it happening.  Two of them complete strangers but I have been able to share this certainty with them.  I have been contacted by artists, friends and photographers from around the world to share this with.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     I was experiencing something while I was still alive and very much in this world, I was given a look into what was beyond - I am 10000% certain my daughter was allowed to let me see - and that I was being guided and comforted by a presence

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      4:30 pm

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   I was aware of every cell in my body and could recognize that there were other beings with me

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I could 'see' things - more like seeing and feeling and hearing and knowing were all the same

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I heard instructions in my head - but same as above - seeing feeling hearing knowing all the same

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   I heard the voices leading me to what needed to be done - but not audible voices - I heard the instructions in my head (but way deeper than my head)

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   anger, fear, certainty  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I was being comforted by a presence that was getting me home safe, guiding me in what needed to be done

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?      

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   Some unfamiliar and strange place
I was alive - but I could 'see' and experience something just beyond my reach - but something that is all around us all the time - just oh so thinly veiled.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about myself or others
There was a knowing in what had happened, regardless of my refusal to accept it at first.  But I knew.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   I 'saw' it - but it was like looking through a screen - but I also so what was physically in front of me in this world at the same time.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   There was someone/something with me guiding me the whole time from 4:30 on and for the next few days

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   We are all connected in ways that are so far beyond the flesh.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   I don't know how I know this - but at the moment of my daughter's death I knew that love is all there really is - that it is like the collagen that holds everything together - that it can't be pulled apart - just moves to different forms.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   Just that we move to a different form of existence - but we never die

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience  

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th  
 
My experience directly resulted in:   Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   I am more aware of how my actions affect others

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     We are all connected - that we need to live fearless lives

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  I shared it with other immediately - I continue to do so.  There has not been one person who disbelieves what I have shared - way too many have experienced my Becca since her death.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   I had heard of them - thought they might exist.  Thought most of the recent movies that portrayed them probably got it wrong or were religious propaganda

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   It is as real today, one year later, as if it happened 5 minutes ago.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   same answer as question 56

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I try to be better to people

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes